friend ???

i think is a good time to let me see cleanly who is my friend , and who is not . for those fucker ......... when i here than will say why never meet out , by thetime i call no 1 out , but other people call all present. wht the fuck la...............


piss off to the max ........... dont feel want to talk to them any more ..........................................

raining day.....................................

raining day again, it just make me feel moody and tired. for last night is really regret the max......... feel damn left out . even at my home , i feel damn sick to this home d....... when i come back i dont even have my own private room any more . the feeling is really bad .
told last night will be a happy and enjoying night but in the end still the same ending........ quarrel to end the conversation..................

now day even a very small thing can make me feel very uncomfortable, i have the strong feeling that the third will come d.......... i dont know when but i just feel it, because the way she treating me is totally different d........ i feel left out i feel sad always have this type of thing happen to me........

drunk !!!!!!! i really hope yesterday i can get drunk till cant even open my eye totally hang over , because that i think i will feel better at least no quarrel. i just dont what she is thinking , the mouth say this but doing is always the opposite way 1 .............. say can company till any time , but when some of them going back she also say so, dont tell bullshit la....... dont want go back will wearing shoes d.... than reach junction only say i really can company you 1 , just u dont want and now almost reach my house d......... this and that............. ya her time is more expensive 1 ma....... more higher class 1 compare to mine . i can wait her from 6 to 10 but she cant even give me a happy 2hours . in the end must screw it out..........................


i dont think today she dare to contact me any more, for her always got her own theory. every thing she did is right i do always is wrong . she say working fair enough , but just dont always fulfill the empty hope for me it will make me hate rather than love d................. crying and begging my forgiveness all time what not dont do some thing that up set me ???? after all the tear flowing , the next moment the same thing can happen again !!!


feel stress having this type of relationship , full of untruest and not confident plus tons of unhappiness just hope she can end my heart hardly till i dont even want to talk to her any more i think is better than like now killing me softly.............................


tear fulfiling heart breaking and moody

i really angry and sad ..............................

today i purposely come back kuantan , just to meet her than she give me shit again .
at first say will go out with me , the whole night is me than , 10 o clock only can go out , i wait her from 8 to 10pm . than i dont want go clubbing , i go buy all the alcoholic drink party at my house.
now i have to keep all thing my self . fucking regret doing that . the most unhappy thing is she dont even appreciate it and dont even take photo with me . i dont what she thinking is want separate just separate d......... i enough for that d.............

after the party over every 1 going home , than she also say want go home .
ok fair enought out with friend can out till 2 3 am but me 1 am also not yet than keep say want to go back d......... still hope can have some sweet time with her hugging and talk some sweet talk but ............ fuck it la........ she so buzy ok la....... i dont hope any more la ............ is enough for me la............


take photo with other can so happy but with me only , not even want to take what the fuck ......... if i really want to take her photo so what it is my fault to take my girlfriend photo ???? ya maybe not my girlfriend la............

really dont who am i now.............. just feel up set after doing all the thing , than get that type of reaction i dont what to say ......... just feel say sunday morning have to go to kl d..........
no mood d0............. always say fair to me fucking bullshit only ............
every time just hurt and hurt me only .............................

suck i feel i am suck doing all type of thing hope she happy but screw it up in the end also