just cant a word to describe my feeling

in this week this is the second times aircraft down on my sortie d.... night flying only can fly 3 day per week my week end by tonight but 3 night 2 night air craft down !!!! T.T why la...... by the time i walk to the air craft i still feel happy because today can fly solo at night in the end shit happen too!!!!! during check the air craft the light is out of service why at night only happen this type of thing ???

the most hurt me is 2 nights weather was so nice and clear but aircraft down , just now during the technician came to check the air craft , this word really piss me off !!! " biasa kita ketuk ketuk the lampu ok d...." you try ketuk ketuk !!! what the hell !!! i also dont why the company will hire some 1 like that !! a while later he came back and open up the anti collision light try to exchange the bulb , but the bulb he bring along is strobe light bulb !!! i really cant stand d.... that moment my tear almost flow out d........


feel want to hit some 1 or punch some 1 but i know i cant so i go buy tons of snack try to stuck those rubbish food into my stomach and sleep T.T
feeling really down ......... now ................ for this moment i dont think any thing will cheer me up

this school make me feel bored of flying d..... just got 1 piper but 4-5 batch student on the waiting list !!! i cant imagging the moment i finish my 200hr.

tequila pop also useless

i realise that when i no mood i mean really no mood liquor since no effect on my body . normally i will feel sleepy than continue to fall sleep but this 1 like not thing happen ! good also compare vomit in the middle of the night .

bored lonely night for me again : )