fat ass

i become fat ass d....................... i still cant believe that my waist become 31 d........ cham lo , i dont want become fat chai le.......... hai no more beer for me !!! no more rice for me !!!

i want be slim back

!!!

fighting !!!!!

declare war with klifa !!!!!!

i want back it back my time my money my love all i lost because study in the school!!!!!

watch out klifa this case will never end !!!!!!!!!!

eat eat eat

first day reach taiping we already start searching for food d........... but the food in taiping not really suitable for our , my family member use to heavy and strong taste food but 1 thing taiping food price are very cheap too cheap to be believe . 4 chan kuew tiao only cost rm10 and the supper for three table it only cost us around 25-30 .

days 2 at ipoh ..... current position ipoh city hotel , an above average hotel the best thing with free wifi hahahahahaah ............................ before reach this hotel we go to meet my God father , last time he is a monk but now not any more but still strong in religion .

all the best food photo will upload when time permitted

i never never think off ending my beautiful

i am stress and many thing happen this day , but seriously i dont have the guts to end my life .

i dont how people can do such thing ? that moment what they all feel ? have to leave every 1 you love , go to hell !!!

even my parent do that before !!! i think i am still the blessing child i never have a day that need to worry for my meal worry for this or that . but my life are 180 ' change when i age 13 , thank you sister bring me to church . i not saying church have magic power can turn bad guy to better person but in real life God does do that !!!

because i cant imaging what i will do right now if i never have a chance to know God , for my personality not afraid to any thing 1 !!!! i think if that time never hardworking study back , i may end up like those guy that selling drunk or pirated CD . but i know my self very well i wont sanctify on that only for sure i will do bigger and bigger business . worst come to worst end some body life i think that time no 1 can stop this evil any more .

my evil side of my heart , if really back to live i cant imaging what i will do !!! i am the kid that kick out from the school age 8 . no school willing to accept me !! but i feel glad God help me i change to other school better life there . at least no more big case happen , till now i still dont know why the malay student will say i cut his hair and another cased worst say i beat him till bleeding !!! till now the bloody shirt still in my mind will never forget or erase in my mind any more d...............

after that incident i hate people dont believe me , shout at me !!!!!!

moody ...................

age does not mean any thing

even though i already age 21 , but in my daddy mind i always a kids . hai............... first i plan to drive to kl than finish the thing drive back kuantan driving is always better than bus at least my self handle the timing !!!!

some more tomorrow big celebration at home ,after the thing have to rush back kuantan . so fast 10 days more than i have to go kl establish every thing d......... keep on travel KL kuantan make me crazy .

love you

jogging with daddy

walau yer !!!! daddy really can run 1 lo........... i follow at the back also feel pressure at !!!! age 60 still can run that speed and distance really dont play play oh !!!!!!

happy to jogging with daddy , even though i not really like to jogging but since he invite me join only la.............. because i think every second count !!!!!! even till now i still cant rally believe that my daddy believe in jesus name d.......... but from he buid up the christmas tree together and more time we together i start believe that all is blessing !!!!!!!!! i dont want this blessing taken away from my family any more !

i am a very realistic and Independence person , many people may say how good can be like me but to become me you must go though a tough process a freedom process !!! no 1 will care bout your meal study or any thing as long you are a life that is enough d !!!!

but now my family has 180 change just left my mother and I because i also start go downward d........... is time to slap my self and go on . not thing is impassible for those believe in God and i am the 1 that experience it truest !!!!!!

love you

war war war

i am so tired of fighting with my school !!!! tomorrow have to go to KL meet some political person hope he can help me !!!

seriously !!! i hate to do those thing !!! because i not use to fight !!!

subang airport

next month if not thing wrong , i may start my training at subang airport . at place that full of challenge and fun . for all of this i hope it pass soon because i am tired to go thought all of this d..... age 19 already start working at airline but i age 21 still stuck is the flying school !!!!

many thing need to solve out and handle , accommodation new place new road to travel .

facebook

base on research facebook was the most user social networking, it also make allot of couple separate some even husband and wife , the percentage as high as 26% mean that 1 of 4 . also due to easy access and is a new life style , now day people rarely ask for email address but faceboook account .

inside there you are free to speak free to access others account , because of that some criminal minded person always misuse it . i think Malaysian shout feel proud because average they spent more that 8hour per day on facebook once again malaysia boleh !!!! you know what !!! you and i together make up the number !!!

the created of facebook just age 26yr and already become billionaire is Billionaire !!!!!! top 200 in the world and also the younger top 200 riches in the world !!! we are come to a new era that no strength competition but brain !!!! not how tough you are but how smart you are !! or not how hardworking you are , but how smart you can be !!!!

some when we have some free time , why not take a break and think some thing useful !!! not only follow blindly what people do !!!

take care

Christmas is just around the conner

to be continue.........................

finally i change school d..... BUT !!!

the war just begin !!!! the war with my school is just begin !!! because the fxxx school waste my valuable time and keep holding me back . until i cant stand change school and the school want me to pay them back roughly 6k !!! what the hell ??? they owe me 51K i also never say any thing now i want to leave the school they want me to paid 6K .

i think the school crazy d.......... start compare us with another school , say that the another school also facing the problem . in the contract my school KLIFAs say i can graduate in 16 months but now i already more than 24 month i just get my CPL only still got 35hr to go !!!!! then the school replied in malaysia no school can graduate student in 16 months even the20 plus year school MFA or HM too !!!!

fine all is our fault the school have non thing to do with that !!! the most wrong move we did is choice this school !!! SHIT !!!!!!!! happen !!!!! in the particular period i am piss and down please leave me alone !!!

take care

crying for good cause

just finish prayer meeting at petra , till now i also dont know why i will cry ?? but is a very good release for me . how this happened , is start with lets pray together with your own family member a instruction given by my spiritual mother . than like usual brother and me go beside daddy and start praying , during praying time i can hear daddy pray for mummy and all of us .

my emotion totally collapse when daddy lead the prayer , he pray for mother sprit our health and etc ........... i so emotion also may be yesterday i go drink with aunty fan and her children .for infomation she is the second wife in the family , she say after 10year happiness the dream had to wake up due to her husband having affair with another women . the most scary part of the story is by early of this year she having a fight with the women , in the end the women knock her head by using high heel and cause her forehead bleeding the blood flow over the shirt !!! imaging you are there watching your mother hit by another women that destroy your family ?? how you will feel ? and this is what happened to them the children . the father of the children not only never stop the women but chase aunty fan them away .

after compare with them i really thanks God healing my family , if not i think my family will be almost the same as them !!! God really listen our prayer , because in my whole life i dont even dare to think my father will belief in Jesus .

by hugging and cry on daddy shoulder , that moment i feel warm and release because i know if any think happen to me and there will always have a shoulder be there for me !! it too easy for to start a relationship but to maintain it nicely and follow the true and holy way is not easy !! but the result are so worth wait for it !!!

take care and never lost hope :)

drinking but also thinking

after hearing aunty fan case ! i totally can feel the kids feeling , no much to say ! pray for my self first , since my self are no good !!! i dont want waste this opportunity to share the gospel :)

may God be with the family

worst drinking experience !!!

11/12/2010 i will never forget that night !!!!

that night i attend my aunt singing competition , just like usual beer will never miss in a Chinese dinner !!!! starting i dont plan to drink much because 10/12/2010 i also drink allot of beer with them .

after the whole night drinking , i do get drunk and also hang over !!!! here i have to apologize for what i did last night !!! first is driving in drunk condition ,it may cause danger to my self or others . second is drink too fast and too much d........... i dont why !!! after the few cup my engine started than no 1 can stop me from drinking .

dinner haven started we already start drinking , 2 -3 bottles keep rolling rolling till the end got 1 uncle joking to the promoter i want 1 box of beer . but the promoter taking the box of beer straight without thinking !! hahaha stupid fellows but the box of beer never last long , just last about half and hour than finish we finish the last drop of beer .

that night aunt never won the first place but her friend did and for her just won the best stage performance and get 6th among 60 people . due to the champion wining so we went for second round , that time i still steady the alcohol level haven reach my level yet so i still able keep drinking around . but the uncle that open a box of beef , such a prurience guy !!! every time keep acting drunk than trying to eat other people "taufu " bustard !!!!! the worst is he hug a women from the back and the hand on the women breast .lucky the women husband came on the right timing , after every seat down that he come . i cant imaging if he saw that scene a guy hold his wife breast !! sure fight and beat the guy hard 1.

aunty fan daughter and younger son also joining us , due to the age limit i try to protect them from other . especially that Guy , so every time he go near them or go near aunt i also will go beside him trying to stop do funny thing .

the best part of the night , i able to sent every 1 home than i park my car in front of my house by the time i off my car , the hang over appear i vomited and pass out in car . lucky i am fine not thing happen to me , the worst thing can happen is i will lost every thing from car to wallet every thing .

dont ever try this !!!!

my friend friend want to get fock today

i just receive a call from a johor internet friend !! she ask for my help that her friend may in the hot soup !!!! age 16 and and the guy 19 yr ~~~~~~~ making out at this time !>?> making out tonight ? sorry u cant help any thing ~! because i dont what is happening and what problem ? may i help la !!!

i just hope that the guy just have a good night with her and never do funny thing la...................

at age 16 the guy will face a serious problem~! cane 10++ for the guy !!!!!!!!! fxxxxxxxx some more !!! any thing happend that for get about the girl and find another !!!!! fccccker

take care and love your self pls

money are not easily get !!!!

today i woke up at 630 than get ready at 730 than my day begin with a long journey ,travel to bukit besi !! i believe it tell you every thing d... a place that can name " iron mountain " .

thank God for good weather not so hot and not so cool

multi-billion machine

having 10% i can own not Lamborghini or Ferrari but a yard or plane d.......

my lunch at 5pm , sore throat because hungry i finish the packet within 5min

last 3 lorry than i can go back kuantan d.......

even in such weather i still get sunburn !! imaging normal hot weather day !!!! till now my body still hot and slight pain due to sunburn .

take care :)

05/12/1952 my daddy born

so fast my daddy already 58yr !!!! but his investment haven mature got no pay back !!!! and the investment is me T.T . i believe he has spent more than 70% of all his money on me , i feel stress because by the time i graduate and get job very fast daddy also 60 d!!!!!!

i feel so sorry , if he never spent most of the money on me i think he should able to retire and enjoy life . for me i am the kids that born in a better than normal family not rich but comfortable life style .

last week still thinking bout relationship thing , bored to be single want to do some thing d......... but i dont think i will do any more thing d..... the 1 that really care me only deserve my time . last time when i still study in secondary school so happy so freedom so many people to play love ...................

take care

first time know the feeling girl peeing

not kidding lo........... i keep diarrhea watering sound disgusting !! but i already "peeing " more than 7 times less than a hour . tired and ill want to rest more d.............

love you :)

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

today my mum friend been robe total lost i think more than 20k !!!!! A huge LV bag , LV note book , LV wallet , jade , cash more than 10k , 2 iphone . the thief break in at mid night and take the bag that beside her bed so daring . at that moment all the "power jade lion","calligraphic from the temple " does not well function . now day no place are really safe any more

do not take it easy for door locking , never mind la.... a while only ma... not need to lock the door la.... dont regret after thing happen try our best to prevent it .

love you : )

no way for me to be police : )

due to my characteristic for sure will kill by those mafia very soon , hahahha the word she use are brilliant for me " money taken , but people still caught " .

why suddenly will take bout this topic is because i just company mummy go KL 1 day trip go here and there . first is bukit bintang , mid valley and sri petaling . worst thing happen we make a move back to kuantan around 6pm the traffic is terrible at this moment still have to sent my cousin go lrt station in middle of no way . traffic jam and get lost in kl mix together really can kill people .

thank God for the safe journey .

love you :)

suddenly so many thing come out my mind

a new solution has come out , change school to APFT or waiting at the same school till july only got chance to fly .

45K , hai....................... when can i find such big money ?? to change school need another 45k for the school fees only the accommodation and extra money have to spent out on food and petrol .

i dont think parent still got extra 45k for me , every day thinking of finding money and no 1 to speak out really make me crazy d.....

why my education road so many obstruction and tear . am i really choose the wrong career ? i just know i got no returning way d......... even dead also must come out with the license and get job pay back the debt .

how was college life ?? sound nice and wild for me , so freedom .

please pray for me T.T because i am going to get mad soon

hehe

today i successfully make 1 chicken herb soup , special kerabu taufu ,egg with long bean : )

but during cooking always thing happen : ( just now i cut the chili starting not thing happen but after a while later i feel my hand is burning and i still so smart use the hand to clean my face and mouth . i tell you the burning feeling almost kill me just now T.T i apply ice hot water milk every thing that daddy and brother say can reduce the pain but no 1 is useful . ice only reduce the pain but not cure it and hot water worst during apply it my tear almost fall down d!!! dont even mess with small chili any more .

today i learn my lesson very well .

love you : )

feel like cooking some thing

long time never cook till i dont have any idea what to cook d !!!

yesterday during take care of dad shop i sketch down what i want to cook a chicken soup , kerabu taufu , sweet and sour fish and mix vegetable .

successful produce a good presentable meal , make my mood be better .

birthday VS mother give birth

do you even think about this question before ??? the day that you busy celebrating your birthday do you even imaging dont know how many year backward your mummy that stuck in the operation room , risking her life to born you ??

feel surprise ?? even me i forget that !! now day human are so forgetful and ungrateful . we will easily take thing for granted like every thing come so naturally .

be good to parent : ) keep reminding my self

love you

job also sexist !!!!! today mood very grey

those male pilot always ask why girl want to be pilot , even though they know hard to get job ?? i was thinking why most of the major airline dont take in girl pilot ?? but after i search the part time job for few days than i know the problem already . in our mind we already set what sex suitable what career example most of the promoter job are looking for " presentable looking girl " damn it !!! how la.... ??? presentable looking ???

every time looking at those job application really make my self feel down and feel uncomfortable , minimum SPM above T.T say get a degree in 3 to 4 year but me still SPM with a flying license . go out apply job i really dont know what can i show off in my resume any more .

hai !! mood swing and down to the max today ...................................................................

eat sleep play eat sleep play eat sleep play die

i am so fxxxxxxxxx lost , seriously part time also hard to find since promise daddy take care of the shop during 7/12 - 14/12 hai........................

thinking to find some freelance earn so real money , $$$$ really not enough or the satisfactory is higher and higher d......... ???

thinking to go back johor at least no 1 know what i doing . hate to answer question any more !

just receive a call from kuan

first word she told me was want find extra money ?? they all also join d...............

sorry not in the mood , working with they no way !!

i rather to stay at home or help daddy mummy !

the longest " distance "

the longest distance between human is not "actual distance" , but the mind set !!!!

thank for internet we can chat or communicate with some 1 that far far away from us . but the 1 that stay within a home are you communicate with them ??

i'm home !!!!!

from johor to kuantan that is a long journey to travel , say truely i and so worry bout my study . every time i flip thought the news paper i see the those requirement my self will feel bad man .......... minimum diploma how many thousand flying hour bla bla bla ...................................

for some people 3 to 4 months holiday is just awesome , a gift drop from the heaven right ?? but for me i just feel suck seriously what can i do in this few month ?? already few day never sleep tight . i think is a good time for me to calm down my self and pray T.T sound crazy or silly ?? i can tell you is not funny :) because i belief the power or prayer . example i enable to pass all my flying paper and most off the ground test what a huge miracle !! of course i do study for the exam but the power of memories the thing performance in the exam hall as well .

another thing to pray hard beside my study is for my parent baptism , i love my parent very much just like how they love me . if count it out 1 by 1 what they all prepare for me i think i may need another 21years to list it out T.T . every time stay at daddy shop the heat from the sun really killing me but think back daddy been there for how long d?? i dont know why the relationship between mw and mummy become better day by day it is weird if i say that ? why i say so is , because last time my mother used to work at the coffee shop and spent most of the time there some more every day lack of sleep due that mummy become very hot temper and i am the younger child and " scorpion " i rather to silent or walk off the conversation if i feel i been attack !!!! but now thank God once again after i left home for study i realize that how easy life i having at home , every day mummy cook for me till i have not thing to worry bout .

now day mummy even call me "bao bei " : ) love you too

always think before we say , the word without thinking may hurt other forever !!!!!!

fighting !!!!!!!!!!

just hear a news from mummy , my cousin that wedding head of this year get into a fight !!! is not a normal quarrel any more . for my own feeling this pair are so wrong !!! before married already start quarrel d....... married because having baby that is not the way man !!

last week the fight even involve knife that use to chop chicken !! the baby haven have a chance to take a fresh breath , the parent start fighting wanted hurt each other . i feel scare to hear those story i mean this type of news, because i feel that if i do what even i want ignore every thing by the time i get hurt no 1 will pity me .

my mind are always fight with the heart , my heart keep remind those time but the mind stopping me to do that . for me i know my self very well , Ego that cant hide form my body . also because of this i will rarely step back or tolerate . after so long , that day i try to make the first step but i scare getting hurt later so i just remain the first step a normal sms .

scorpion VS scorpion mean some body gonna hurt of step back d..................................................

going back to johor tomorrow night

actually the aim that i go back johor is for the face treatment , and hope that i get the flight job in my school . at least i get some income $$$$$ . i am broke for this month d............. after settle all the bill . tm bill that my friend still owe me rm200 , and i pay the treatment for rm250 by monthly installment kasian gila...............

because i really hate to use photoshop to edit the photo d...................... so fake @.@ how good that i have pimples less face !!! or just less i also feel happy d.............. stress $$$$$$$$$$$ i think is the most people problem . but my case i know can solve it by asking money from either parent just dont want , i rather to settle it by my own also dont want ask more pocket money .

most of the time i was thinking that how daddy make it ??? and how mummy did it again ?? God will ?? daddy is working in "oven " for 9 -10 hr per day , and mummy that can only speak chinese but can bring people to japan or other country that doest using chinese .

the most i cant stand is i really cant act infront of people i am not a good actor !! if i dont like you mean i dont like you d....... that is me !!! i wont hide my feeling like most of the people . but to survive in community we are force to act ................................ say cheese :)

lonely night that cant fall sleep , too many things fly across my mind .

what school will give you more than 4 months holiday??

klifa is what you looking for !!!!! this fuckup school i think is the worst school in malaysia d....... got no more extra money to spent on me and i also dont want increase the load for my parent d.....

change school can solve the problem , but it also mean more money have to spent out !!! i dont think my parent have the money any more . every time thinking bout money i also feel bored and down . because now day for me i feel that to earn every single cent is not longer easy but why still got many people can have this and that so easily but they treat parent still like shit !!!

thinking what to do in the future 4 months , part time job ?? 3.5 per hr !!!! 8hr per day mean that 28 a day minus fuel and lunch 20 per day !! if working continuously 30days only get 600 !!! so amazing !!! my pocket money already rm 700 d............ i really dont know how those people spent the money ?? for me staying outside daily meal already cost me more than rm15 d........ mean 15 X 30 =450 d...........

better still i use the time to learn some thing new, but what course can i take for 3 to 4 month ??

what i am thinking

for now i really dont know what am i thinking d................ but just try to be nice ..................sending a wishes may be not only the thing i want . but what to do ............ too afraid to hear so thing that hurt again so till now i never ask a single question from that issue .

live is short , lets play more and pray more :)

last minute change plan

mummy last minute change her plan , not going to batam any more due to her passport still at kl for the japan visa process . haiya.................................. than today go to school finish up the paper work that remind me i have to do my medical check up at subang d.............. because for applying the new commercial pilot license need a longer validity medical certificate .

no choice rizal is going to renew his medical on this Thursday ........................................ why la.......... i will be at there also .

feel like throwing out

i hate to throw after drink , the feeling is suck man....................... but i more hate in between throw out and cant throw out .

finally most of us pass the test d.

drunk will make people a wake ??? no way , just taking coxk after drinking .

:P headache

off line

drunk mean happy ???


i dont think so man ................. now what i feel is want ti vomit and prepare to clean the dirty after after the party DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD vomit feel better?? no reallgy


i feel lonely , :) feel like .................................

i am drunk

at this time i am almost drunk ,before i get drunk i write down what i thinking first . really funny by looking thought are drunk !!! my friend almost get drunk d............. if i pour few more cur for him confirm he can swin on the living hall d...............

lol....................... we just finish more than halt of vodka and whisky haha.................. those that cant drink start crazy d............ super funny by looking at them lol..............

i almost get drink d.............. before that i must record it first d.................................. congratulation for those that pass the exam ...............


love so much :)
i not yet drunk :P

17-/18 -11 -2010

i just receive a call from mummy , she invite me to go Indonesia batam on the 17 till 18 . straight away i say yes d............ thank God because this thing keep bonder me for few day d.............. that day i will not be at kuantan or kuala lumpur even malaysia d.

is another relief for me , hai......... holy father already make a choice for me : ) . because if i meeting her mean i am looking for trouble and not happiness . any way wish all the best for her , i really dont want to know WHY d................. may be this situation is the best for you and me .

i know that , the "dead knot "& : million of ??? " will still in my heart . the most you trying to forget the more you recall .

love you :) once again thank God

12-13 /11/2010

i thought i will break my own record go visit the club in johor , because i been johor more than 2years d........ i never visit there before . in the end sie hai call for drink i though gonna drink at the club d......... in the end go the pub but i like the pub too the environment is nice just like the oversea pub . having live band and nice food and pool table , but we dont really drink much that night because along the way we face 2 road block d.

we just drink few cup of over sea beer than 2 bucket of Heineken that all !!! not drunk but the feeling is just nice , another problem i think i gain weight d =.= .

i still dont know what so tasty about beer , it can be the most consume drink after water and tea . unbelievable believe it !!!!!

love you :)

just got this feeling

just now during reading i got a feeling or hear a sound that tell me that how gladful i am !!!!
why i always will ask God "why i dont have this i dont have that but people had , but do we think another way ?? why people have to you dont have to ? example : people are blind in accident why he not you ??? what you dont have maybe a branded spectacle but others ........


so always feel glad and thank God and your parent for giving every thing they could :)

love you :)

finally i am finish my test

the moment i get down the aircraft , i feel so relief and seriously the feeling is really hard to describe by wording . for me now really not thing but flying d........... i has pass all my paper and now the flight test d.....................

long time never been so happy d, after the flight test than capt ismail say congratulation to you now you are entitle as commercial pilot d................. Commercial Pilot lol............... than follow by photo taking section .

i really cant wait any second to share out the joy with my family daddy mummy brother and sister . those that i love and love me so much ................................ time really the best medicine in the world because now i think i almost fully recover already . we must willing to lossing some thing before wecan get some thing . example : loss the play time but get a better result . it apply to every 1 .

:) love you . dont really plan to post on facebook just will share this with those care and know me

weather is just like a women face !!!!!!!

you will never never predict the weather just like you will never fully undestand a women !!!!

today my flight test been cancel twice !!!!! dont ask me how i feel , because i think even a small kids can answer your question down !!!!!!!!!!!!!

what if i having 3month holidays

got money then i wish to go here and there lo.................... since that is impossible thinking to work as some post that will increase my social skill and English as well .

dont what to work as also ??? thinking thinking !!!! beside that now what i can do is prepare for my flight test . dont know why i dont feel good for the test !!! hai......

last night i cant fall sleep , i dont know why !! keeping try every i can to make my self fall sleep but it failure . i was keep thinking who is that Guy ? dont even have a photo ?? am i know him ?? what ever !!!

savanna dry

taste better even without chill , i think this drink really suitable for ladies it taste like apple because it is apple cider drink . easy drink easy drunk too..... 6%alcohol

let try it today :)

度日如年

为什么我好像很烦是的？？ 生命突然变得很孤燥乏味， 每天起床第一件是除了打开眼睛就是预备演技了。看似一切都很好 但里头的眼泪又有谁知道呢？

my school really have major problem d.................................... last time already is 10 pail but 7 cover d.................. always switching the cover to cover this cover that . hai............. starting my school got 3eagle aircraft but now stop leasting from CTRM , than is leasting aircraft from admal 2 piper and 1 twin . the most stupid move this school did is buy liberty aircraft less than 1 year 4 aircraft already lost 3 of that and kill 2 peoples . Is that time this school use the money to buy piper my school already have at least 8piper !!!! because 1 liberty cost 2-3piper !!!!!!

why they want to buy liberty is because the fuel consumption 5al per hour compare with piper 8-9gal per hour 1 gal = 3.785 liter and latest fuel price is rm6.00 mean that per hour can save 12liter and rm72 . but also because of this figure they forget bout the stuctural the aircraft is fragile really not good as a training aircraft since student are make to be make mistake but this aircraft dont know whether you got the second chance anot ??

now we only have 2 aircraft !!! and 1 twin !!! hai.................................... life really no take 2 enjoy today ::)

my 21th birthday 01/11/2010

i am fine with what even i am !!!!!!!!!!!! the darkness of my heart has gone now what i am looking forward is future :)

love you all muack........................

a message that cause me drop my phone

why !!! because of a message !!!!! this message make me drop my phone till the battery pop out of the phone !!!!! dont know wheather i should feel happy or what !!! not how power the word but who sending the message !

never mind i wil use to it 1 !!!!!!!!!! fan................... my school aircraft down again !!! crash again !!!!!!!!! T.T i really really bored !!!! and hate my school very much !!!

feel so glad that i born in NG's family

last night my daddy mother help me throw a very nice party , i cant believe that mummy cal prepare more than 10 meal hahahhhha super power !!!!! the love from parent is the price less love .



thank for brother sister present , i was keep looking for a good and comfortable laptop bag . now i got it as a birthday present !!! super comfortable and nice looking hahahhahahhahhahhha happy like crazy !!!! and another 1 is the plane model !!! than i always wanted to buy but always say next time .i also get it in this birthday d.......... hahahah



this is the second times i celebrate in single status lol............... use to it d....... without relationship a friend also not bad ma............ happy that my 21th birthday come so many people but still got allot good close friend at kl . but i think is good enough for me d

just now take dinner with mrs john

my english teacher , so nice that her student plan a birthday party for her and i just a sudden add on guess :) hahahha. in the end is uncle settle up the bill i think this meal quit costly because we drink fer bottle of wine and pizzas and lamb leg that already cost 160 wah !!!!!

i like this type of gathering , litter people so that can chat with each other very well . rather than thousand people there in the end you dont even remember who you invited d................


looking forward for my 21th birthday :) i hope every thing go smooth !

bu kai xin

fan si le , zhe she shang 什麽果都有， 就是没有如果。每天无所事事的等运到， 每次想到毕业我就烦！！！！ 人读书我读书为什麽我读得怎莫多波折？？ 我一心只想毕业然后找工作。


我那无知的笑容早离我而去了，现在天空是灰色的蓝天不再咯。 嗐开心又要过不开心又要过， 但是不开心的过容易很多。 T.T

21th bday

feel so silent and bored......................................................... dont know why??? hope that night will be fun :)

where the helllllll is every 1 ??

the name only home town at kuantan , but most of the time at kl or other place !!! hai......... want find some 1 to drink tea also hard ah.............

today i just make history

today i alone driving back from kl to kuantan !!!! super tired because yesterday exam than after exam we when out celebrate no more exam and my early birthday . like usual drink like crazy and drunk like crazy .......................... zzzzzzZzz

how amazing it is !!!!

till now i still cant belief that i get level 5 for my English test !!!!! hahahahahah full mark is level 6 . i get 5 , at first i was hoping pass the exam get level 4 only but in the end i get level 5 hahhah thank God . i am so happy because in Chinese except sie hai get 6 the rest all get 4 !!! but all of them the English also very good !!! that why i feel so worry . the cost for reseat is rm400 oh......
seriously bt the time i hear low and yu yang get level 4 i really worry because for me their English is far a head from me at least their can watch English drama series without the sub title !!!

going off soon

gonna rest up my mind d........................... good time for me to rechange my self !!



:) love you

fate>>>有缘没分

i trying so many time to meet her but not even a time a able to meet her . than today i help 1 word really touch my heart . "some time God say no is wanted to protect us " ," some time God don't let us know the answer is also for our own good " HE know the ending as well .

who are we ?? child of God you think when we feel sad he doesn't ?? actually He feel more sad than we do . after this coming birthday i will be 21th d...... legally as a adult no more a kid any more . must fully responsible for what i did d.........


is time to rest d............ after taking medicine make me mood swing the whole day @.@

i hate ppl disgrace me

i really have attitude problem !!!!!!! my mood swing graft are so unpredictable . this moment i laught may be next moment i emo or down to the max d........... feel so tired to make every happy . what i get is some disgrace word .

:) thank today is birthday partty if not ......................

EMO sorry dont read this

算了吧！！！！ this word make feel down and emoing !!!!!! till i cant even fall sleep . tonight koh girlfriend birthday sally drunk d.......... and she say some word that i dont like it . but it true i just dont like what she doing !! make me feel so .............................. she say she having quarrel with current bf but later the ex bf will sent her home but inform the bf that i sent her home .
may be she get drunk d.......
any way !!! release stress and go holiday d..................


really not good feeling when hear some thing i dont like , damn i still sick cant drink beer . fuxxx you all mothxxx pussxxx not i dont want to drink just i cant !! fuxxxxx take the medicine that i take than i drink with you la....... sucxxxxxxx in the end i pisss off than i finish a couple of cup straight ....


fuxxxxxx relationship[problem , fuxxxxxxxx exam , fuxxxxxxxxx the school

sie hai birthday , flying buddy

this pair of eyes is full of electric !!!! SHOCK !1!!!!

hahahaha write wrongly d..... 26th become 36th

iphone ~~~ even mummy using it ~.~

angry bird

stop the car d..... first thing not exist the car but play game !!

cant level up hahhaa

just finish writing the birthday

surprisingly my best crime buddy risson koh with his girl friend already more than 3yr d........ i think may be 4 year d..... any way this couple is 1 of the funny couple even !!! why i say so !!! last time risson are very slim and tough but now become fatty boy d...... and last time karren are slightly chubby but now are so slim seriously not so nice and healthy looking after losing so many weight !!!! than she always say hahahh i make risson stomach bigger and bigger just like pregnan d.... hahahah


after break up and back together so many time , now they relation base become stronger and stronger cant even say unbreakable :P . i think is time for me prepare this buddy wedding soon d......


FRIENDSHIP FOREVER :p

21th birthday

just brought some thing for risson and his girl friend !!! as 21yr birthday , just now go test some perfume dolce & gabbana D&G no 6 smell really good lo......... ok la............ is time to keep money for that d...........

thinking that why only sister will buy the piano lo............. keeping the money first lo........

sick again

hai............ my body become weak and ill after continuously lack of sleep of sleep late !!!



the worst is yesterday , i fetch mother go to kl and come back at 1230am in the end i reach home at 430am . super tired and sleep !!!



just visit the doctor and take the midicine d as well , 4 times daily . hai........ wrong time to get sick because have to take off on 18 oct .

DJ

dont know why suddenly feel like playing mixer , mix all the music just like the DJ . actually can be part time DJ is a pretty good job . can throw a party any time any where just bring a laptop with dj program and sound card and headset !!

let's party !!! last time i really hate club !! not mean now i dont hate just hate less d........ at least a place thta over some the time !!

throw out like crazy

12/10/2010 a day i will never forget !!! have a nice dinner at chili and relax moment at uncle chili . seriously the next morning i feel like dieing man!! finally finish the english test is a good relief for my self .

that day morning wake up at 630am starting feel nervous for the test d....... thank for RG prepare the breakfast for me and shafiq . than we start our journey toward UPM , reaching the place the conduct our test the more stress i feel ! but lucky we reach the early so we still our allot of time to find out the way . because the test will start at 900am but that do happen some incident due to the graduation so the uni is full of car and parent !!! allot road been change or direct to another lane !!! belief me this uni is really huge because we been cycling inside for more than half and hour still cant find where is the place . i cant belief that the first person that i communicate in the uni ask for rest room is the 1 that conduct my english test !!! pretty awesome right !! my test just end within 30 min . i dont know whether i make it a not but i feel relief after that !!


afternoon we swim at the condo and dinner later . the best suck activity after dinner is go to pub i dont really remember how many glass i take in but i do remember some name first is 2 whisky shoot than long island than jackdanier coke after that is keep on Chivas coke till we bored of paying 1 by 1 we brought a bottle of Chivas 12yr . and we do finish 3/4 of the bottle . but this time i make it stay alert and prepare all the pail beside me and my friend hahaha incase throw out time . in the middle of the night after prepare every thing like usual is my time to throw out !!! the feeling really hurt and the hang over make me stuck in the toilet for 2-3 hour but after the vomiting i take a hot bath then every thing back to normal d.........

the next morning is really suck !! because my stomach is sensitive type so after so many glass my stomach do feel up sads . but is a pretty good night with real close friend !! but the cost for that night roughty rm1000 but we just have to paid the food that we eat and the forst drink the rest all on RG hahaha .

gonna paid back this next time working

a brand new way for me to reduce stress !!!

say no to smoking and drinking !! i think !! because after smoking i feel worst feel more lonely , drinking worst still drunk and vomiting not only hurt my body but wallet too .

so i come out with this brand new idea !!! clean the whole house !!! just done with the room and toilet every thing are shinny white :0 feel better much better after sweating . i have no idea why i am so afraid for test after failure for the first flight test . may be i just slightly over react , but really dont like the feeling of failure !! i really cant be like those relax bustard fail over and over again still the same . hai..........

feel streesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss for the date of graduate !!! may be next year end onl can finish T.T i know i dont like this happen but i have to accept it as a fact ! than after graduate become jobless !!! another problem for me >>> like most of my senior are jobless or working as sale assistance or customer service !! you must be kidding with me right ? and some just relax at over sea buy a brand new car enjoy his sweet time !! damn jealous for those people stress less .


planning to do some business !! but what ?? because pilot max age can go till 55-60 that all !!
is time to dream , and working it out !! you know anot facebook founder just age 26 but already enter the top 200 richer people in the world !! woohoo!!!

every 1 since so busy

Tuesday 12 Oct i having a english test at UPM kuala lumpur !!! so that i will be at kl for about 3days , some of the friend ask me whether want go Cameron highland for 3days 2 night trips right after my English exam !!! after that drive back to kuantan !!! and going off to shanghai on 18 Oct till 25 Oct than another exam on 26 Oct !!! so damn pack !!!!

some time when you want meet some 1 so much you will never able to meet it but when the time you dont feel like seeing this people than that time you will meet up . sound silly but true !!!! hoping to solve thing faster but than is no chance for me to do it .


actually i prefer this type of time table , so pack and i can almost fully utilise my time . rather than stay at johor doing not thing just eat sleep eat sleep . having a pilot title sound challenging and amazing but when you but this in your own shoe than you know better !!! exam exam and exam !!! ZZzzzzZZZZzzzzzzzz

lookin forward for the shanghai trip

i think is a good time for me to release the stress !!!! just like i mention earlier !! my stress level mostly not thing with the body strenght . but the stress from the school really piss me of !!!



i am tired of fighting d......... what i want to do is read as much i can and prepare my self for the interview !!!! hai.......... pity me my english is really suck !!!! call me explain thing in english really kill me man/............



keep watching more english series hope it help !!!!



bored to be single d!!!!! any way i be single for a year : D , but i still survire !!

out of fuel

you must be kidding me !!!!!!! my school really worry me up !!! first is the aircraft never paid rental cause my flight test no aircraft in the end change aircraft .

now no fuel !!! what the hxxx is happening to this school man !!!!! no money for fuel ?? what all the money flown to ?? hai........ hope i can graduate asap !!


gonna pray hard man !!!!

face problem

the pimples than always on my face face make me feel sick , after this side clean the another side pops out !! hai........... thinking a solution to solve it straight into bull eye . hate taking picture during this period , how good if all this can be done ?


saving money for treatment !! i dont care anymore i want all the pimples disappear forever !! DSLR plan put on hold first , future career is more important i dont want to interview with full of pimples lo..................


at least not that much !!! keep drinking water and drinking the amino acid :( hope it help .

weather

this few day weather is just like my mood !! so grey change rapidly , my mood keep up up down down . by the time thinking after graduate jobless start feel stress d.........

12-10-2010 taking english test ! seroiusly afraid of test !! i have a bad feeling of test d...............

flight test date haven comfirm yet , but what thier told is ever ready for it !!! oh my XXX

ah........ ahg............... ah....................... really stress and bored !!! i am not getting any happiness during flying d......... sienz............

:) last time i am so confident that on my plan , graduate job married happy family . i dont think so any more !! colourless

EAT THE BOOK

light signal from control towel !!!

ON GROUND ON AIR

1. GREEN ___________________ CLEAR TAKE OFF / LAND
2. FLASHING GREEN------------------------------CLEAR TAXY / RETURN TO LAND WAIT FOR STEADY GREEN
3. RED ________________ STOP / GIVE WAY CONTINUE CIRCLING
4. FLASHING RED -----------------------CLERN OF RUWAY IN USE / DONT NO LAND
5. FLASHING WHITE_---------------------RETURN STARING POINT-------HITE
6. ALTERNATING RED AND GREEN -----------------------------------------------EXCERSICE EXTERM CAUTION

NAV

T - TURN HEADING

T - TIME CALCULATE

R -REFERENCE POINT

T -TRANSMIT R/T

T -TOWN

T-TERRAIN

R-RIVERS

R-ROAD

R-RAILROAD

so long never light a stick d..............

this few day i really really no mood and stress !! in the end i light up a stick !!


i know it does not help , but still ? no thing i can do d...... the more i study the more i know i dont know !!! hai................................ sie hai birthday as a good reason to drink d.............

now i know why those parent willing to paid more for their child school !! because what i suffer now make me feel that . Really sad and become no more mood to study in this school d........ last time i keep hoping that can graduate within 2 year than get a job than start earning d..........

flight test may be conduct next week ?? what call may be ??
and just receive a sms that say please report on monday breifing may conducted time and date will advice later !!!! alwayslike that !!

study in a no future planning school really no joke !!!
good thing not cheap , cheap thing no good !! because 70k save i waste my time and etc !!!!

study and blog together

POH = pilot operating handbook

piper pa28-161 contain 10 section

1. general


2. limitation


3. emergency procedure


4. normal procedure


5. performance


6. weight and balance


7. operation and airplane system


8. maintenance


9. supplement


10. operating tips

call me holding a book the whole day ! so bored so thinking of this read what i memorise into the blog can read it any where i like

i just let my self and my family down today

T.T today flight test i cant even go in the aircraft !!! feel super no mood and sad , first time dropping tear in font of instructor !! but am i deserve this ? dont compare to the weak student than is my fault d !!! but after compare with those that pass the test i feel more sad . people can pass by without doing flight plan , but i do the flight plan but other people fly my flight !!!

what capt say is correct we are no taxi driver other bus driver , not only the gold bar on the shoulder but people life !!!! i feel suck after feel that !! after a while of the briefing my eye just become more and more red than tear flow out during sign the fail test document !!!

i dont want to blame any body any more !!! i promise i wont let my tear flow out for this any more !!!!! thinking future to be the airline pilot also afraid d.................. in emergency pilot are the 1 safe you or destroy your life .

so many thing happen today !!! first is i suppose to fly another aircraft after finish all the paper work than last minute change to another air craft !! every thing have to re do again . the reason cant fly the aircraft is company never paid . than is weather building up boss mood also building up hai......... T.T what happen to me ?


is time to read back all the text book d...................... because there is meaning less that how good i can fly the aircraft but i cant even start the aircraft !!! ........................... currently just feel shame of my self !!

stress level almost bust out

tomorrow is my flight test , slightly changer to the original plan !!

the 1 i hate and he also hate me will sit beside me as a examiner !!!! ha............ today ground test i did't not did well !! many thing i also cant answer !! but some of the question i also dont know should laugh out or cry out !!!! how many section of the flight manual ?? what type of question ?? the 1 i study he purposelly dont want to ask keep asking those random question !!! but my theory also not that good , because most of the question i also not sure not sure even though the answer is correct !!!

tonight no plan to go out for dinner any more , no time to waste and alsono mood :(


curently feel like cry out loud T.T ...................... stress to having the title of pilot !!! all of this is just a piece of cake for future carrer . good time for me to prepare > i still want to walk out safely after every single flight.

21bd

so fast risson and i come to age 21 d........... and this week he has plan a big 21th birthday party . i was thinking if even thing was fine i will go back celebrate with this brother but so gam !! another brother birthday on 2 oct !!!!! tan sie hai birthday !!!!

hai ya.......... i hope my test smooth smooth than i still able to walk back homw celebrate both birthday !!!

in my mind suddenlly think that what if my birthday ? who will come ?? :P

back to johor

today weather was so bad , till i almost cant drive safely home . i cant imaging if today i today i ignore the weather go fly , i think i will end up is mess !!!

afte hear the whole true story of the air crash that happened last week , feel so uncomfortable because both pilot are not longer in this world d!!!! life are so short !!

keep finding some thing that can make my self happy !! HOW BOUT YOU ?? first time wake up by bad dream . is so so so scary till i almost fall down the bed , starting was sweet but the ending like shit !! so scary T.T i dream my eye "pop" out the bleed keep flowing no 1 help me . than the blood keep flown and flown than i fall down in dream but wake up in real life . first thing open my eye i check my eye still there ? luck just a dream !

tomorrow fly than do flight test again !! than can go for holiday d...... alone dont know when to go also . some time is not how beautiful and nice about the place , but who you go with ??

:) i am still who i am !!! small gas and childish !!!

current feeling suck

i know i cant fly d....... but still have to go back johor . this feeling really suck !!!! what to do ? good thing not cheap , cheap thing not good !!! cheap school cheap service . fxx klifa 1!!!!!! !@#$%^&^%$ piss to the max and sad moody to the max !!!!

back to johor no 1 there !! the feeling really suck ! the only thing that can go is visit club :( sien......

fun with beer