dont why suddelly feel so down

no mood for every thing even dinner too ! almost the whole day was facing the pc inside the room . dont what to do also >>?? now flying cant really cheer me up d.......... because already feel bored and frustrated for this school situation d.............

during this 2 year beside flying skill i learn how to smoke and drink . my life style suck !!!! really feel tired d...... T.T every keep repeating the same thing over and over again !!!!! just now i bored till drive out turn 1 round than go back home . why happy time always travel so fast , but the bored and moody time since wont move like that ??

now i really dont what to do that can cheer up my self . looking forward for the better tomorrow

love really like that ??

maybe i am jealous or never expired this before so feel weird . every day see those update status or relationship keep changing sweet talk all the time publicly at the wall there !!??
just now saw 1 new relationship status till now i still cant believe it . born in 1992 but married d....... 18yrs ? now day ??? for normal people thinking sure is "crossing red light " and get fine ticket d...............

my emily jie jie more power !! change the profile picture direct to i love ducan hahaha than the guy profile become i love emily !!! hahah it see sweet . that the love that we can see by my own eye that why people always say MAKE LOVE . love really have to make and maintain 1 , lack of understanding and maintaining there is not thing !!!

hai ......... feel so bored , feel the real happiness and relax mind only during the time eating a good meal d........ because that time i just busy putting the food into the mouth only no time to think other thing as well . going to buy tons of chocolate i afraid of fat so the sweet taste on the chocolate may confuse my brain that i am full d..... so it can prevent me to become like brother last time feel sad than keep eating to over come the sadness !!!!

i may do the same thing too , but i know the result too !!! is so not worth and high paid out so after eating the exercise i conducted will be more and even harder just to maintain the shape and can eat more . sound silly but really dont what to do d..........................