so fast come to my 20 year old d........... but this year is a hard year for me , allot of changer and allot of new thing happen to me .
all those unexpected thing happen to me , because of that i even forget how to laugh and smile d....... always moody and mood swing .
but now day , i try to release my self from H.................... d.................
i dont even dare to hope any more changer d, because hope always disappear the feeling just like stab by knife , so better dont dreaming and hoping any more i think i will be more happy .
i must always always remind my self , me and her are from tho different planet so it will have allot of thing is
i know that after a heavy rain , it will form a beautiful rainbow , but to see the beautiful i must go thought the" heavy rain " first . only that i can see the rainbow .
different , either i accept it happily of i run away is my choice.
it is i thinking too far and too complicated d..... i think so , because since that incident i afraid for every single small changer in the relationship , just a tiny changer also will make me think it is another strike is coming d...........
i think i am sick lo......... typing those stupid thing during birthday .............
WARNING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALL THE CONTAIN INSIDE THE BLOG IT JUST MY OWN PROBLEM AND FEELING'
REMEMBER TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER
