sick

why my topic in here is so moody , but in facebook i can be normal .

damn sick !!!!!!!!!!!! may be is more private and less comment , in this world those know my blog i think less than 20 .

so i dont really mind ........................... at least a place that release my stress away !_!

i really cant see my future , !_! by what time some body talk bout future i will cry , because i d..... spent my father 200k for the course and my mother just sell off the business !_! the most stress think is i dont when only i can graduate !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
beside relationship thing now study issue really push me to the limit !!!!!!!!!!! i got no 1 to share , no 1 willl really understand me !!! and listen to me but i also know my self i wont show the weakness face to the public because i dont want the pitynesss from them . i not beggar !!!!!! i not beggar of love !!!!!!!!!!



i just want to be who i am ? but sorry to tell i not really know who i am !_!

sour grape !!!!!

i feel that my self is so so so so so so silly and selfish , since last few month i just change my status not long than my brother tell me that he in a relationship d...... :( it is a joke !!!!>>???



no he really at that time have a girl friend d........ some more is a very pretty sister that till now i also cant really accept this is a fact !!!!!!! but i do see the changer of my brother !!!! last time every time i meet with him sure quarrel or fight 1.......... not like i with my sister , that close may be since 12yr he been send to KL to continue the study so our relationship not that close .

but thank God that three of us never become that bad!!!!!!!!!! but also because of that i feel more worry to my self because i haven try many thing !!!! not like other from the big and complicated city have try so many thing before !!!!



for my self i feel that those staying at my home town , if go out study for sure will change !! because the people around you is different ! starting you will not realise you are change but yes you do change d.................



why i say that ? due to i just finish a camp ! life game camp , in the camp i feel that kuantan kids is so so so pure ! just like haven been pollute :( you will never know how cute try are ??? i purposely throw money on the floor hope that some 1 will pick it up , but unfortunately yes they pick it up but not put in the pocket another way round they chase me up and return me the money !! so funny so cute !!!! but i quit scare when the time they grow up have to go out continue study what will happen to them ???? i have a friend that is so so so good in kuantan good in study and also personality but after go KL study just like the song singing clubbing every day hey hey hey ........... what they have to do is take care and protect them self !!!!! because out side the world full of lie and sin. that can pollute a angel fall from heaven !!!!! so who you think you are ???? you think you are stronger than angel ??


is never too late to learn smarter.................................