i cant stop my self thinking of her..................

just now i look at her facebook photo , in there i see her wearing spectacle . do look different , i must admit that she do grow up d........... and i also have to grow up as well . i always want her become the 1 that i know , thinking back i feel my self is so silly and childish .

i do feel , not use to it without her sms and voice around me, but i think she without me will feel much lighter and freedom . i feel sorry to her , because the relationship will become like now i also have to take half of the responsibly . i never really put my self into her shoe , after so many year only i know she not so happy to the current family only. after she told me some thing keep happen on her family my heart do feel very pain ,but that moment i also feel my self so useless why do i tolerant her and listen the word come from her heart and give a tight hug .

but i cant , i always not around her the 1 she can find to share out the feeling is those classmate . and they theory is Let's go club after drink some alcoholic drink or get drunk will feel much better .!!!!!! it is , feel much better ? after drunk ? vomit ,headache even hang over till dont remember any thing bout last night really can solve the problem mem ?

what i can do is call her , try to cheer her up . but most of the time i fail to do so because most the time she will using her tear to end the conversation. i feel much better after taiping out all this .

miss her but scare hurt her again and again vice versa not crying d, but soon will have to end this before the tear flow out .