no going to graduate that soon !_!

i know stuck in this stupid school wont graduate me this year !!!!!

but what i can do ? all is money , change school have to use damn allot money 50 to 60 k extra T.T

when can i find that woh........... i dont want to presure my parent any more d..............

thinking to take part time d........ but in malaysia part time just earn too litter for me to pay the extra cost .

why i stuck in this place ?

feel that i be stronger d............ because i still living in this beautiful world .

stress stress tons of stress , knowing that cant graduate here but still have to continue study at here hai............... hai.........

happy happy happy eating chocolate do feel much better d..........

3 month just pass like that

yesterday 330 am only i reach my hostel .and i write this on 5am.



during that moment i feel like dropping tear because feel so lonely so hope less so far away from home T.T . just finish cleaning the room that i left for 3 month and i plan to change room d,so i have to remove all the note and photo i use to paste on the wall during taking those photo out the tear just like rain falling from the sky thinking bout koh so unbelievable that now he plan to marry his girl friend d............. how good and sweet of that so good born in the well family background i feel happy to him can together with the 1 he love but dont know it is do cross red light d........ so have to paid for the fine.



i trying to relax my mind not to think start a new relationship that soon d............... phobia to stuck in a relationship d......... i use to playful in relationship so that why i think is time to paid d......... after stable 1 relationship too long i start feel tired to change want settle down so that why i contribute all free time on it but =.= also because of that now i have to use more time to wash off the bitter memory .

thinking that what is really happen to my life ???????? why all not according to my plan ??? i cant belief that i use to plan that married at age 25 thinking working hard for 4 yr that have house car and a memorable wedding . thinking if not married at that time dont when should i d..... because 8 yr d that time is too long for a relationship not safe for the partner d.



but God is so humour and kind to me never take my breath away but her . i still learning and undergo this lesson that time i pray say if not her please take away or keep it return when ready God move is so fast within a week the relationship finally come to the full stop d. i keep telling my self the better future is waiting for me i dont even dare to think so much d.......... i try to put all my concentration on my study it easy for me to forget other thing!!!!!!! but in the end what i get is delaying from flying and tons of stress from parent cause 2 air craft crash in my school and few when for service check . that moment i feel that breathing difficulty crying plus praying was the only way to keep me a life .



i promise my self what even thing happen i also wont try do silly thing to hurt my self , i know my parent will be more upset . for me to end the "game " is so easy what i have to do is fly higher and off the engine but i never do it i belief that still got mission to carry on . i am still waiting for the day come true but i hope the time pass faster and i had learn what i suppose to learn .

so lost so lonely so much unhappy thing meet together . droping droping droping . . . . . . . . . . . .

after this i think i will be stronger because i know it cant kill me .
it just make me stronger and build up the immune system

money really not = hapiness

today i just hear this true story from my friend, i feel so sad and speechless because we really never know when is our game over time .



the story begin by passing through his house , this afternoon i with Andrew pass by Simon house what a big house !!! if you cant imaging how big it is ! let me explain , his house just right behind our pahang king house near the beach . a house right behind a palace how it will look like of course wont be that normal right ????

at first i quit jealous to this house owner , but after hear this story i feel that i am so glad to be a life taking every single breath also counted and so so so valuable till you wont able to paid God for another breath . first , the elder brother has mental problem the second son more sad suffer from cancer 1 hand already been but down but the virus still spread around the body in the end he pass away just age 23++ T.T . the elder brother suffer from mental problem is because last time he study at taiwan alone that time he relationship with a taiwan girl but dont want happen the girl leaving him . because that he starting cant accept the true , first he handsome got money why the girl still leave him ????? because of that he start got mental problem d.................. in the end course his self suffer from mental problem every day have to depend on the anti depression drug only .


in the end who will suffer ???? sure is the parent right ????? i do feel so sad for the parent !!1 just got 3 child 1 pass away 1 metal problem 1 at over sea study seldom come back d.............
so what the point that having money >?>?????? ya you may have tons of money but in this family cant even find a reason can make the parent smile !!!! so sad right ???


the lesson i learn today is appreciate every thing you have now , you able to a life also must thank GOd d........................ just because of girl thing , a small thing !!!!!! destroy the whole grand design so stupid right >>??? but human it just that stupid !!!!! always chase after the thing that cant be last long ........... so stupid right >>? modern human = silly guy

letter

my daddy keep mubble at me , i feel i almost cant breath d............... i already very fan............. this moment i hope every 1 just leave me alone !_! . stop asking me question that i cant answer !!!!!!!! i really reach the limit d.................. i cant talk nicely with daddy , i feel sorry but can he stop asking me how how how how d?????? because i dont have idea . hope some 1 willing to give the helping hand to me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

even i know tearing wont help but , i like it !!! at least some thing i do really make my self feel comfortable . just want to do want even i want !! i dont want to think dont want to think d.............. i am tired d......................... !_!_!_!_!_!_!_!_!_!_!_!_!_! leave me alone pls..........................


tired d........................................

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just now my phone the inbox full d...................... than i check surprise me that out of 200 message 150 come from same person !!! some even last last year 1. say truly that moment i got down for a while !!!! so so tired of this d...........

want to rest of my mind d............... maybe every thing hold too hard also will turn over to bad .
thinking of stupid thing again...........................................

when only i can get back to the sky ????

i feel bored for being such a.......... useless worm d................ i feel tired and hate my self d...........
wasting time and money !_! why so many thing keep on happen ????????? i almost cant breath d.............

finding a way to release my stress and sad !_! , if club will make me happy i will go but i know i wont because just a moment of happy wont cure the pain that occur in my heart .


every night tear trying to flow out , but the problem still there ?? i just hate my self . always mess the thing up !!! can some 1 drag me out of this ?>????

another lonely tearing night

sick

why my topic in here is so moody , but in facebook i can be normal .

damn sick !!!!!!!!!!!! may be is more private and less comment , in this world those know my blog i think less than 20 .

so i dont really mind ........................... at least a place that release my stress away !_!

i really cant see my future , !_! by what time some body talk bout future i will cry , because i d..... spent my father 200k for the course and my mother just sell off the business !_! the most stress think is i dont when only i can graduate !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
beside relationship thing now study issue really push me to the limit !!!!!!!!!!! i got no 1 to share , no 1 willl really understand me !!! and listen to me but i also know my self i wont show the weakness face to the public because i dont want the pitynesss from them . i not beggar !!!!!! i not beggar of love !!!!!!!!!!



i just want to be who i am ? but sorry to tell i not really know who i am !_!

sour grape !!!!!

i feel that my self is so so so so so so silly and selfish , since last few month i just change my status not long than my brother tell me that he in a relationship d...... :( it is a joke !!!!>>???



no he really at that time have a girl friend d........ some more is a very pretty sister that till now i also cant really accept this is a fact !!!!!!! but i do see the changer of my brother !!!! last time every time i meet with him sure quarrel or fight 1.......... not like i with my sister , that close may be since 12yr he been send to KL to continue the study so our relationship not that close .

but thank God that three of us never become that bad!!!!!!!!!! but also because of that i feel more worry to my self because i haven try many thing !!!! not like other from the big and complicated city have try so many thing before !!!!



for my self i feel that those staying at my home town , if go out study for sure will change !! because the people around you is different ! starting you will not realise you are change but yes you do change d.................



why i say that ? due to i just finish a camp ! life game camp , in the camp i feel that kuantan kids is so so so pure ! just like haven been pollute :( you will never know how cute try are ??? i purposely throw money on the floor hope that some 1 will pick it up , but unfortunately yes they pick it up but not put in the pocket another way round they chase me up and return me the money !! so funny so cute !!!! but i quit scare when the time they grow up have to go out continue study what will happen to them ???? i have a friend that is so so so good in kuantan good in study and also personality but after go KL study just like the song singing clubbing every day hey hey hey ........... what they have to do is take care and protect them self !!!!! because out side the world full of lie and sin. that can pollute a angel fall from heaven !!!!! so who you think you are ???? you think you are stronger than angel ??


is never too late to learn smarter.................................

complicated feeling again

just now company mummy go wedding dinner , another wedding dinner that because of "crossing the red light " .
the bride just age 21 same as me !!!!!!!!!! just finish form 6 . for me i feel complicated and so so so speechless the song they chose for the bride enter using 小酒窝 !_! got no other song d mem ?????? now day the way people looking at married is too easy d............
they all married is because burden or same baby . education is very important !!!!!!!!! some time i feel jealous it is shot some thing inside the 1 you love to book or reserve it ???

i dont know !_! , still stucking in the bad feeling !_! feel damn complicated !!!! if i really do it make some 1 having baby d.................. i dont think is correct and also i dont think the relationship will last that long ! married mean non thing , any time can ask for divorce. just different by processing fee .

tear droping ............. !_! stop thinking d lu....................
cant taip d....

i been to this before

the first day of life camp , i with few volunteer doing spot check for every room . than we discover that got a girl at a guy room , and both of them is couple relationship i know what they all thinking la.... come on....... i go camp more than they all . i still remember last time i go leo forum at penang , same thing i go with few friend 1 of the friend is her . that time , i think is the most scary night i went too and also the most wrong night !!!!!!!! because i put my self in that situation !!!! so danger if not because of her i think she will be the tonight wedding dinner bride d........



tonight i following mother to a weeding dinner , the girl just age 21yr the first thing every 1 will ask it that having baby d???? and the answer is yes !!!! 5month d.......... who fault ???? both also have to responsible for it !!!! but who have to pay for the bill ? definitely the parent of the guy !!



hai............ regret regret regret ......................................................................................................................... no 1 will understand when that time i discover that at the last night the girl is sleeping at the guy room alone !!!! just the guy and the girl !!!!!!! i open the door i feel scare to see some thing not suppose to see but the guy lock the door . so what can i do is just , knot and knot the door continue by warning !!!!!!

in the end , the guy wake up to open the room , he lying at the room the girl on the bed !!!! stop acting la.... you think is that possible ??? no because even singing time the both hand also keep playing around d........



tear droping .!_! wht i done ??? all is my choice !!!! but i miss it and waste it !!!

crying crying is use less d................................ i miss it mean miss it d.......



my tear droping because not any more i cant meet her any more in heaven no more !!!!!!

the heaven is counting on you

mood down

i am so moody today , at first is i am fuxxxxx tired and my idoit roomate tag me in a stupid video that my fridge is so damn messy . i do no why they can be so lame.............. if some thing over laps in the fridge d......... mother fuxxxxxx first thing is clean the fuxxx fridge first ?>>>>



piss to the max.......... can you really leave the messy fridge for few month ??????

life game

so fast 4 day 3 night is over d............ meet allot of friend . this time i feel that inp[acting , during this few day i really really tired .......... lack of sleep make me feel moody the most is my stomach not feeling well after first dinner . hai................. some more in the game i have to be the 1 that all people hate and scare =.= .



but any way if can help other learn some thing is this camp i will try my best , you want to slap me or what up to you because i know what i am doing !!!!! in the end , i feel that i not fierce enough because i dont think they inpacting much .

do you dare to join /????

let's do some thing silly it will make you famous http://baike.baidu.com/view/1465055.htm

china got 1 beggar famous till knowing people all around the world. so so so ridiculous , more or less like a famous model .

the world is really insane d........ beggar also can become star ???? tons of press surrounded him

cause that he become the icon of the village ??? what the ?? so damn ridicolous right ?>? but this is really can be understand the theory more or less like those silly girl skip the class , keep the pocket money all to purchase all the product that have the idol icon .

so that i believe that if now got 1 company willing to jump out hire this fellow , to be the company model i believe this beggar also will be the famous star in the future !!!!! that time all the brainless silly not only will purchase the product but will chase over the vehicle that he sitting on.

i cant imaging if that , really happen ?!!!!! so funny no point no aim no reason no not thing !!!!!!

really feel sick d..........

just my =_= own opinion

so fast the life game arived d.......

so fast , life game coming d......... i want to make my mind correct as well . because if my mind set not correct i may make other misunderstanding about the game than that time i cham lo........ people waste 260 for this game . so i must clear my mind d........ thank God before the game started i got chance to make my self clean d.......

let's have fun with the game , and i dont want any unhappy thing cause by me so that i will try my best to fulfil my duty as well .

at first i really stupid , thinking that want to use the game to wash over the bad memory and miss use of my power to make the camper suffer like what i experience before .

today got got few friend birthday

mariah carey voice is really really awesome oh.................... what a bless that some 1 sing birthday song to you like mariah carey . dreaming hehhe

not so ordinary night

ya............... maybe i jealous bout him ........................... but what the fucxxxx i fall to sleep d also can been wake by his phone talking voice !!!!!! even thought for him is already very soft but how soft also i still can hear fuckixxx annoying more or less just like few mosquito keep cycle on top on you.



today mood already not stable now some more 3am morning been wake by the phone talking sound . piss to the max................................. what i do i think i already do my best d....... i just walk off the room on the laptop and continue my sleeping on another room. at first plan to sleep at living hall d..... lucky that mummy not around so just sleep at her room la.........................



at least peace for my ear and mind ............ i dont feel want to boom and quarrel with him because i know that is useless , but i really dont understand that it is really got so fuccxxxx allot of thing to chat ah??????? just after dating than continue with the phone chat for few couple of hour ???



i dont know that am i abnormal or what ????

now day he already take lunch with his be lover girlfriend everyday without a miss , that at night every time say after meeting will go back home ya ya ya you take 3 hour to travel from a 10min distance place. hypocrite

ya ya ya may bei jealous of him so good got some 1 to chat till middle of the night ...........
so time i really lazy to listen to what he say , keep telling me that next year married than the house want deco this and that !!!! than the wedding dinner also much how grand how grand !!! so time inside my heart i really wound like to say can you stop fuccc dreaming ah......... let's be realistic abit can ma?????

may be i am the 1 that too realistic , till thing that happen out of my expectation .
my biggest weakness is i cant stand voice , my ear will pain i mean the annoying sound keep surrounding me

no mood to cook

no mood at all , for normal day i think i can go to the kitchen start cooking my dinner and my mood will be better d.......... but i know not this time . !!!!!! because i really angry d........... till i hungry i also dont border d......................

piss to my self

daddy keep giving reason to skip home church , that time say no time not free but now say sick not feeling well. tons of reason ........................................

i feel piss because i cancel all the plan wanted to company him go d.......... than he gve this type of reason ................ so just now he call me for dinner i also dont want to go with him d....... eat alone la................ i rather eat not thing also dont want to take dinner with a guy that keep break the promise ///////////////////////////////////////// angry and sad ?!_!

next week life game

still got many sit , for the life game !_! .

any way tomorrow will go to semanbu school to collect the form and also hope that got some new fellow willing to join !!!!

life game , so far was the more creative game i had join . hope that this time camp can help me wash off the bad memory .

because busy busy busy no time for silly thing .

still super energizer , thank for the white GAO coffee . for sure tonight will be just like last night
4am only able to stop thinking and fall to sleep hehehehehhhe. dont get sick that should be ok for me d......... currently no space for sickness

those take care me when i young

coconut pudding

500g coconut milk
400 g full cream milk
1 coconut
120g sugar
i bag of jelly gelatin
pandan leaf as i like
*submerge the jelly gelatin into ice water .

very easy to made , first i pour coconut milk , full cream milk and some coconut water , and sugar into a bowl warm it until all the sugar been dissolve .

another bowl i use it to melt the jelly gelatin .

after the gelatin dissolve mix all the ingredient together and put a side let it cheer .
when the mixture reach room temperature than pour into a mod
all done cheer it before eat for better taste hehehehehehe..........

the taste that i make today , i is for healthy people 1 is for ppl no dare

become fat hehehe so the taste is nice another just taste normal

weird !!!!!! i m the 1 cook for the maid

hai........... a maid that dont even know how to cook a maggi . lucky that i am free to cook for her . if not i think she will eat noodle directly from the packet............

just fried rice for her la...................

before go complain the school

the school say will meet us at 12 but in the end 3pm only see us....... during that time we find a place to have a cup of drink .

surprise me that my malay friend drink beer more power than me .......

pilot life style ?????? not use to it yet....... drink chocolate taste better

eating lok lok as lunch again ......

but this time not that happy because getting bored to what i ate d.......... feel lie not thing change from the stall even the arrangement also the same ..................

that why i start buy some ingredient to cook some desert to cheer my self up . but unlucky the pudding powder the flavour suck ......................... feel like eating medicine as well .
lucky that my another coconut pudding no so bad , the taste was just nice . but if redo again i think i cant get the taste any more .

people say when you are down let's have some sweet dessert , i think because of that reason i but allot of sweet ingredient , banana , chocolate , pudding powder , ice cream, coconut ect.

thinking to make banana boat , coconut pudding , banana pudding ect ..........

when thinking of that my mood also getting better d............ may be i enjoying to see the emotion from other eat the dessert........................... at least some thing can make my self and other feel happy .

23 aprit

dead end

miss me ????????

i really hope that thing happen to me is just a nightmare , got any 1 can wake me up ?

now only i feel that got money not happy is pointlesshttp://www.kwongwah.com.my/news/2010/03/08/159.html

for this few month i just stay at home , but daddy still give me pocket money . but ya i do have few thousand with me can buy some thing i like and wanted to buy so long. but in the real world is another way round . i just sit at home play game eat sleep watch movie and some time go daddy shop .

untill today when i go eat lok lok my self i feel the feeling so good ya.... may be for those rich people mean not thing and low class but dont care so much la...... during eating see the stick finish by me 1 by 1 . after so many stick it just cost me less than 10.00 dollar .

that moment i feel that , why i treat my self so bad ???? why not do some thing make my self feel nice and better le........ but maybe the place i eat not so clean , cause my stomach up set :( but i think tomorrow i will eat it again . a small happiness is desperate needed for my current life .

my school keep giving fake promise to me , i feel up set and down for tis few day d............... after talk to my "mother " spiritual mother i feel much better d...... i dont how she had such high EQ . for me a bit thing than i will feel angry or happy . She ask me whether really ok d........ still got feel pain ? than i also just share what inside my heart ............ after share it out really feel my body lighter . in the end she just told me that some thing like " GOD WILL GIVING ME THE BEST " the BEST 1. what i have to do is prepare my self become a better guy . because not only i want my partner is best my future partner also hope that she will get some 1 love GOD more than her because that for sure will be very very prefect family . for sure can avoid my family problem like a fair with other girl like latest a Singapore director having a fair with a model and always having sex in the car ? really unbelieverble ............

that moment i feel that got money really can fuxx any girl lo........ why those girl so cheap ??? ops.... should say why they all so IN update and open minded what a good name ???? than after case pop out still can pretent not thing and accept interview share out all secret with public ????
sickkkkkkkkkkkkkk

now day i can happy easily

today i just know that during eating time i will feel happy , especially eating lok lok .......... even thought eating alone but still taste good .

i drove half kuantan to find coconut , lastly i found it d...... i brought 4 in 1 time because dont why just feel want to drink coconut water . and plan to make coconut pudding if not success also got 3 for backup lo.............

dont why this few day , my stomach keep not feeling well . hai...... "period" come d i think hehehehhee dont care still drink and eat what even i want as long i feel happy . long time never see my self laugh d...... miss that sound ........

except cooking eating also can make my mood feel better d................... just worry become fat boy hehehehehh

feel relief

previously i feel so tired and down , but after this day i really told my self to release it d............
last time i still worry that , how do she feel ? but i think i just over worry d............. just take good care of my self is more realistic and responsible to me self.


actually there is not space for me to be worry , obviously tons of friend is there till that can make most impossible thing be possible . by the way in term of resting at house thinking silly thing i rather do some thing bring benefit to me self or other .

when you step out of the house , you will automatically wear your invisible mask and start be some 1 that other people will accept . for girl will always have a girl movement , but i dont think all the girl like to life that way . that why now day got so many toms boy and bisexual as well all this is depent on the enviroment that you effect you . because enviroment was the 1 that choose what type of mask you suppose to wear .

i always think i am lonely , but that is of course because may be last time i never start invest time on friendship so this is the out come . feel stupid that having a blind love !!! you will think that every thing was fine every thing is good as long stick together . not healthy at all !!!! but i am still that type of people wont call every 1 out for drink that type of person because after few incident the number i call never turn up told me busy , but the true is go other friend big new house ??? what the ??? why must lie ?? damn it !!!! wait la... the day will come my day will come .

i want my life not only good i want it be luxury can comfortable to the max . to achieve that i want my partner is some 1 that really can and willing to give her helping hand for me when i need and not just having a beautiful out looking but without brain .

bio clock

spoil d........... my body clock spoil d....... cant fall to sleep that soon hai....... really headache to themax............. want to oi oi also hard lo......

if every day like that than cham lo........ wish that when go back johor can become normal back......

if not for sure danger for my self and other people ......

sleep sleep sleep sleep faster sleep la...................

when only i can get back to the sky?

now if you call me fly the plane again i think i dont even know , where is the place of the suis d......... i just waste 3month . every time also like that , after doing so choose i will feel regret lo.....


so sick of my self .................................

just now speeding on the road , i dont even feel any thing . just feel that is too slow for me !!!!! miss flying and hope to get job soon and start fulfil my dream and very thing house cars lover as well..............................................

too free to think silly thing d...................

today i visit my secondary school

meet with some Junior hai, no 1 remember me d....... just some still know who am i ?

today i meet with some leo member and give them my batches than only i realise that my own name tag gone d....... but her 1 is with me !!! so funny ! maybe lasy time i change my with her or what i cant remember d.......

but just feel that a big changer in the school tons of cctv more or less like jail d.........

but the school does transform to 1 of the famous school in kuantan d................................
maybe the dog is right .

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

short of lov e

finish watching a movie name short of love . so funny and make me feel and think that in this beautiful still got many many more choose 1...............

what i have to do is just work smart not hard to earn $$$$$$$$$$$ because in the movie , show that now day people mind set .

LOVE = money so realistic . all the romance behind containing tons of money and time investing in .

but it is really have to live that way ???? so extreme ???? may be !!!! because now day our mind set all been poison by the movie and press d....... and actually what we do and how we live today actually is not the real you !!!! dont understand ??? make it easy , how you live actually is what the world thinking !!!! just like is term of beauty now day for girl is talk s shape body line good cup and pretty cute face . but for last time the social think that a fat and fair women only is the most beautiful women . so in the end , we live by wearing a mask !!!!!! a mask that people like and accept it so much . for girl , always is the most easy to get what they want !! that also because guy personality is "ji ge" . for girl is always " fan ji " example people got wife but still want to make out with that guy in the end slap by the wife .

every night i keep thinking that , how to earn ? how to be some 1 in this world ? because i also hope that can have a pretty wife even is fake love like those movie series a very pretty women a a pair with a old old rich man . waht the fxxxx ???? got time must ask ask my mother friend because she just date with a man that age 60 and her age is 40 only . she told my mum how good is that guy !!! but my mum just return 1 word if he is not rich you wont sa that !
imaging i am grow up from this type of family background .

so sick of my self . i feel so fake so tired so lost so feel like crying .......................................................
let's wearing mask tomorrow and continue my life once again .

life game !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hai........... i hope it realy can make it the number of required .

some time feel so sad , for pushing the event so hardly but no 1 entertain you but if we just hire some artist or some star to come over even just 10min i think no think to be worry . but we just cant do it !!!!!!

come on la.... people ??? who create you and me ??????? who create those "star" we create them and make them become "star" but GOD create us to be his son and daughter !_! .

thinking of that i feel so down d............... sharing christ is always difficul than share entertainment news update .

tommorow hope that can enter my school for the last push of the life game because if not enough people all thing will be cancel !_! . but aunt rachel told us dont feel stress dont worry ! if in the end it haveto cancel we already do our part at least we try our best to work with GOD d..........

that moment i silent down because do I really try my best d????? i dont think so ? but for me i just feel that i like no friend anyy more !!!!!!!! i just like become some anti social idiot . because even last time no 1 will call me out for any way always is i out is because she inform me..................... !_!


cry feel much better d......................

going off soon , back to normal when i back to JB at least no that much of free time for me to think silly thing d.......

sad for stpid silly thing

some time people ar very funny , a bit of thing can make the whole day mood down !!!! so silly .

just cant sleep well d

stomachach d......... i think is just now eat and mix too many food d......... keep runing toilet shxxx

but at least some thing to do lo ....... bettr than lying on the bed cant sleep think this and that so stupid, keep become other ppl toys !_! .

sle[p slep slep slep

3 am not that good dream that i expected

still open up my eye big enough to to cover the moon .................

many thing keep coming out from the mind , sweet memorable sad hard time ect .

i am 20yr 20% of my life some 1 is walking with me .

1-5 1-5yr baby

6-10yr small kids kick out from the school

11-15yr leo club , tuition meet her bully me

15-20yr time past fast just like the relationship as well ,

more or less like the fire work , but my fire work last 4yr ,

but fire work always has the ending .

accept it release it do it la..........

ooi i oi oi oi oi oi la..................

denggi sickness........................

just now i go KPJ hospital visit my aunt , she suffering denggi . dont know why ? when i step in there i feel familiar to the environment than suddenly a image pop out really just like the drama series so ridiculous .

my aunt room is room 206 , the popping image is just like fresh in my mind . because last time june suspect affected denggi that time i am so sad so worry because she dont even inform me i know that from a friend . any way hehehe i still remember that time i still haven had driving licence still travel by bicycle but that time i dont know hear who say eat "frog" can cure the sick wah....... at that night right after my tuition wih chung yu , both of us like Olympic champion rider at night cycle here and there to find "frog" i think all the restorant in kuantan garden we had visited d........ keep calling friend asking for help where can get the "frog" some even call tell caugh it by my self crazy busted i remember you !!! that moment in my mind if cant find in kuantan maybe just cycle to sungai lembing la......... there sure got 1...... lucky when we reach medan selera food court the place got sell frog oh......... i tell you that moment till now i also cant forget because cycle for few hour d.... still found not thing thininking that really want to cycle to sungai lembing mem...... far wor......... lucky never do that first .

incident happen , hai thank for my good buddy chung yu his cycle lock key lost d......but when we park the bicycle he say must lock fine lock than lock la.......... in the end worst at medan selera both bicycle lock together like twin and a bag of frog !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wah !!!!!!!!!! damn piss but that time i dont even think how i say fuxxx it la, carry the bike la..... because that time sent the frog was my first aim i dont care how i must sent it first . like without the frog she will dead like that what a stupid thinking . after half and hour cycle finally reach the hospital d.......... wah that moment first thing is drop the bike and bring the frog to the mother the bike later only settle la........ when we enter the room after pass the frog and look at her hand blue black and a salt water bag plug on the hand that moment see her like that my heart also pain want to give hug but parent is there hai......... think back why cant just tell the parent that i dating with your daughter may i give a hug ??? ?think back also feel scare first time saw her so ill !_! but after this the frog whether the mother got cook it for her a not i really no idea .


feel happy that have chung yu this buddy !!! i think no 1 will company do this type of stupid thing any more .

no 1 to share just share to you la, good night ! after typing all feel lighter d......... hope a better night later .

darm tired due to .......................

last night i not really sleep not well because i think most of the time i dreaming .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuxxx la......... i cant control my dream , keep dream the thing that i want to forget . the whole night just night the a long movie maker all the picture i think all become real and i have to go trough that again .


say truly the dream do feel sweet like not thing happen before , if last time first thing i make a phone call and share every thing in the dream d............ but this time feel weird when i wake up know that is just a dream actually feel a it up set . because 10hr dream is time to wake d....... that moment i do dont feel want to wake up try to build some other dream but damn it !!!! it out of my control .

now every day wake up , just face the pc talk to my blog . really sick lo......... many people around i not sharing anything but to the pc !_! . maybe i dont want other feel fan of me keep talking the same thing since last year . the best way express it out on my blog . Rather than do some thing stupid lo.............. co'm the future is bright ok............. 7k per month that time no worry of girl la....... !_! now what i hoping is faster graduate that alllllllll

new record

first time drove kl trough and flow within 24hr .

the return trip is really thank god i still a life , i am so sleepy d........ because of that i maintain 140km/hr but in the end get scold also what la............. i dont the road what , every 1 is sleeping no 1 guide me also than i enter wrong way d....... than keep booming me .......................

damn tired......... today meeting with the director more than 3 hour in the end just give me some bull shit hope !!!!!!!!!! if i am rich enough i think i change school long time ago d............. since this school are the cheaper what to do no extra money for me d... mummy also stop working d....... daddy so old d....... still have to work !_! i hate my self so so so much.................. because i just waste my 3month holiday !!!! the longest holiday i even had !_! this type of school fuxxxx them la...........................