love this thing really dangerous !!!!

later i have to go to Swiss garden to attend church brother weeding they all couple already 8yr than finally go thought all the thing hardness together , now i have to pack my mind d, people wedding don't show Moody face la..... but the feeling is very complicated want to release but feel tak sampai hati .................... shit la my eye was red d........ lucky not 1 beside better faster go to take bath than can tear some during bath.....


mood totally complicated happy for them sad for my self

hope to be love rather than be hurt

today at kuantan lying on the same sofa but the feeling is so different , tomorrow going back d, than 09-10-2009 till 21-10-2009 long holiday dont where to go also all plan that plan previewly have to change to single trips have to leave d...... keep thinking also no use all thing is change d not like last time :(


mood no ok again gastric and tired

human is like that by the time u have the thing too easy u wont appreciate it but when the thing gone only miss the thing

appreciate is very important for me d.............. being too nice it will just make thing go worst so now onward i will just care those appreciate me as well , afraid being hurt some more d....... now thing that i cant control i not dare to try any more because bigger hope bigger disappointed only now just let it go naturally not going to lower my self any more that is not me , really scare to hear or think back those few word also feel scare and sad ....................


mood ok just gastric only

shit i cant even finish a small bowl of porridge

starting also feel full d

just now go out take lunch with mummy , morning the first thing she ask me why long time never see me bring her come back wor , my mood down on the spot lo just fu yan her than continue sleeping , than till 1230pm than she say lets go out for lunch ok lo since i here just company her lo...... but reach there than they say want take porridge i say ok lo... because i also don't have much appetite but when the food come i haven eat i start feel i am full d lo.....

then for sure this will happen again lo.........

same thing happen to me ! no appetite at all

just finish breaklunch with mummy , hai last night i sleep at the living hall because don't want wake up other so just sleep on sofa , just feel want to close the eye only than her face pop out because this sofa bring me allot of sweet memory but now think back also feel sad because last time meet her we have some emotional conflict there , hai what to do she say break will feel more happy to both than i just accept lo, i really long time never see her smile to me d, i really don't what thing border her till so serious by the way hope her can over come this soon la......... i hope i can too

now mood ok but a bit gastric

if time go back to 5yr backward la.......

i think still will be her d lo... if i not mi staked la..... at first we meet at belwin i really don't like this girl lo..... first she look LC lo..... every time also can go back early study half way than go back d.... but that time i also quit cham lo.... let four girls combine together bully me, but is nice to have the experience lo... at least not so bored ma....... now my mind really dont what to do lo.... want to give up or just rest d................. lucky aunty bring me out drink some beer if not sure more hard to feel sleepy lo.... now another thing boder me mummy get sick long time d..... not sure what sick hai................ want to focus on flying than aircraft break down what la.......... every thing i hope can done also cant finish 1......................



now moon worry sad sleepy

first time on bus never sleep at all !

just now when i going back kuantan , when i going up only don't how la why so sui 1 behind me is a couple keep taking loud and sweet talk that moment i really cant describe my anger d.... because normal i go up bus than will sleep d, but for today i don't even have chance to close my eye lo,first behind me the couple noisy lo...... than i cant stand the noisy i call them shut up lo... actually i am jealous of them lo... but i just call people keep quiet and silent then the second issue is the bus very rush uncomfortable but the most sad part for me is i really cant forget her , the sweet memory keep floating on my mind especially that time i travel with her i feel cold only she faster use her jacket cover me but she never cover and shake shake there ........... see her face i also feel sweet lo.... got people siak really nice and sweet lo.