dont want to view any more

her thing , make me feel sad only ..................

dont want to think much d.....

have or without her life still have to move on , i also dont want to know what is happen to her d..... after so many changer to her .

reason ??? excuse more suitable..... but any way if the thing not belong to you dont touch it , just now i read a book that moment my mind feel ok d..... but back to pc view so thing only my mind complicated and mood down again .......................

reply anot ? non really care d....... i am no body , even be boy friend also lower than her friend d...... so now worst la..... try to no angry her and hate her d........ because it wont make any different for me.....

how good if now i got plenty of money waiting for me to spent , for sure i will buy a ticket go over sea to release my mind ..................................................................................................................
cant take any more stress d........ currently

dont know why this few day.............

TEAR is easily fall down , why i just cant forget bout her ? every thing also make my tear dropping .!_!

thank for her giving me the best birthday and Christmas present even i receive tons of tear .......

i am lost , i dont what is happen to my self ??? why i just cant be like her continue my life like normal . why must a litter bit thing than cry out d........ even now also fxxxxxxx


i feel sick , no 1 can share my feeling or can say i dont know how to es press my feeling as well . so that why i been blogging all the time at least some thing to do . rather i go do some thing stupid , just now i go daddy shop i see he work till so hard my tear almost fall down and i want to slap my self lo................ he paid 200k for me to study and now i because of relationship thing make till like the end of the world like that !!!!!! i feel damn guilty i know how much tear drop wont help me out this but i do miss my smile :) i lost it long time d........... can some 1 bring it back for me ??

i almost get crazy d lo......... what also can cry ............. i cant stop my tear just like floating happening ......................... i want to run away from this !!!!!! i feel lonely and feel scare , because when i alone that time my brain keep appear those image follow by the tear .............

feel much better d.......... after "raining " tired d.... sleep soon

the different of forever and four year.............

last time , always say love you forever !! miss you this and that . scare i will leave her alone , but the ugly true is she left me behind . may be she is right i not suitable for her any more i cant give her those thing she want it now d.............

before starting this relationship i do know , we are come from the different world ! may be that time she feel bored so just accept me lo......

that day , i just meet a friend he working on the pc event 1 than he tell me how famous how pretty of her come on la......... not now la......... i know she pretty ok i know many people want her phone number so ? non on my business la......

thinking back 2009 , the memory with her is really not much mostly is private activity 1........... the out door activity can almost say empty ........ every time the precious time she giving me is 2 hr or less in the middle of the night ?? what really can do at that time ??? clubing ?? go to the beach and cry for to the beach ???

i dont know , i do feel angry why the time she go out with those good good friend can from morning till the another day morning 1 or 2 am ?? i most hate is when she say , i do love and miss you all i do is just want to fair to you !!!

i dont know she is dont how to count or what ? that she call a fair ah??? if that i rather be friend d........ but now i dont even want to think much d..........
since that time, i call someof the friend come out but mostly never show up . given those excuse that is fuxx silly 1 but when she call only all come out ok lo....... that call friend fxxx it la......... this type of friend !!!!!!!

friend like this who need it !!!!!!!