here i am to prove this fact is wrong , it is meaningless to have plenty of time without a sincere forgiveness. That is what i really learn from mistake, not forgive a people another round is not forgive your self.
obey and forgiveness is my what i have to over come it , how long more for me to learn this lesson ??? 3 years enough is enough !!!! pray that i will over come this asap there is no time to loss. I want to be a blessing to others before i can do that i must make sure my self are clean as spring water.
i really hope to bring the 3 kids to go church before i leaving malaysia for 7 years , i know by the time when i start working there will be a very very limited time for me. Now day i still have chance hang out with them and they mother :) many people may accuse why i am drinking with those elders for me i dont mind to drink or even drunk but i do need some extra non ordinary strength from God. Thank God and ask forgiveness from Him too few time i do drunk and 1 time i even sleep inside the car with key and door open.
The relationship between me and the children are special , since i am the younger i never have a younger brother or sister before. So i do treat them as my little brother and sister even though we are not bonded in blood.
i want a change in my life enjoy the single life time , enjoy the free time , enjoy what i have , i know many people love and care about me that why i still alive with smile :)
