complicated feeling again

just now company mummy go wedding dinner , another wedding dinner that because of "crossing the red light " .
the bride just age 21 same as me !!!!!!!!!! just finish form 6 . for me i feel complicated and so so so speechless the song they chose for the bride enter using 小酒窝 !_! got no other song d mem ?????? now day the way people looking at married is too easy d............
they all married is because burden or same baby . education is very important !!!!!!!!! some time i feel jealous it is shot some thing inside the 1 you love to book or reserve it ???

i dont know !_! , still stucking in the bad feeling !_! feel damn complicated !!!! if i really do it make some 1 having baby d.................. i dont think is correct and also i dont think the relationship will last that long ! married mean non thing , any time can ask for divorce. just different by processing fee .

tear droping ............. !_! stop thinking d lu....................
cant taip d....