sometime i hope she never become prettty , and change like now!

i think maybe she change pretty d , the mind also change d ...... because she does tell me got many people date her d... maybe because of that she dont really mind what happen to me d. i want to know what is happening ?

every time , we chat thought phone i also feel sad because in the conversation i feel the changing on her d.... i want to know what really happen d? i want to know why ?

on her last few post , she say
i hate myself for temporary ..
i will b back myself after my birthday ....
dun ask y..4 let me be whatever this week (good or bad ) dont care me
is a punishment for me , which always do thing without using brain
will let u know y i do tat later ....
dunno is that too late d...



but after her birthday , i call her ask her few time what is that . and it is got any thing want to tell me ??? hai my hope is gone again !!!!!!!!


she never say any thing bout that , just like what she always does NATO (no action talk only ) but her is best can erase it

why she can say break till so easy 1???

she always say she do love me ,care and want to be fair to me but .......... what she have done to me ??? she say she dont want post my photo together with her is afraid of the father knowing , than i ask her your parent so care and teaching you so well dont allow you to do this and that but why they allow you go clubbing ???

all is no make sense at all , they photo close with other guy can post but my 1 not even 1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the feeling is i really no exist in the life like that , i bring shame to her it is ? i dont why so hard to to the small small thing to make me happy mem???? i really dont understand lo, now outside is raining just like what i doing now (!_!) . i cry is because i really fall in love to her the last time joo nee not the 1 i know latest , i feel so different where is my dear joo nee where is my be be ?

now listen the song name Lonely Christmas i cant stop my tear falling down any more .

i really feel i am very stupid , why i still in love with the 1 no in love with me any more ?????

what the hell now the next song playing name "sa gua" stupid guy why la, all so gam come together ? i dont know it is mean that call release my hand d..........

4 year realationship so what ? a girl want change 4 day can change d..............

i always hope her prove that she still in love with me lo? i dont want just listen only lo, she say send very love me now that later can ask for break 1 !!!!!!!!!!!!! i really dont know how to over come the feeling as well.........

i dont her father really got so many time to on facebook to check her update and photo anot ? if realy got i dont see ant thing happen to her also ? the clubbing photo wont be worst than the photo normal take with me mem????? parent parent parent i just feel she got many many thing hiding away from me ask her she will never never tell me i dont know why ?

i do tag some picture for her , i feel so upsad she remove the tag . that moment i really angry d. because she keep post photo with other just not me . what she mean ? want separate d it is starting to remove my thing from her d???????? !_!

why :(

i feel worry scare and uncomfortable, last night i cant sleep the whole night . i try to call her , i just would like to ask for a favour can she make some changer for me ? where is the love ? where is the love ? where is the love ? that last time she giving me ! why she take all those care and love , she always say she never change and always say she still in love with me . but why she use hurt to love me ?


it is tell the parent d , sure will have a big quarrel happen ? can she just do some thing to make me happy ? example can at least can post some my photo , call me chat chat , the most i hoping is she dare to ask the mother . but that is what i always say hoping for me is just hoping , it wont come to real .


i think this year my tear credit is almost finish d, always use middle of the night it is worth it ?
i always think that i leave her wont make any different , because i always no beside her , there got a Chinese idiom " close water balcony , will get the moon first " i mean those guy want date her at kl . i losing confident is may be she really silly , she cant feel the guy want date her that why she go out alone with him .


sometime i really feel want to ask the permission from the mother , because what she tell me i not very confident on it . of the mother say cant continue ok lo.......... since is like that i quit lo....... she git so MANY people DATE why still stick with me the 1 that always bring tons and tons of unhappiness to her ?


i just feel sad , when see those picture that last time we take , because the first day i come here i d stick all the sweet photo on the wall i hope those picture will give me so support to continue my study and over come the stress but now day those photo will make me feel more sad . because all is last last year photo !!!! why this year so BLANK ? but for her still very happening clubbing photo , beach photo , ext.