cleaning room

accidentally found my hand writing dairy T.T .

so fast 3 day after , that day d................. in the dairy is so detail till how much time also got . the number going out really use 1 finger also can finish counting it d.................

looking forward d....... changing is in process make sure the same thing wont happen any more .



lucky that inside the dairy i write with my own code so any 1 read it also wont understand it ...... due to privacy better be safe .

who know the end of his day ?

some time i always think that !!! like those degree or doctor just graduate than facing car accident and pass away . during study time i am for sure that he got his beautiful plan too but in the end also cant do any thing . that is the gray site of thinking , the positive thinking is thank God i am still a life !!!!

in the beautiful world , it just like a big huge puzzle every 1 is 1 of the piece can you imaging??? 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 size puzzle during put it piece by piece than only you discover that 1 piece is missing what do you feel you already done the 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999 just because that piece the whole puzzle is uncompleted .

i really feel sorry my past 20yr , i never really participate in this grand huge design T.T another way my self screw up and destroy that piece T.T . till now i still feel sorry for that . God know me well , He love me he giving me the freedom of choice but i misuse the power .

without God , life is just like a gamble . you will never know what will going to happen ?
i miss the comunity the small group at kuantan . at least when my power is low i can get some motivate from them . currently just like walking alone in the dark path , so scare but have to continue walking to the another end .

the sciencetist reserce found that if in your whole life you having 2 or 3 friend i mean a close close buddy you are the most happy person in this world d............ the relationship is closer than huband and wife !!!! because you know that they wont set you up , any thing happen to you they will stand up for you !!!

SO EMO lo....this blog =.=
going to bath wash away this bad feeling

before slp

feel so bored no getting mood for any thing .
enter this school was a mistake when only i can graduate and on line . get licence but jobless also no point

worry bored stress and worry /..... T.T best way redure stressssssssssssssss