spear and shield in chinese idiom

i mean my self !!!!!!

i am so so so so so so so so possitive thinking in front of other mean face book . but here i know that i not that .

feel like getting crazy d......... always tell people think bout the bright side , stop thinking the sillly thing but in the end my self drop into the hot soup .



=.= think ? ops!!!! light buld blow off d..........