



sorry sorry sorry this just a place to release my stress ..... if any word or pic hurt dont take it seriously ..........
Posted by 011189 ME 10:35 AM 0 comments
i deserve do be like that ? always just can communicate with text??
did she really so busy ?
did i bring shame to her ?
is that she really so far from me ?
i do feel sad when she lie or i just feel she lie to me !!!
we got too many misunderstanding d, because only way of communicate is texting , inside the text there is no tone , no feeling , no volume , at because of that many misunderstood had form.
now day , i feel left out maybe if i dont care bout her some much i may feel better , but my brain will just automatically think bout her this and that .
i just want to know that actually , do her still in love with me ?
if yes , why she will keep doing some thing that will hurt me as well !!????
actually i still cant figure it out why july she will ask for break
and two week later continue back ??? i do try to ask her why ? but what she telling me is very silly because of parent problem this type of excuse i dont should i believe it or not ? but if really because of that why now continue back??? did her parent ok for it d??? i dont think so !!!!!!
but in my mind , that time she may find some 1 else .after trying the new 1 feel cant make it . then she return to me !!! after that incident i do afraid of her d .......... because if the true is really like that !!! mean that she is totally change to some 1 that a dont know d...... what to do ? since she got so many GOOD FRIEND what , after study the cosmetic course , she slowly become a material girl d.....
we try to speak on the phone , that what she promise me will give me a call , but in the end i screw it up because 11 some thing only she tell me that she is on the way home , fine i wait but after that she say want take shower fine i wait ,finally 1 some thing in the midnight my phone ring , but it does not hold long just less than 6sec than she end the call .
i dont know la..... if you calling the 1 that you always say love miss care . did you will just call once and wait for 6sec only ????? since 8pm till 1am how long the time is 18000 sec that i wait is wasted . and this happen twist continually for two day .that why now i not really confident on her promise , maybe her promise on other will come true i dont know but for me definitely is a NO.
i dont what is happen to her family ??? because she will not share with till the day i dead i think . for outside people look is a well rich family i dont what think that can be a FLASH POINT to start the quarrel ?
but any way , for me i just think that her parent want her to date some 1 that same background with her as well !! i dont know ? and i will never know ?
sorry for those reading my blog , it will just bring unhappy rarely find happiness here , because i will start reading blog is because separate time i feel hard and not feeling good to share with friend so what i do is type what ever thing inside my mind just to make my self feel better . it is better than me go do some thing stupid will risk other and my life thank you for you support.
Posted by 011189 ME 9:32 AM 0 comments