i never never think off ending my beautiful

i am stress and many thing happen this day , but seriously i dont have the guts to end my life .

i dont how people can do such thing ? that moment what they all feel ? have to leave every 1 you love , go to hell !!!

even my parent do that before !!! i think i am still the blessing child i never have a day that need to worry for my meal worry for this or that . but my life are 180 ' change when i age 13 , thank you sister bring me to church . i not saying church have magic power can turn bad guy to better person but in real life God does do that !!!

because i cant imaging what i will do right now if i never have a chance to know God , for my personality not afraid to any thing 1 !!!! i think if that time never hardworking study back , i may end up like those guy that selling drunk or pirated CD . but i know my self very well i wont sanctify on that only for sure i will do bigger and bigger business . worst come to worst end some body life i think that time no 1 can stop this evil any more .

my evil side of my heart , if really back to live i cant imaging what i will do !!! i am the kid that kick out from the school age 8 . no school willing to accept me !! but i feel glad God help me i change to other school better life there . at least no more big case happen , till now i still dont know why the malay student will say i cut his hair and another cased worst say i beat him till bleeding !!! till now the bloody shirt still in my mind will never forget or erase in my mind any more d...............

after that incident i hate people dont believe me , shout at me !!!!!!

moody ...................

age does not mean any thing

even though i already age 21 , but in my daddy mind i always a kids . hai............... first i plan to drive to kl than finish the thing drive back kuantan driving is always better than bus at least my self handle the timing !!!!

some more tomorrow big celebration at home ,after the thing have to rush back kuantan . so fast 10 days more than i have to go kl establish every thing d......... keep on travel KL kuantan make me crazy .

love you

jogging with daddy

walau yer !!!! daddy really can run 1 lo........... i follow at the back also feel pressure at !!!! age 60 still can run that speed and distance really dont play play oh !!!!!!

happy to jogging with daddy , even though i not really like to jogging but since he invite me join only la.............. because i think every second count !!!!!! even till now i still cant rally believe that my daddy believe in jesus name d.......... but from he buid up the christmas tree together and more time we together i start believe that all is blessing !!!!!!!!! i dont want this blessing taken away from my family any more !

i am a very realistic and Independence person , many people may say how good can be like me but to become me you must go though a tough process a freedom process !!! no 1 will care bout your meal study or any thing as long you are a life that is enough d !!!!

but now my family has 180 change just left my mother and I because i also start go downward d........... is time to slap my self and go on . not thing is impassible for those believe in God and i am the 1 that experience it truest !!!!!!

love you