love headache and cough

headache and cough is what i will get when i smoking !!!!

but i start love this feeling !!! crazy but at least i feel i still a life !! i still feel some thing !!!
i really dont understand why people smoking !!!

today i been practise how to smoke wont make me feel bad !!! i smoke 8 stick but the result still suck........ so i dont think i suitable for smoking ....... just feel headache and uncomfortable that all i will get . if choose smoking and drink i think i better drink la, at least i get the high of it smoking for me is not thing . just to light up the stick and stand together with those instructor , mostly i just light and play with the smoke but never take it or provide cigaretteto them .

happy because get headache =.=