what i feel !!!

today my church having a mini HOME COMING meeting , say truly today i feel really sleepy and tired especially the afternoon section . but the morning section i do think alot !!!

like usual some thing like calling every 1 go to the front line knee down pray for God forgiveness or listen to God . they say today is the the new year for Jewish , like Chinese before Chinese new year we will clean the house our body is God home mean that today we have to clean the past inside my body d...... but it is don't want think the problem than the problem will be disappear ??

than this image pop in my mind T.T i really no mood d........ i feel sad !! i want where can i find some 1 that really close and click with me . that can support me in what ever condition!!!

what is happen to me ?? i was thinking am i too arrogant or too inferiority T.T i really lose !!! why i still be like that !!! such a loser !!! really such a bustard !!!

sorry to hear that !!!!

today my close friend friend or can say my brother chong yu give me a call say that he want to meet with me asap , that time i at church i say ok later we meet up ok !! than he say no i want to talk to you now !! wah !!! so urgent ah ?? any thing must see me now la...??? i just break with girlfriend i want to find some 1 to talk . me : ok !!! wait for me !!

than after half and hour , i was thinking that whether he will do some thing stupid anot since i cant meet he on the spot !! i dot want it happen like my schoolmate than kill him self !! what i hear is he want to find some 1 to share out the feeling but no 1 is there T.T . right after that image pop out i straight away call him make sure he is ok , than after 5 to 6 times i call no 1 pick up that moment i really feel scare it is any thing happen d???? SHIT !!! in the end the 7 call he pick up d....... straight away get me scold !!! almost make me shit in th pants..... good to hear that you are a life !!!

faster come pick me we go for drink , share what even you want to say !!! some time i also feel weird why many people want to share they feeling out to me le........ but i dont mind be the lisener la........ but i cant do any thing also , just give some support and lent out my ear 24hour !!! call me any thing : ) that what i promise !!! i dont want lose any single friend i cant effort to lose any 1 in my life anymore T.T . close friend are so limited to me !!!!

meet him again tommorow to make sure he really ok anot !!!

by the time stop i was thinking !! when ting happen to me who should i call ??? but i know i mostly wont call or tell any 1 !!! that is me . i dont feel like want get some pity me !!! but i not pityful i am fine !!!