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i never see her smile for quit some time d, she is busy with her shopping i am busy with the study . even have chance to meet up also hardly see her smile, like she together with her friend photo any more.


i do see that type of smile before , but that all is past time d........... now i wont do more then the limitation that i can do any more , i dont even want to try any more d........ i am tired of baning and rejected d......

i am lazy to think and ask why why why any more ?
just do what even thing that feel comfortable d...............
now day maybe i got too much free time , to let me think why ? but after this i am lazy to asking why d.... because i know the answer as well "DONT KNOW OR NOT THING"


for me after hear those ans , it will re burn the fire of my heart . not point that how much care and love been given there is meaningless d....... the feeling when wrong since july .
the feeling graft just like roller coaster 1 day good few day bad .

for me , i belief that when i start on the line working ,i will have more freedom . now just hope graduate as soon as possible, i am tired for the standby and waiting for pocket money d......
want buy some thing also hard , always skip this meal skip that meal for collect money . hai .......... damn jealous for those rich classmate , in they life i dont see they really understand the value on money . because the first car they having already more 100k d........


any way la, i want my future life is full of joy and having all those material item ............... maybe now i dont earn in my own so i dont feel the happiness of having some thing . the feeling and reaction for the thing that you love and you buy it on your own is totally different from people giving it , because usual the thing that get easily people wont APPRECIATE it .

that also is why i dont want to do much d........................... i have done my pary as well .
time and distance all those excuse i feel bored of it d........




current feeling fucxxxxxx tired and mood swing becasue after 3and the half hour flying