not like she is so busy till cant even reply my mail , in facebook . i dont what the hell is happen ?
how come so can so fake , i am sure she check the mail as well but she choose to ignore it and act since never read it like that ...........
i do feel scare bout that , it is reply a mail take longer time to write 3 new blogs ?/??? i dont for her may be !!! every small thing really make me feel uncomfortable , thousand of sorry for me is useless because after sorry still is sorry the FXXX problem still be there never change .
i dont what she want ? did i bring shame to her it is? if that just tell me directly , not need to hide the problem under the carpet . sorry sorry sorry did it bring any changer ? not at all !!!!!
always after a sorry still is sorry , tired of think why why why any more .
i am use to it the feeling of unhappy d, because i hardly can find some thing that can cheer me up d....... because 1 thing not smooth i been stuck in the same problem for three month d, always face the same problem i belief that 3 month later the same problem will happen again .
because 1 day not solve it 1 day the problem also will be there , maybe today can avoid it but the next day or the next week the problem will come back again !!!!!!
tired of always checking of the inbox , holding the phone hope it ring and appear her name , just like i say this year many thing i hope it happen it never happen but the thing i dont want it happen keep on happen .
i dont think this type of relationship will last , because the only communication way is use text (word) sms , blog as well . so stupid , many misunderstanding does happen due to lack of communications . and this also is the bigger problem for now day people , they prefer wording chat rather voice chat . ya the technology is very high tech , you do can talk to some 1 1000 mile from you but do you know who staying beside you ? do you talking or say hi to them ?
my relationship is sick , i very sure for that , it is not healthy at all every thing also have to guess or cheat and hide. if hide and cheat is because want to make the other feel better ALL THIS IS BULLSHIT la.... the most important and basic TRUST also gone still talk what love ????
current feel lost , lack of love ,care, safety feel as well (@_@)
