do more wrong more !!!!!!!!!!!!!! better dont do it !!!!!!!

messy messy messy

i tought " you " can help me but why u burn my skin !_!
look like blood ?? if that i think i enter hospital d...... thank god is not

it is look like my leg ?? the burning feeling almost make me cry because maybe i got wound

so feel like burning .

!_! why is my white leg ??

first this thing happen , like usual i get my daddy scold like dog than after mummy . but lucky my daddy love me so much after scolding me i beg him faster go buy tina for me . after that i use the Tina i feel like burning occur on my skin , he call me don't use d...... than he go buy car petrol for me hehehe........ i call him buy that because i always use air craft petrol to wash my hand it clean and feel cold cold 1........ finally most of the paint been remove d....... thank god the paint just pour on my leg not eye if really happen my life is gone my career is gone .

that moment i do feel scare and wish that suddenly a hand appear and help me clean the paint because very pain till i dont dare to wash it again . i pour water also feel like burning oh..........

thank god i am still a life oh......

pain........

back and ass sufering pain , never walk it wont feel the pain . but when i start walking every step bring me pain . daddy just give me some oil say can relief the pain i hope it really work lo.....

hai....... now i feel i like old man d......... pain here and there , long time never play badminton suddenly so hard call . during match keep thinking winning the match like real competition like that that time really dont feel the pain . after a day , all the pain come together hai.........

mood down , fan ah........... erasing the unhappy memory and looking forward for better tomorrow .

no more tear at least today never drop a single droplet......

the most tired and early nighti fall to slp.......

even my self i cant really belief that , i fall sleep at 930. i do not want to wasting my time for some not important thing any more . now every single breath god giving me ,is not for me to waste it on silly thinking .

last time , i very care bout the small and minor thing like photo in fb , dress code , place gather . but not now , because i am clean my mind the meaning of single d....... for me now if go out with her or contact with her i do not think is a wise choice . because is time to wake up d......

i think single life style is more suitable for me d...... every time quarrel or force to tolerant on some thing i do not like so much . till i lost my mind and forget why i want to dating ?? to hurt each other ?? quarrel all time ?? for my 4yr relationship i feel i just live in the fairly tale ...... but just only the ending is out standing from the story line.

i do not want just because lonely than go find some 1 to over come the time , try to use other people to over come my lonely or replace the love that i cant get in home . my sister told me that there will never end if i keep hoping got some 1 can replace the hole that inside my heart . because no 1 really can do 1....... crying ?? not now d....... have to make a move to church d.....


thank god never take breath away till now........ for me i do not know what age i can life till but i choice to work it out rather than waste it d.....