complicated feeling again

just now company mummy go wedding dinner , another wedding dinner that because of "crossing the red light " .
the bride just age 21 same as me !!!!!!!!!! just finish form 6 . for me i feel complicated and so so so speechless the song they chose for the bride enter using 小酒窝 !_! got no other song d mem ?????? now day the way people looking at married is too easy d............
they all married is because burden or same baby . education is very important !!!!!!!!! some time i feel jealous it is shot some thing inside the 1 you love to book or reserve it ???

i dont know !_! , still stucking in the bad feeling !_! feel damn complicated !!!! if i really do it make some 1 having baby d.................. i dont think is correct and also i dont think the relationship will last that long ! married mean non thing , any time can ask for divorce. just different by processing fee .

tear droping ............. !_! stop thinking d lu....................
cant taip d....

i been to this before

the first day of life camp , i with few volunteer doing spot check for every room . than we discover that got a girl at a guy room , and both of them is couple relationship i know what they all thinking la.... come on....... i go camp more than they all . i still remember last time i go leo forum at penang , same thing i go with few friend 1 of the friend is her . that time , i think is the most scary night i went too and also the most wrong night !!!!!!!! because i put my self in that situation !!!! so danger if not because of her i think she will be the tonight wedding dinner bride d........



tonight i following mother to a weeding dinner , the girl just age 21yr the first thing every 1 will ask it that having baby d???? and the answer is yes !!!! 5month d.......... who fault ???? both also have to responsible for it !!!! but who have to pay for the bill ? definitely the parent of the guy !!



hai............ regret regret regret ......................................................................................................................... no 1 will understand when that time i discover that at the last night the girl is sleeping at the guy room alone !!!! just the guy and the girl !!!!!!! i open the door i feel scare to see some thing not suppose to see but the guy lock the door . so what can i do is just , knot and knot the door continue by warning !!!!!!

in the end , the guy wake up to open the room , he lying at the room the girl on the bed !!!! stop acting la.... you think is that possible ??? no because even singing time the both hand also keep playing around d........



tear droping .!_! wht i done ??? all is my choice !!!! but i miss it and waste it !!!

crying crying is use less d................................ i miss it mean miss it d.......



my tear droping because not any more i cant meet her any more in heaven no more !!!!!!

the heaven is counting on you

mood down

i am so moody today , at first is i am fuxxxxx tired and my idoit roomate tag me in a stupid video that my fridge is so damn messy . i do no why they can be so lame.............. if some thing over laps in the fridge d......... mother fuxxxxxx first thing is clean the fuxxx fridge first ?>>>>



piss to the max.......... can you really leave the messy fridge for few month ??????