brand new day

today morning 6 some thing only can fall sleep ! since not thing to do also just continue sleeping till afternoon . the life style at johor is just so bored dont what to do ! feel not intrested in any thing !!! every day just hoping get to fly than finish this course faster .

i need a long long holiday , enter this fuxx school screw up most of my plan !! what i hoping last time was now i should graduate d..... prepare for interview d...... but now even the 165 single engine also haven done yet . that really up set me !!!

yesterday after drinking i go play dart game , till now i still can feel my muscle pain till . even i drinking so much but i still not dare to pick up the phone and call !!! i just dont like or can say i afraid to accept the true !!!

every day i feel my self was so empty , keep repeat the same thing again and again !! may be last time use to have some 1 to chat the time also pass faster !!! hai................ sienzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

is time for breakfast d...........

side effect from drinking d...............

just now during drinking , no cough at all but now cough like hell !!! after the high pass every thing back to normal !!! i told i can have a good rest after drink but shit !! still a wake in the middle of the night !!! non stop coughing make me cant fall sleep .



just now chatting with friend ....... always is like that after drink . holding the phone after pressing the nu,ber than delete again !! trying to relief my self from this but i dont what i want !?? in the end , order 3 more bucket and go back home continue with martell .

hate to stuck in this school the most i hate is stuck and keep turning inside the same shit problem !! remind only i feel lonely and down . try using alcohol to replace the loneliness even just for a day .