first time taste beer is sweet

just now just drink a bit beer , dont why i taste is sweet !!! at least a good night for tonight .

taiping here express out the feeling is better than me keep all inside the heart , it will really make me sick .

i am so tired d.......... no 1 to share !! or can say i dont wanted to share !!! today brother ask me it is any thing happen d...??? because i take lunch just eat a bit of rice only ......... i wanted to tell him but i know he wont understand me because know he is fall in love so i lazy to tell that d.......

dinner at my house

like usual mummy cook my favourite "black sauce pork " . my mood is unstable but i never show it on my face because i see her cook the whole afternoon d.........

some more my teeth very very pain , so they all also never suspect got any thing happen good too. at least they all wont feel worry to me ma.....

but my teeth is very very pain till all my mood also gone d.......... now the thing that i wish to eat is chocolate or ice cream only ............ some thing that will melt and sweet taste is enough d........

going to uncle house soon , a good chance to drink i think i need some alcohol in my blood stream d.......... i need a good rest tonight !!!!! i been tired for this type of thing d.........

time backward

i wish i never know her before , but i know this is not movie i cant do that !!!!

if really can do that , i hope i dont even know her lo...... force my self to delete and forget some thing already buid in the brain to remove it do feel a bit pain but i think short period of pain is better that lon term pain d..........

love you forever , that moment do we really know what the meaning of forever ?? i dont think so ....

remove every thing

feel much better d.......... i afraid i will see some photo i does not want to see . i cant take it so better still i remove it all............. no more up date no more detail i think will make me feel better !!!!!!

what rizal say is true , dont be silly d...... KL is just messy . sure some 1 involve d..... any thing la.... thank you her i learn a good lesson dont so easily trust any body . for me i feel no more guilty d..... actually i am wait this day to come , just may be it come like weather present so fast...........

some time , i am thinking they all should know some thing but they all just can hide it up nicely . still belief that " what go around , come around " at least i can wake u nicely .

big slap from God , is enough d T.T i dont want to know care what is happening d..... i dont want to know why d..... i am lost , totally dont who is she d........ people changing can be so scary 1 now i know , good training for the future i belief future i should have many opportunity for this.....
lie really so nice to play . i feel tht like playing fire u will get hurt any moment only.

FXXX it la....... a brand new page of my life !!!! because lonely than find some 1 i still cant do it ! no 1 should be replacement ! i dont what the fxxx i am thinking , my mind keep feel want to find some 1 to company but they all keep telling pray and wait . the feeling that my sister experiencing now i can fully feel it d, i think find some 1 love me more than i love her is better but always i cant do that 1..... no chance !!

lets talk to my self in front of the mirror , i know how to smile and i am strong for this.......

dont why i never think about hurting my self like other !!! i just too rational will think all the side effect parent this and that!!!!

right this moment no 1 can find

every is sleeping !!!!! hai......................... use to it d.................. not the first time eating ice cream alone d.......
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may 7 day that i will never forget ..............

just finish yam cha , than i get back home online finally saw a thing that last time i wish to see but not now any more !!!!!!

but is good too !! at least i can delete every thing , and throw every thing d..................................
after today i think no more tear T.T will flow up d.............

feel so release d............. last time still keep thinking why !?? tons of reason just to over come my bad feeling !!! keep giving reason to fool my self ha ha ha .

really blind d............ love is blind , i think not only blink is die ....................... "die heart" and "die hard " .

tired d......... i dont want take in any responssible d........
single and available think is more suitable for me d............ fresh air !!! i need it right now !!! kuantan sea i coming .T.T