flight cancer again !

no mood to talk much today , my flight Cancer again due to weather coming in hai........ i have no idea when i will finish my course , but it really test me patient lo...... because weather i cant blame any body because not they all no schedule my for flight is weather and weather weather i going to be crazy d..... now i want to spent my extra extra free time nicely at least do some thing that will benefit to my self or other as well . because for me if got extra time only i will start thinking what will really happen in the future bout this relationship ? now day yes i can feel she is trying to give up some time for me make me feel that really all back to normal d, but now what i worry is her parent dont like me date with their only 1 girl //////!!! and i feel uncomfortable to hide from them lo

i really afraid of loneliness

now day i feel the time walk very slow and unhappy lo, because the future is not clean at all , this year i just 20 she is 19 both also long way to go , the first big conflict was happen when she away from me and start working d.......... because study time there got too much time to meet up and also the community still very small .
it just like u friend and my friend both know each other , but when working time "no more the type of song sing " D............... for me is worst my job if i working international i will have bigger community around the world of course she also due to the movie make up artist jobs.....
i really cant have i clean image for my future because now our relationship will be stronger or less is really depend on this year d, after this year stable can maintain than is OK but if either 1 of the site cant stand sudden bust out the problem and the problem both cant solve than that time really sad lo...... scare to think d..... now i just try to enjoy every second of happiness i have d......

current mood hard to explain a bit scare and slightly lose confident to own self d..............


so dont worry be happy

si hai birthday party at TGI friday

tonight was the most relaxing night for me because i know June still in love with me , and tomorrow i fly solo , now i just hope the weather is clear and i really looking forward to my short holiday because this is a very important week can recovery the relationship or can kill the relationship is that d................ so i wish the holiday we will have time to meet up lo, every time hear she say go out watch movie but of course not me la..................


my mood now ok stable looking forward

today morning i have a bad dream !

i not really remember the dream d, but is about her lo....... i dream she hai............. i forget the dream d.... but i know was a bad dream that i don't want it come true lo...... because in the end of the dream i remember i got save it in my phone in case i forget 1 but too bad even that part also is a part of the dream. when i remember only i update it la...... but i think is about she going out with other guy alone 1 maybe i not sure because totally forget the dream d....