the feeling after sent the message/ fist day without each other

today can say was the first day that we go for the break still got 21days more to go , for me the feeling is like got so thing want to do but cant do feel rally uncomfortable , but if do this than can make ours relationship better than i willing to do that lo.... i dont want later my birthday present is the last present that i can receive from her as break out present . that day i think i will feel more hurt and more hard to recovery , i think can blog should be the most bored and negative blog lo..... all also think negative 1 for those read this please dont be like me so use less be tough and strong

a week or a month comiment to make both of us can think wisely

today 16-09-2009 till 09-10-2009 i try to make both of us can have a rest for the mind and spirit can have a good rest of cause this also make my self feel very uncomfortable ! because since we already 4 year and both of us still young what age we have to married d for me is 25 than that time she is 24 are she going to married me ????? i really dont and i feel that she not confident on me like last time d....... because can feel the cold feeling from her the feeling is just snap by the knife again and again of course i hope june can walk with me stand with me always behind me giving me the support but not every thing is going like my expertation !!! it really hurt me i hope we can go thought this i think this will be the most hard 22days for me can talk to the 1 u love can know how it she this an that really feel up set , i dont wht thing happen to us for sure i know not because parent her parent know me and i belief that they all know my realationship with june as well so the most problem i think is the heart is changing d the love is tasteless d