bigger laptop i even see

look not thing special ????

slightly different D???

my bag is 15.4 laptop bag compare with normal laptop

my 1 is already slightly bigger d

just like a small TV

i think this laptop cost more than 10k and also the screen more than 20inch really crazy to carry here and there . the laptop is belong to my friend house owner .

all the way from USA and HK

i give my friend , what he do is just same as what i will do . before put in the stomach we take a photo of the oatmeal first because will not find in malaysia any more ma...........

KL

my cousin fetch me at zoo negara with SLK200. hai......... the car cost 480k , to earn that type of car i think need my 10 to 20 yr salary lo.............

age 22 just 1 yr different only , i just feel happy that at least i have chance to sit on it than some 1 no . just like i can fly in the sky , not every 1 can do it .

for me i will like different with other , if people having that thing i wont want but i will hope get the better thing from that . for me to get some thing is not so hard but my brain will automatic feel the hard work my parent had done . so every time , i want some thing i will try my own way to get it rather than just open my hand to get the thing . i will really really work in out if i want the thing i can do almost every thing to get the thing that i want .

bored to chasing thing but in this world the people eye is so realistic and look up for those rich and step down on poor people lo....... hai ............ what to do !! get a job as soon as possible and continue my planning not 5C i also want 5S .

KL i am coming !!!!!

just now start engine already been fxx by the inst !!!! hai........ i most cant stand people shout at me ! but that moment i silent and ignore him only .

any way 10days holiday , i want to fully utilise the time .

happy that my breach can be take out d........ on this 06/05/2010 .
may be will not use to it with out it , but i think is good to start the feeling all over again .

lack of slp

yesterday 5am only slp just now wake up at 6am than report at 7am , now go back sleep and they put me fly at 5pm !!!!! what the hell right !!!! plan without using the brain at all........

1700 - 0700 = 10 different ma.......


feel energy but later fly i dont know what will happen la............ back to sleep than tonight go back kuantan or go KL la.........

love headache and cough

headache and cough is what i will get when i smoking !!!!

but i start love this feeling !!! crazy but at least i feel i still a life !! i still feel some thing !!!
i really dont understand why people smoking !!!

today i been practise how to smoke wont make me feel bad !!! i smoke 8 stick but the result still suck........ so i dont think i suitable for smoking ....... just feel headache and uncomfortable that all i will get . if choose smoking and drink i think i better drink la, at least i get the high of it smoking for me is not thing . just to light up the stick and stand together with those instructor , mostly i just light and play with the smoke but never take it or provide cigaretteto them .

happy because get headache =.=

the most pain people feel

today i been accompany my friend to do some photocopy work, than he tell me that he got issue with the wife the wife run away d......... he say now what he feel is like the heart been cut down and other side still bleeding !!!!! the wound is so deep till it very very hard to cure d...........
than i think back my case and he case what so bid deal with my case !! puppy love !!! that of out future and plan .

currently he feel very very sad till he dont interest to any other thing more , that moment i realise that this is a very very serious thing happen to him d!! because he use to be a very strong man . that almost can solve every thing !!! but this strike to him really make a big impact for him . that i share my currently feeling to him also , than he just ask me a simple question ? who long you with her ? 4yr but how many time you meet together ? for me i face my wife every day open my eye i see her before sleep i see her again !!! so for your case what so big deal !!

i think back why his wife will run away ? i cant get the answer ! his wife is a Indonesian her life at there is very poor till hardly sit on the car but here she got her own car and house . not need to work can life quit easy life she dont give up this !!??

what my friend did today was , he taip and make a album with CD and lyrics maybe is her wife favorites song or what i dont know la.... but i feel that is he really feel sad his wife can just so cruel leave him alone . now for me married !! so what ! just a piece of paper that having 2 signature only i really sad for this world thinkig d.......... free thinking till the bad thing also can be accepted d......


start feel lonely and scare d........................ if this happen to me i dont think i can take it !!

bad dream again :(

like usual hang out , than meet some 1 i know they reaction is why together back ? ? than dinner time with friend all the comment given also very negative 1, til i cant take it i go back home with her than back to the home that 0 privacy . i dont why i will still dream making out with her !!!??

together again but some thing happen . i gone or she gone not so sure , the dream so real till i a wake d.......... may be experience it before so make this dream more realistic and colourful

hate this type of dream , cant control at all .......

but luck just a dream !!! if real thing happen once again i dont think i can take it any more !!

go to take a cold cold bath wash away all the bad dream and thinking , later still have to fly melaka alone so no time for silly thinking

hehehehe

the story begin from want to cook spaghetti for dinner .

after dinner not thing to do , and feel so thirsty so so so so since is tiger year

just drink some "tiger cans water"

papa sponsor 24cans tiger , i just but the peanut and potato chips

and cook the spaghetti lo.......

first timer !!! drink from the cup hehehhee

no time no time , finish by today also .......

that night result pa pa 12cans really can drink lo.................

me 8cans
first timer 3cans
outsider 1cans

i prefer this type of drinking rather than at pub because , i feel safe any thing i just walking back and sleep . some more all i know if they want to put pill i also not thing since my room just next door so it safe of course i know my limitation i cant drink fast because of the gas i will get drunk very fast.

this is the first time we drink together , because i not joining them drinking outside i feel uncomfortable for that .

girl love junk food

hehehe 50.00 just fr junk food !!!!

my sister really really love junk food , but not me !!! i not dont like is lazy to eat i scare get fat
later . but i do love to eat chocolate it make me feel sweet ans warm and comfortable

no title

people always think they know every thing !!! so that why they will do some thing than say is for other own good ! but in this world even it so unfair and horrible we still have to live within it .


blogging in the smaller room in the house if really not good feeling but i still feel more comfortable compare stay with other with 1 big room . at least i get my privacy i can do almost every thing i want here .

pass few day my pretty sister come all the way from hong kong to visit me , that time every 1 saw me with her the first thing will think she is my girlfriend bring back for supper . in here , this thing is just too normal even how i try to explain no 1 will belief any way think what even you like i cant stop people thinking but i know what i am doing .


conclusion !!! dont think you know every thing !!! ask for futher infomation !!! dont guess or act smart !!!

just love it............

You know you love me
I know you care
Just shout whenever,
And I'll be there
You want my love
You want my heart
And we would never, ever, ever be apart

Are we an item?
Girl quit playin'
We're just friends,
What are you sayin'?
Said there's another as you look right in my eyes
My first love, broke my heart for the first time

And I was like
Baby, baby, baby ooh
Like
Baby, baby, baby noo
Like
Baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)
Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like
Baby, baby, baby noo
Like
Baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)

Oh oh For you, I would have done whatever
And I just can't believe we ain't together
And I wanna play it cool
But I'm losin' you
I'll buy you anything
I'll buy you any ring
Cause I'm in pieces
Baby fix me
And just shake me till you wake me from this bad dream
I'm goin down, down, down, down
And I just can't believe my first love won't be around

And I'm like
Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like
Baby, baby, baby noo
Like
Baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)
Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like
Baby, baby, baby noo
Like
Baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)

(Luda)
When I was 13, I had my first love
There was nobody compared to my baby
And nobody came between us, no one could ever come above
She had me going crazy, oh I was star-struck,
She woke me up daily, don't need no Starbucks(Woo! )
She made my heart pound, I skip a beat when I see her in the street
And at school on the playground but I really wanna see her on the weekend
She knows she got me dazing cuz she was so amazing
And now my heart is breaking but I just keep on saying...

Baby, baby, baby ohh
Like
Baby, baby, baby noo
Like
Baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)

Baby, baby, baby ohhh
Like
Baby, baby, baby, noo
Like
Baby, baby, baby ohh
I though you'd always be mine (mine)

I'm gone
Yeahh, yeah, yeah
Yeahh, yeahhh
Now I'm all gone
Yeahh, yeah, yeah
Yeahh, yeahhh
Now I'm all gone
Yeahh, yeah, yeah
Yeahh, yeahhh
Now I'm all gone, gone, gone, gone
I'm gone

what will happen if no internet ?

just finish self study online , so many information we can get there !!!!

i dont want to let the idiot say i am a empty brain pilot d......... i know what is the limitation and why d... many thing to cover but not now almost 3am d......
tired tired.

the different of physical and spiritual

my out look can be say look tough ! because i hate people sympathize to me ! i does not require that !!

i know my tongue can be so powerful till out of my imagination !!!! poison or sweet word is come out from the same tongue 1.............. i know what is right what is not !!!! i know that !!

mostly i think i can use my tongue to kill people . i mean the word i use can kill the person heart as well .

every night during prayer i feel so " spear and shield " . what i has done >>?
the voice inside the body keep on fighting till my self also feel tired !!

tryto enjoy every second that i having now

girl really really complicated

my friend ask break with her boyfriend than after a week the guy ge another girlfriend than the girl feel regret ??? what is this la???

if you ask for break that mean you know this happen right ? than you regret !! what is this la... what is inside your ming la... you exspect that the guy will change or keep waiting for you ???
but you ask for break >? than you regret ? this statement i still cant accept !

let's be fair , the thing that not suitable for you not mean that it not suitable for other . so what for you holding it but keep looking for another better 1 !!!
most of the time , people say guy can change from 1 girl to another girl or can together with few girl at the same time . may be it true !!! but i think not me . currently not !!! last time yes , but not now d.....


dont even know how to tell lie d........ because it is the best weapon for guy . why i say that ! ? is because girl are so special they more prefer that you lie to her to cover the true also dont want to discover the true . they think at least his cover the ugly part , so funny !


so so so so so hopelessssssssssssssssssssss , when can i graduate ? i hate to answer this question !!! because even my self dont have the answer ! so what you want me to tell you ? another thing is after graduate have to jobless for around half year !!! i think God have some thing want me to learn in this suffer period . even through is not physical suffer but the mentality suffer is the worst !!!!


currently feel that !!! not thing is important any more . just like you manage to win a tough competition but no 1 to share the happiness just your self only .

it is must be bad enough only can attract those ...................................

3 day never fly d...............

except flying i dont what can i do any more, keep reading and do some revision

just back from singapore

so damn tired , my foot step already cover half singapore d................

no time to upload picture yet................ so so so tired, but is fun to go with my lovely sister . at least my mind feel relax and comfortable , since few month so stress and moody .

is a good break and refesh for me .

almost cant return to base

today after i land at melaka then the weather coming to johor d, right after i land and today i not only speeding on the car any more but plane i fly 140kt all the way around 1kt =1.8km so quit fast la......... but if i never do that mean that i have to camping at melaka d...........

thank God i manage to come back safely ............ scary day /

long time never drink d.................

just now my friend buy me drink , 24can we 2,3 guy finish it . he drink 12 i drink 10 another 1 or 2 other people drink .

that moment remind me last timei at penang i drink i a bit drunk but not so drunk so that why i keep telling that i not drunk , i am not drunk story end ...................................


after drinking my friend call for fishing i also follow only la......... but already feel ok ok d....... so reach the fishing place only i sit there and relaxing my mind . try to not thinking other thing any more just focus on fishing .

1 hour just past i get non thing but my friend keep getting fish , so i also lazy d... just left the fishing rode there and lying on the bike , than sudden got many red ants bite me........... i fall down together with the bike of course bleeding but lucky the bike still ok la........ and me also just both leg bleeding non thing much . hai ............... ok la.........


tonight the mind feel relax la.......... tomorrow backto normal again flying eat sleep

cleaning room

accidentally found my hand writing dairy T.T .

so fast 3 day after , that day d................. in the dairy is so detail till how much time also got . the number going out really use 1 finger also can finish counting it d.................

looking forward d....... changing is in process make sure the same thing wont happen any more .



lucky that inside the dairy i write with my own code so any 1 read it also wont understand it ...... due to privacy better be safe .

who know the end of his day ?

some time i always think that !!! like those degree or doctor just graduate than facing car accident and pass away . during study time i am for sure that he got his beautiful plan too but in the end also cant do any thing . that is the gray site of thinking , the positive thinking is thank God i am still a life !!!!

in the beautiful world , it just like a big huge puzzle every 1 is 1 of the piece can you imaging??? 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 size puzzle during put it piece by piece than only you discover that 1 piece is missing what do you feel you already done the 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999 just because that piece the whole puzzle is uncompleted .

i really feel sorry my past 20yr , i never really participate in this grand huge design T.T another way my self screw up and destroy that piece T.T . till now i still feel sorry for that . God know me well , He love me he giving me the freedom of choice but i misuse the power .

without God , life is just like a gamble . you will never know what will going to happen ?
i miss the comunity the small group at kuantan . at least when my power is low i can get some motivate from them . currently just like walking alone in the dark path , so scare but have to continue walking to the another end .

the sciencetist reserce found that if in your whole life you having 2 or 3 friend i mean a close close buddy you are the most happy person in this world d............ the relationship is closer than huband and wife !!!! because you know that they wont set you up , any thing happen to you they will stand up for you !!!

SO EMO lo....this blog =.=
going to bath wash away this bad feeling

before slp

feel so bored no getting mood for any thing .
enter this school was a mistake when only i can graduate and on line . get licence but jobless also no point

worry bored stress and worry /..... T.T best way redure stressssssssssssssss

justin bieber

just age 13++ not even 14 .

so famous d......... some time not that how much talent you have ? the problem is it is a right timing that show off your talent ???


Early life
Bieber was born in Stratford, Ontario, and was raised by his single mother, Pattie Mallette.[7][8] He was 12 years old when he entered a local singing competition in Stratford, placing second.[3] He taught himself how to play the piano, drums, guitar, and trumpet.[9] In late 2007, Bieber and his mother began posting videos on YouTube[10] so his family and friends who could not attend his performances could view them, posting his versions of songs by Usher, Chris Brown, Stevie Wonder, Justin Timberlake, Ne-Yo and more.[10]

Scooter Braun, a former marketing executive of So So Def, saw his videos, and flew Bieber to Atlanta, Georgia, where he met with R&B singer/songwriter Usher.[10] A week later Bieber sang for Usher,[11] who arranged an audition with Antonio L.A. Reid at Island Records, who in turn signed him to Island Records in October 2008.[10] Justin Timberlake was reportedly in the running to sign Bieber, but he eventually signed with Usher.[12] Bieber and his mother then moved to Atlanta, also the home of Usher and Braun, to base his career


so easy copy and paste now only i realise this function oh no................

start to worry for my future d...........

like my school still got 2 fresh graduate pilot working as the flight ops . earning 2k per month oh no.......................... every 1 is applying for the cadet ship i also wanted to do so but by the time i read the requirement i feel sad d...... my result mostly B and C no A for me T.T and the requirement ia min A in english or math !!!! till now i also dont no why my math get B i never get before !!!!! hai not thing can be done d........

just trying my best to complete this course and reading more more aircraft book to increase the knowledge i think this is the only thing i can do d.

just finish flying

continuely for few day lack of sleep and stress . make my body feel very tired and almost cant stand d..........

many people always say your job so easy , your school life so easy , this and that come and try it your self la............. the stress not only on the body also at the mentality . for me i most afraid i snooze the phone till i press wrongly to off te alarm . every time my phone ring i also feel alert because miss a flight is a very serious deal in my school and also future work.

the best thing is yesterday after i finish my flight plan around 1 some thing my sister call me, and the best part is i set her caller ring tone is the same as my alarm . that moment i really feel that the time past so fast i just fall sleep that 6:00am d.............. in the end , only i notice that is 1 am ?????!!!!!!! going to be crazy heheheheheh .

good to prepare from now d....... because future 10 to 20 yr i will have this type of life .

DATE NIGHT

http://www.tgv.com.my/movies/movies.asp?mID=1005

it is after get married than the relationship sure will be taste less ?????? after watching this i afraid that will happen to me to !

may be currently the moody still swing swing some more watching with guy friend but surrounded by couple . the feel is just so "good "

slp.................... no time , alone also not bad ma.....

cool down d.............

today i just learn a leason , dont even fight when you are empty .

now i will try my best to reading all the book , any thing i just say find from the book . not going to follow this intructor that intructor d.............. every 1 give different answer who should i follow la...... do wrong that get screw up !!!!!

tomorrow will be better !!! because i already almost fill in the blank d..... just wait for tomorrow weather report that can fill in the rest d...............

if think doing this will more easy for future le..... i feel more happy to do it d...... some time just the way we think dont care you happy or not you still have to get it done what so why not?

cancel nav due to date not complete

what the hell is this ??? revenge it is ??? idiot !!!!1 mother fuxxxxxx other people never do ok only . what the hell..........

some more after doing the data shit also no 1 will look at it , just like a paper work !!!!!!!!!!!!! what the hell you compare us with the ariliner ?????? you brain it is function ??? we flying at 1500ft jet flying at 40000ft .

then you call us to count the top of climb >>>?? people climb to 40000ft of course they have to count but us just 1500ft less than 5min we reach 1500ft d........ what data you want la...... mother fuxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx .

fine i find al the data , mother fuxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx to make you happy idiot . we ask why we have to do this he answer is i feel happy since you all so free so do some thing extra .

always say we are maggup pilot never read the book and understand it just read and remember the answer blindly so how bout you mother fuxxxxxxxxyou think you know every thing >??? every time ask question direct from the book and give the answer direct from the book also me also can do it !!! change over la..... i find some question than you answer see you can answer it a not ??? you also a magup pilot la..... if not you wont no dare to taking the flight test with the government people but private in house exam la..............


pisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

feel lighter

after release or finally solve it d.

i believe if is my thing no 1 can take it away from me, but if not belong to me i will never never get .

so plan to be a man not boy any more .

if i fail to plan , mean that i plan to fail.

so rather just jump into the hot soup blindly , i choose to equip my self be a better person

听和停

not going to be like that d........................ i know i am not ready for any 1 . i dont want to hurn any body that i love and care d..................


stop

stop smoking

to do list

stop thinking silly
stop moody

i must hold my religion tight

i must quit those idiot thinking

quit smoking even just started

no 1 night stand even every 1 is doing it !!

setting the base line again , being a man not more a silly school boy any more is time to take care my own self before i can take care any body else in this world .

if i do every thing they do , so who i am ? i think i really need a big slap to wake me up from this . i dont want to be just what people think !



pilot = playboy temptation is always there , i know i cant win it if i face it . so i choose to run escape from those place that may "kill me " . no way to trying this !!!!!!!! i know is easy to get in the "there" but hard to get out from " there "


is time for bed tommorow 7:00am flying nav , stress but hoping that weather clean and safe journey .

damn !!!!!! satan !!!

his most power trick LOVE !!!!!!!! i belief that no 1 can escape form this !!!! but it also mean that if this time it cant kill you he is just make you stronger .


few friend and my lovely sis angkat end the long relation this year , all starting just like me like the whole world is going to end this not good that not good !!!!!! what to do ! we lost the war ma..... is time to paid the debt.



have to believe that my HOLY FATHER is more greater than that ................
HE is the Creator , HE got HIS own timing that we will never understand !!!!

that is how stupid we are !!! giving you pound but we keep holding the rupee T.T

thunder storm rain again

got the feeling want to run out of the house and play under the rain !!!!! i think the cool thunder storm rain should make my mind clean .

calm down d....................................................... back to the realistic d...... don't care that i want or not i have to . any small error will cause me a heavy price .( my life )

not going to play a fool with the weather , i just got i engine not other just like my life that will never never take 2 of my life .

the clock is counting on , it will always move forward even i wish it can go backward .! but i know that is impossible !!!!

ZZZZzZZZZ

have a good sweet dream is a blessing ! but i think not tonight ! many thing poping here and there !!



always told my self a better future is waiting for me !!! tomorrow will be fine ! heh eh eh eh i miss chocolate taste .

during eating i feel slight better . at least it can bluf my mind for few second before back to the realistic . if continue like that for sure i will be FAi CHAI d............

still got many thing stuck in my head

the sisa sisa still around me ! it is really have to delete burn trow it all ?? if do also for product .
how to delete the mentality problem !!!

it is got any way to reformat my mind ?

i feel no joy at all , even flying !!! now what i hope is faster finish the hour start working and focus on working and maximise my time on work . as a painkiller , at least some thing !!!

Rather than eat slep fly play ................

i am really really lost ? trying this and that to overcome the loneliness !!!
starting dont how to use the mouth to communicate with other d....... all chatting by mail or sms .


up grade to smoker , but i think no continue because it does not help me reduce stress just bring headache only .

almost cant see tomorrow sunrise

today flying i will never forget !! T.T really scare me off ~!!!!!

like usual i take off the black dark cloud already at the south , i estimate it wont come so fast but!!!!! just right after time that i take off from runway 16 . the weather reach the air field d........
i still ignore it because i just like a small "cow " that never meet the tiger before !!! dont no how to write the DEAD word. i continue flying , than i hear RT from my instructor he also just take off i am right after him , he request to land than 1 minute later he give advise to all cadet to land asap .

the first thing in my mind , i feel piss because i just take off than have to land d!!!!!! what la...??!?!?! but after i hear another RT from airasia a huge airbus 320 request hold at the runway to check the weather radar !!!! i cant imaging a huge jet that like 10 or 20 times bigger than my aircraft refuse to take off and hold to check the weather radar !!!!!! i belief that their weather radar sure already show colourful picture showing the thunder storm coming !!!!

that moment i was blank la..... still dont fell the danger yet !! but when the time i land the air craft and get back into the car the heavy rain fall follow by the lighting .!!!!!!!!!!!! that moment i really feel glad that i on ground d............. that time what he want to scold i also never mind d.... because he do save my life !!!!!!

i cant imaging if i ignore the instruction continue flying , and the rain fall or strike by the lighting i think that it la... my pilot life!!! because the TSRN thunder storm rain really scary .
i drive also cant see the road clearly , even it just last for 10minute than it past but i cant promise that the 10minute i will be safe on the air .


if my engine down , that it d................ no more second engine for me d............ what i can do is pray than find a nice place to close my eye ! thank God i still a life .


now day , the weather changing is faster than the girl emotion . so hard to estimate d.........

spear and shield in chinese idiom

i mean my self !!!!!!

i am so so so so so so so so possitive thinking in front of other mean face book . but here i know that i not that .

feel like getting crazy d......... always tell people think bout the bright side , stop thinking the sillly thing but in the end my self drop into the hot soup .



=.= think ? ops!!!! light buld blow off d..........

不值得

同人不同命， 人比人，比死人。

所以， 不想比较了。

人有的， 我以前以为有， 其实我并没有。

酱应该会比较开心， 一个人过生日也挺好的。

多自由， 开心就好！

write 2 blog

1 for happy 1 for emo and sad

1 for laugh 1 for tear and emo

the ratio of happy and emo always unstable in my life .

when emo time , i feel that the world just like will end tomorrow .

keep eating chocolate , it does cheer me up even just the few second .

so fast the time past , i mean the happy sweet time .


the bored and sads time will always always past slowly even a day i feel it past like a year .

T.T downloading.................... : ................ ) ........................ : ) get that ? hard to be happy .......

not thing but flying

i feel so tired to fight for flight d......................... currently i really dont feel the joy of flying d........ now what i wish is faster finish this suffering 200hr and get a job .

during that time , i fly for money you scold me i may still laugh but now i paid the school but the school just fuxxx us up !!!!!!

when ? when only i can gradute ? trying to suprise my self by dont give away any single chance that i can fly . even bad weather or what i dont really care just finish the hour that i feel better d.

AIM ? losing the aim d................ i cant see my future clearly that really kill me . T.T 200k ? may be for some 1 is just a small amount of money but of course not for me ! ! 1 1!!!!

what you will do if you having second chance ?

in this world there is no second life , life is always no take 2 . always take 1 and every second is counted !!!!!! currently feel that my life so empty the more i wish to fulfil it the more i feel empty !!!

in the real world !!! the best thing is you will never know the future !!! or what will happen the next ? so excited right ? surprise ??? ya may be some 1 like this it some 1 not !!!

but if you think this way , if you already know the ending of the movie the main character is dead you think you still will go watch that movie ? or a football match that you know the mark is 0:0 you still will want to watch ? of couse no right !?

so dont let the thing suprise you but your own create the suprise to your self !!!!


dont really understand what i talking about ? me too

social smoker

i become sosial smoker d................ starting from the second hand smoke . a stick :( hai does bring any good feeling to me also just bring me headache only .

i feel so piss to my housemate the two idiot !!!! 1 is like shit !!!! another is like dog !!!!!

the first 1 ask what also dont know ? the scond just like dog fuxxx around hai.............. beside my room .

i dont what happen to my house fridge break !!! the line phone also lost d!!!! what the fuxxxxxx line home phone also can lost !!!!!

pisssssssss

weird feeling

just a sms i feel weird .



may be i think too much d........... any way i not going to think some more d.............

think also no use , better keep the energy for tomorrow flight .

pisss thing happen again

what the hell is the idiot brain thinking !!!

just now i was flying at east of the air field , than after half and hour i plan to call for rejoin and continue by doing touch and go . thing happen when i plan to call , the CFI relay the RT to me call me to land !!!! for me i feel why ??? i can see that west of air field the weather is building up but not at east !!!!! some more the wind is blowing from east side it mean that the weather will blow to north east of the air field .

what to do , he is the boss .!!! i have to obey all the instruction given by him. after landing i feel damn piss i purposely park my air craft beside him , i ask him politely say sir the type of weather i am sure that can do touch and go what . !!! then the answer given by him make me piss to the max !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

• me : sir i am sure the weather can continue for touch and go . because other aircraft is also flying .
• CFI: ya....... you see that west of air field the weather is building up !!!!
• me : yes sir , i was keep observe on the weather movement east of the air field is clear.
• CFI:ya.... har..... i told you at the west of the air field !!!
• me : sir during the air i ask you to confirm where the i really have to land right ?? than you also reply affirm ask me to land right !!
• CFI : oh.... that time i was no listen to the Radio i focus on flying so that i dont no where you flying at !!!!
• me : that what for you say affirm !!!! you dont even know where i flying that you say the weather coming will affect my flying ????? what is this la......?????

another "pissful" day but not peaceful :(

slp

4am i think is a good time to close my eye and slp d...........

hope that tomorrow weather is fine .

eat sleep fly eat sleep fly

feel my life was so meaning lesss....................................................................



where only i can finish this type of life ??? T.T

lonely gila........................................................ bored gila.................................................................


still searching the reformat button in my brain to reset all the thing .

smoking does not bring away the stress!!!

for what reason those people will smoking ??? what so nice about it ????? not thing also ?? not like alcohol at least will get drunk !!!! for that moment or the whole night !!!!

smoking just make me sick and feel vomiting , all is bull shit !!!!!! who the hell say that smoking will reduce stress ???? idiot fellow the stupid reason in the world .

thinking some thing that can relax my mind , because i feel really empty by physical and mentality .

the best part is now some of them plan to find " hole " ???? what the ???? just age 18 want to go "fish tank " . no comment on it , because i still cant really accept the statement yet........ love should not measure by money .

totally not like wht my instructor say what you will get is 3 B....... at first i dont really understand what he talking bout after he tell me the meaning i also dont no want to give what reaction d......

1. B BATH U
2. B BLOW U
3. B U BANG HER!!!!!!

WHAT IS THIS MEN????????

REALLY HAVE TO GO THAT LEVER ???

NOT NOW , AND FUTURE TOO !!!!!! EVEN THOUGH I ALWAYS WANT TO ...............

come all over the world just to meet up .........

some time is good to have some 1 to share the happiness and sadness , by the time that got some 1 wiling come out with a helping hand .

most friend gf come all over the place to meet with my friend , that time the first thing in my mind is why ? and why and continue by why ?

any way not thing happen in a small single bed , ya ya ya i accept that statement .


tired , moody again ..............

请不要喜欢我！！！！！！！！！！！！！

误会子有不段的增加，

而不会减少，

我很怕了。

也累了，

也试过“泪”了，

不想伤害他人了，

因为1 个就够我“泪”了。

还有应影，不想带人去荷兰隔壁“比尼是" (给你死) 粤语

一个泪了的坏人。

do even try this at home

normally this type of thing only happen on the movie .

so funny eat half way my sis break her rice bowl , for last time Chinese always say rice bowl rice bowl it mean job break mean the job also follow together hehehehe lucky we are christian so no such thing la......

brand new page of the flying life

big conflict

today morning , i when to school for flying like usual.

than there got some mistake in the daily schedule there got few slot is empty!!!! than i ask the flight operation officer and he also agree that to put my name on the slot .

so i told every thing was fine but , thing when wrong when the idiot childish CFI came i respect him as the CFI so i ask him again for talking the empty slot . than he straight away say : no !!! i dont want you to fly call my student to replace the slot . ok fine as you like that the 1 he want to call actually fly at the same time but on other air craft , that moment i cant stand d......... my EMOTIONAL burst up d............

i shot back this word : fair enough la...... fly la fly la............. fly both air craft the same time la...... as you like la........ then he increase his volume think that his is right FUXX you la...... idiot 700hr acting CFI haven become CFI also so lan ci d...... F u la.......... he shouting me in front of people i return back just 1 word : "for what you so angry and shouting shouting here come on i not small boy school kids la..... " than he keep quiet follow by the trade mark word as you all like !!!!

What the ?????????? for sure he wil set me up once again

praise the lord

lucky thing happen to me !!!!!

after 3 month not flying ,

and today i fly half way the visibility getting low ,

in the end !!!!!

i am LOST :(

after 5 min , i figure out the way back to airport .

thank God i never really get lost like other in the end crash the air craft !!!!!!!


thing just when miracle ,

last time i always get low chance to fly , but yesterday and today thing change !!

yesterday my name was not on the board !!!
but i get to fly , and today my name on the board but changing time and bad weather coming in
in this type of situation i also get to fly safely really thank God d............



afraid d.......... the scary feeling still with me !!!!!!! the feeling of lost is so so so scary !!!! car get lost worst also out of fuel and park at the side of the road but my case out of fuel will really end my life lo......... dont dare to think other thing when flying d..... because there is really no joke of it !!!!!!!!1

plan to rest early , tomorrow morning still got flight to go .

hope that i will have a nice dream tonight .

after 3 month no flying

yesterday fly with CEO , feel better and use to it been fuXX d...... after a while i also immune d..... just focus on my flying . after booming for almost hour for last time i am sure cant stand d.... the tear sure prepare there d..... but now compare with last time i think better d.

in the end i get quit positive comment from him , he say i am good in general handling can fly but not so concentrate when flying . i also lazy to fight back d..... if you haven fly for 3 month when the instrument place at i also not so sure d..... how to keep focusing la..... :P

any way la...... thing that had pass just let it pass la..... i really give up to this school d.

just now i call to other famous school , the different price just 60 k hai............... :( damn allot if looking that amount but when look at other school air craft really speech less d.........

stay at this school just will let me down and up set ..............................
but thinking to study ground school again really not use to it lo........