tired to giving d..........

i cant see my future any more

i feel tired to giving d, i feel my effort is being very cheap d. the thing that get easily is wont be appreciate nicely . so i dont think i will fly over to celebrate the birthday as well , no point that been that be there and screw up the environment .did i do wrong ant thing that make her feel so unfortable ?? i have no idea ???

keep on tolerant and lower down my self is really not nice to feel ,

yes i do compare with other people but that is normal guy will do ,

for what reason i leave my sweet time blank ???

i think that i not that important on her heart only ,

just like she already use to it that having me with her ,

some time is really cant belief that girl mind can change so rapidly !!!

is even faster than the weather because it is unpredictable 1.

even now wont feel any thing changer ,

but inside the heart , there might having other plan d,

just waiting for the right timing only

she always tell me that ,

how sorry , how unfair to me ,

but after say those word than the same thing happen again ,

than what the point that saying sorry ????

guy will feel sad too, especially the 1 he love not confident on him and not 100% belief in him , because god create guy as the leader of the world , family and it men that guy should leading the wife to the better future as well , but if you not confident and belief the 1 you leading you , you think final they will reach their destination

of course NOT !!!!!! RIGHT ????

book say girl is very emotional animal ,

when they feel stress, they will choose some 1 to share all the thing than they will feel better d, is totally different from guy if guy stress he will hide him self and back to the comfortable zone as well example watch movie , playing pc game etc......

we have to understand , and accept this fact.

girl and boy is totally different 1..

dont think they will be the same lo,

but we also must have to know the way of living happily.

feel confuse because i losing the hope for doing all this any more ,

because i feel my self standing on the floating ice surface any thing go wrong i will drop into the water can die , i just want to know that my current position on her only .if i not happy with the result either change it or leave it d.

current feeling sad and afraid to saying out the truth