cooking is the best stress medicine

every time i feel stress or got thing to think that i will start cooking but i cooking does't mean that i am hungry i just want to cook and over come the time. When see people enjoy your food you will also enjoy it.

after so many year i do grow up in physical and my mind set. I am who i am :)

future working time

i afraid i will be a womanise in the future career :( , i am just a normal guy i do feel desperate for sex and this will really danger for my future. I dont want to be a play boy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want a blessing weeding and not trying this girl or that girl , is up to you to believe or not 2 year in johor i never visit a single club. Because i know my self very well i will easily want to have sex with those willing so i choose to ran away from that . Thank God i safe for this 3 flying year at least i not fucking any other outsider.

what if i really working at indonesia ? i want to earn my money asap i want to be a man and not a boy any more. T.T taking pocket money time is enough for me i want to earn my cash and pay the debt asap.

a good gartering with " brother and sister "

is not easy to have to some 1 that can share out what inside your heart so much , looking forward or can say force my self to do so. So time i do feel my self are fuck-up , last time how can i do thing that is so ridiculous ????

but i know is a part of my journey, that way i dont want to start a new relationship any more. I know i am suck and i dont want the thing happen again in my future relationship again, Ego really kill me T.T learning to be humble down my self because this is mine the biggest problem. 自卑and 自大 is just a word different last time i because i am 自卑so i become more 自大 but now i know is not working when 自大 so better just be who you are.

我不想再伤害她了. i am really suck to be a boyfriend even 2 hand cant count my mistake but i choose to let go. Let every thing go naturally i dont think i will get some 1 soon since i already single for 2 years.

many7 friend call me to start a new relationship but i dont want to start a new relationship is because i feel i screw up the last relationship so much and i dont wan to screw the next any more.

after so many year only i know what is my problem

(大男人主意 and lack of 安全感)。Of course i know is never too late. human always learn from they mistake. I hope i wont do the mistake at another relationship.

love you :)