Sally Ah Sally

For me every girl having a same problem , in relationship when girl "fall in love " they eyemost properly blind every they see just the good side only.

But when shit happen than all the under carpet thing will be discover . For me using suicide to force some 1 is really iresponsible , hurting your self in the mean time your parent will get hurt as well so better think twice before doing some thing stupid !!!

12 hour sleep time

:) finally today i wake up at 11 plus, today i just being light and easy reading some SOP having lunch prepared by sister siew ling. I realise the longer duration I slept I feel even tired than lack of sleep, I guess every thing work the same way always maintain at the green bar not over the red zone.


This year I had gone though many new thing, first time stay at indonesia for more than a month till visa expired , first time become so hardworking study day and night , very soon will be the first time flying Simulator during Christmas and new year eve , the best part is I having skill test (simulator check) on the first day on 2012. Can any thing better than that ? :)


Time past so quickly , I am age of 22yr this year few month later I will be 23yr in the way that looking at my age and my physical body growing up I think of my parent are getting older d........ can you imaging that as well ?

I am not the type of born to fly but I willing to work it out, even the instructor say ( no worry bout the training on simulator , because I will make you all walk on the water) get that !!

never feel this good before

I am feel good now, I believe you should had should feeling before when you manage to accomplished some thing. I never feel this good before no more vomit lack of sleep and today morning sister told me that i do talking during sleeping (be specific shouting at middle of the night).


Thank God for the strength that make me move until this stage , Jeol osteen say so God will never provide you tomorrow strength not until tomorrow. That you should know there is more strength are waiting a head of you to grab. Let's everyday look for God favor the more favor you will see.

I am still fine

My stress lever and able taking  spicy food are increasing, for last time in this stress, lack of sleep and food  condition I think i already vomited continually  for now at least I am no vomiting but feel like to :( the more will come when SIMULATOR  start , vomit is definitely in my check list . 

bump out my word due to over stress, i will continue study

just come back from school, had a great shower and ready to eat some more ATR knowledge. you dont ever dare to mention that pilot having great paid good salary by using auto pilot only ma..... do not thing in the air craft !! Damn you !!!!

now i feel that flight crew are amazing even flight attendant as well, i mean it !! without they present you will be no chance to survive in the emergency situation. Ans the speed they accept the new air craft knowledge is really amazing, like my self i have to input as much as i can into my brain for the monday exam. That is my future life new aircraft new system read every thing a weeks later exam.

another amazing people in the world is the parent of the flight crew, at old age willing to spent every single cent on the children just want them have a better future. But for those rich bustard, i dont think they understand this theory. Come class watch youtube facebook doing non thing disturbing others you name it...............

when class finish driving Mercedes out for a drink , even plan for the weekend party as well !! what is in his mind man !!!


i dont care what you do but when flying as a partner that time will be a big issue 1 failure both fail

A beautiful girl nude infront of me, I think i also got no energy to fuck her!!!!!!!

First time I feel so tired and stress , normally what you will do after school . I can't imaging first thing I do when arrived home is open computer not for Facebook but really face the book!!!! 

Now everyday I have to study follow by the planning, every thing is monitor at France. After complete the CBT I feel so tired and fall sleep. 

Stress till go clean the home :) 

Back to study soon , Many thing haven cover yet. 

Dumb

I become dumb , not I feel hate Or what just feel not use to it.  Can't even look and talk to some 1 that you used to know very well. That feeling is no good. 

let it be

few more hour will be my birthday but may be i dont really on the mood to celebrate any thing at this moment. Many thing need to be done in this week, In my calculation if every month I paid back my parent 4k i need at least 10years to complete the debt.

seen like very heavy right !!!??? but in another way round how my parent provide me that amount in less than 3 years times. And all the money are all they saving for the past 40years.

How can i not stress on that?? but is true stress will not help any thing untill my captain told me to more relax during flying.

I will never forget this !!! passenger does't paid for death !!!!!! some time extra knowledge will definitely will help in emergency condition.

Keep going up and down in my life

I think I am the only 1 feel ok by staying at the hostel. 

For me that place is really good , meal prepared no need to wash cloth my own. I just feel bored staying at putra height a house that seen like no body staying. 

But what can I do in Kuantan ? Very soon I will go off to indonesia and start a new page of my life . 

I just feel my life is missing some thing ,  which is I don't what it is ? You know what from starting I refuse to work at indonesia till I hope I can work there ASAP it not about the place any more but about the paid. 

Now what in my mind is hope to earn  my first salary after 3 years suffer. I know The first year being a second officer will be very tough . 

I love my life and I appreciate every thing I had.  Miss my parent so much. T.T

What you want ?

2011-10-26
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读经: 使徒行传16章9-31节


你曾有过在机场滞留24小时的经历吗？而且是在一个离家四千英里的地方，你甚至不会说当地的语言。

最近，我的一位朋友就遇到了这种事，但我们可以从他的反应中学习。大多数人都会觉得这种麻烦事简直无法忍受，我的朋友约翰却在他的耽搁中看见了上帝的带领。在被迫滞留等待时，他寻找机会跟同样情况的旅客们接触。他「偶然」发现一些从印度来的基督徒，而且从闲聊中得知他们参与的宣教事工。事实上，因为约翰的负担和这些新朋友的事工吻合，他们邀请约翰到印度参与一个短期事工。

我们有多少次经历过被迫延迟、计划改变、更改​​方向的事？通常我们都会将之视为妨碍？事实上，这也很可能是上帝在引导我们改变途径，让我们能为祂做不一样或新的事。想想在使徒行传16章里保罗去腓立比之旅。他因为上帝的异象带领而到马其顿去（9-10节），却没想到后来竟在那里遭到监禁。但此牢狱之旅也是上帝所安排的，因为祂要使用保罗为一个狱卒和他的家人带来救恩（25-34节）。

如果我们将生活中的「麻烦事」视为上帝的安排，那么上帝可以使之成为美事。 

This is What happen to me today first my class get delay than my flight get delay now flight test get delay. Surprisingly I never panic and doing some thing stupid yet !!! What I do is hungry than go eat bored listen to music than I get online I read today daily bread I also want to tear off.  

God have his own plan and time table, that no 1 can delay or stop it. 

i cant imaging i even forget my birthday

i cant believe it next week is my birthday d!!! too many thing to handle till just now i look at the calender ops 1 nov is next week man !!


but the problem is i dont even know where am i that time ?? sound nice ?

going to have a bad dream tonight

just now during flying the Simulator sincere from my heart I have no idea what I doing ! till I feel my self are so fucking dumb than like usual I been fuck by the instructor at age 21yr and that is just the beginning of the story. The profile of the instructor he is age 21yr indonesian that study at france for 7year before and the best part of the story is his father is some body in the DGCA which mean the aviation department of indonesia. Just now all the word he using to fuck me is really beyond my limit till he say "do you know that I can easily make your aviation life suffer by just calling my dad to do so" .


What can i say is i mess with a wrong guy and My EQ is still below average.

no good feeling at all !!!!!!! and this will happen in the future again when flying with some captain that like to fuck people.


The moral value of today is
1. always control your temper
2.dont mess with wrong people
3.always prepare 200% before flight , even though human performance graft is always no stable we cant be perfect like a robots


just now my tear almost flow over eye what a bad experience, I feel angry to my self as well because I feel I let my parent down as well. I deserve a fuck but not with those F*&* word and threatening word.

今晚Rizal 和他女友好吵架，城里失火淹仅池鱼。 和事佬的功作,当一对情侣喝醉酒然后重点两个都是我的好朋友在这样的情况你叫我这么办。

看他们吵架让我想起一些回亿，过了一天他告诉我为什么要吵架他说一段长旧的感情说事实和现实的话是必要的。不可以什么都迁就对方不过当他和她吵架的时候语气真的很重到一个地步我都害怕。成熟的思想是我非常须要学习的。 man ego will always be a strong barrier to a cold war quarrel , a man will never step down but it is mean that girl must give way ??? Because from what I saw , the ego of a man can go untill the extend in between the quarrel still can warning the opponent watch your language !!! By using what you say just now ? Say it again !! Believe me at that situation you won't dare to say a word. 

Wise man can become stupid when fall in a wrong and mess relationship!!!!! 

Sin city Jakarta beer cigarette drug women are cheap also can get it any part of the city !!!!! I have no idea what is going on the future 7 year life here ?!!

Fuckme      

Just having some beer than received SMS

For you information tomorrow flying at 0600am , pick up come at 0545 . Please be prepare for the sim check the sim check will conduct my Capt sandy . Don't know what feel I should feel flying at weekend with last minute information .

But I have to use to it because this will be my future life style :) don't care la as long I get a job and paid rather than not thing jobless.

The comment given by captain to me is please be more relax during flying ??? Stresss

tomorrow sim check

A long journey to become a pilot, my friend taking air asia test all strike out from the exam.For on line as a lion air pilot, take many step step 1 flying at indonesia and do a conversion here and get a ATR type rating in 2 month times. after finish every thing still got class for company policy company safety class line training.

I think the fastest i can get on line is manch i should be flying with passenger.


ALL the best for me

So fast 2 weeks past

Very soon u will finish my training at Jakarta and continue training at kl. 6500usd just like that !! This is still a peice of cake only the bigger amount have to come out, 21k euro that 1 is really feel the price. So far I already study a cost of a semi D. Future path will be more thing will come pity for those failure the air Asia test in 300 people just 35 people pass the exam simulator and second interview will kill some more people.

Study study study money house girl will come later 20 million salary is above middle range in jakarta worker d..... Few more month than than I have to stay here for 7 year d

Having an exam tomorrow !!!!

Student pilot life is full of challenge :) I know the date of tast few day ago !! And today I just done my indonesia medical thank god I pass that, that medical check also last minute deal. We been inform yesterday and today morning 4am I a wake d because pickup come at 5am. My cough never get better but getting worst thank for the nice food :) I am loving it.

Just a week I feel bored staying here d.... Not home sick just feel tension every day new thing keep inputting my brain every day got new surprise. Those that have another a Malaysia are planning a visitation trip to they lover :) good la have some 1 they miss come over :)

Sick not now please

Every time when I am stress I will feel vomiting headache all will come , normally I just ignore those sickness but not today :( the feeling make me no choice to take medicine. What I hoping now is the headache and fever please leave me alone. I dint want to sick here , feel jealous for those out going club later but I just feel bad if I go !!! I am using my parent hard earn money to study and more is going to spent.


Those rich kids will never understand what I feel , not I don't want to join them clubbing but I just feel bad so better stay in room have a good rest and be fresh for tomorrow class.

Jazz I know you can do it better that this ;) I have to use this situation because my future more or less will be same.

what /???

I hear this from classmate and it true, a batch mate at today afternoon go for friday prayer and when the prayer finish he notice he lost his shoe he realise that he shoe is been stolen. At that moment he get mad and out of control he kick the dustbin that put inside the mosque. Can you imaging you as a foreigner at other people country, you trying to show you are the boss ?? I think this is a bad idea :)

Because what he did he almost get kill, a mosque that easily fill will hundred of people just a each punch from each man it manage to bring him down to the ground. And also because of him we malaysia name are polluted because every 1 was talking about which malaysia that kick the dustbin.

I like the way capt gerry say if you lost some thing just forget about it ad buy a new 1 because you can always buy another shoe but NOT another LIFE. A man that lost his life to protect his family or country that is brave but for a shoe that lossing a life i call it STUPID.

Rich kids is what surround me in this 3 year study, but this is the worst case i even heard. So talking dosa dosa dosa infront of me when you trying to knock down people in the mosque.

Thank God i still able to get online :)

no so bad if i still able to contact my family and friend in malaysia, At least they know i am fine. Seriously i dont know how to mess with those people :) tired to study with them enjoying life here and there.

Base on my calculation at least 4-5 year i will be in indonesia because beside that i cant clear my debt. So time i am thinking 1 day my own children thought me that day i wont like to become a pilot. I have no idea what i will feel :) !!!!!

Every Capt here are smoking, a cockpit is just as big as a car size can you imagging your capt smoking the whole journey beside you and the best time is you cant refuse it and say no :) can you believe it ?

Girls is the hottest conversation between the pilot, all the capt keep giving warning that please becareful when mess with girl because he say definitely you all can get girls here. So please beware :) some time no you go into the girl room but vice versa so always be ware and remember the career.

I dont understand

My batch mate they can pray 5times per day but talking sex story in class planing setting this girl that girl. Non stop smoking ?? But 1 thing is good they do pray a lot !! I think if I talk to my father 5 times a day the relationship with father sure will very good

Day 2 in indonesia

Thank God I am staying a comfortable hostel, it better that what I expect At least not ceiling fan but air cord even though the mosquito here can easily more that 20 in your room. And that's normal for staying low area so far the people are nice and friendly to me except my own Malaysia batch all rich mother boy :) bring pocket money for this month already more than 4k Malaysia money .

Beside money what I have is good friend, that take care me well here thank God prepare some 1 Here before I come. I am no more a mummy boy but an adult is time to handle thing nicely and planning as well. For me I am fine to work here of course I will miss Malaysia and my parent and friend. Hope every thing go on plan not human plan buy God plan.

Wedding dinner

The live band is really nice , have wedding dinner at genting is simply awesome :)
I love the song they play remind alot of memory. I forget the song title d " because I love " this song I really really love it since secondary school I like this song.

Suddenly become moody fan for money fan for that :(

Leaving in 2 day

I still can't believe it I am leaving Malaysia this Sunday. Can you believe it ?? My Indonesia life going to start ASAP :) 

A place that full of sweet memories, I just want to say I goana miss my life very soon :) 

No idea only he and God know

Now I know why mother always so piss off with my brother :) because tonight mummy is joining us at the house church she see brother make a good presentation in the public. At that moment she say I don't want to hear any more, because why he can't do this in the job ??? Sakit hati    Speechless 

going to Jakarta

I start miss malaysia or can say i dont use to it every body keep asking when i am leaving. What wrong with them ? am i border they life ?? no right ?? i going to leave malaysia to indonesia is God choice.

every time is like that, during free time i can be really free and most the time really effective. But when thing all come together I will really feel stress up. no idea what can i do now beside reading back some aviation document and helping dad or mum.

I hope every thing go with meaningful way, and be a blessed journey.

brother going to quit the job

i also dont know who to listen, mum say uncle cant stand the way brother working any more. But what i see from my eye is true as well, i think the working time is less 6hour per day. I got no idea why he like to reading those comic so much for me a responsible working wont not use the working time to do those thing.

actually i also dont understand what is he job description, but I think come back home for a nap every day for few hour dont really make sense.

any way i hope that the new job will let him learn so new thing, no more protection is better for him i think.

should i call a police

today morning during breakfast with my brother andrew, opposite shop got a man that force and pull a women that holding a baby into the new empty shop. Starting with a pulling action than pushing, i have no idea what i going ? but if this type of this happen again i think i will go there and ask it is need help ???

because i have no idea how can a man that punch a women ? end up the man knee down and look like begging the women. What he want man >?? confusing @.@

so what if this happen to you ??

Well done my boy

Just now after finish the meeting family journey, before I leave the place I go say good bye to "spiritual grandfather" and he hug me and say well done my boy and kiss on My cheek that moment I feel that how great that if I hear God say that to me too :) I can't imaging.

The is no more mercy this is the time, this is the time !!!!! Bridegroom is marching on it come to the end time The earth are suffering the people are suffering as well. No 1 know when is the end time but we know that base on bible the time is near urgent or not is no more an option !!!!

Couple car

Sweet sweet but not me :)

Lie

Nomally parent will tell kid no to lie but, my parent are different especially my mother always call me hide this hide that !!!! Not to tell this not to tell that. If say truly from my heart am I regret coming home the answer is yes I am fucking regret at this time not a single rice go into my stomach yet. End up you guess who having dinner with me ???? A bunch of china worker !!! That is simply awesome !!! Fuck this tired moon cake festival trip.

S.H.E on 703 AFC Glamour Lucious

Such a long time never see them on tv especially Selina :(

I have no idea why I do that

Today from Kent damasara house refilling and so on to Kuantan I take only 2hours. Sound crazy and dangerous but there is so many thing in my mind till I drive at the maximum speed of the car I also feel not thing !!! Sorry for doing this T.T 185km/hr and raining I think this is a good experience for me another milestone cover.

I am glad I still breathing the fresh air dinner with family.

what I want ?????? complicated feeling depression period undergoing.

never think about this

Till now i still cant really believe that risson koh is getting married !!!! can you imaging your best friend getting married. that is no kidding koh is getting married i never think he will be the first to getting married among our gang. At first i told i will be the fastest so how plan when out of control :)

All the best for his tomorrow propose

money is really hard to earn

there will be no fair in this real world, not how hard working you are to earn big money but how smart you are to earn. If I really get a loan from a bank and the pay back time is 5 yr than my interest will be 27k plus plus :). with condition i pay monthly instalment for rm2142.

now i know why bank can be so rich, bank provide us 3-4 % per year and we borrow monwy from bank than we pay 9-10% of interest. That is the way bank make money.

That day I go ikea alone eat alone shop alone that moment i thinking of my sister, because most of the time if you travel out station we will definitely be alone. Oh no that will be my future life !!!! really "EAT ALONE" (read in chinese) lo...... hahahah can not can not must add some new friend to prevent thing liek this happen in future. But the thing is who is be at indonesia ??? my maid ? haiz.......................................................

i just love the way I am :P

really have to go Jakarta?

I the answer will be yes, at least i get a job that is what i will get after spenting another 100k. thinking the debt cause me also cant breath, serious no joke you think finish up your parent money in 3 year is a good feeling ?? for other may be but i am not happy bout that and i wish to earn back my investment asap.

Become a blue chip for the parent :) contain all the hope all the money that is me. hai...............

can you tell me what to do ?? I am glad that i have a job I have a wonderful parent that will do almost every thing to help me achieve my dream. A journey that full of tear and smile.

Dinning alone at ikea

I just feel that is such a long time I never eat ikea meat ball so that I decide to have 5 meat ball and pasta :). Eventually I plan to have 10 meat ball With pasta because I miss my lunch today. After stuck the last meat ball into my mouth I feel my stomach is going to blow up.

During the meal I got free show the title of the show is "brutal Malaysia police"

every home got it own problem

I know what she feel, i really in her shoe i know what happen. At that age have to face so many thing all come together. I feel sad for them, thinking back last time my family also have such similar problem but thank God my family season been change. I pray that God will change they family too, of course I wish they can know a God love them so much.

what I can do is when i around i spent out some time on them, at least to build up a relationship that is money cant value it. I just wish them happy always and dont be 叛逆 i feel happy d.

May God bless them and the family

kenal fuck

the feeling of kenal fuck is really uncomfortable, during finding the way almost bang by a car.That moment my brain is blank ! i neverfuck back the driver because i no time to react too. !@#$%#@ busted drive so fast in the resident area no brain !!!

people come and leave daily

i just receive a message that mother of my aunty just pass away at the hospital. I hope that she will be in the heaven too. Going to visit aunty tomorrow, paid tribute.

happy birthday to mei san

though she will present in the end no, i think is good too because i also dont know what will happen if really meet up ? but thank you jo for a company me or we company each other :) all the relative and friend we have no idea especially me I feel that i come from a totally different world.

I confirm take the offer from wing air, working at jarkarta for 7 yr. I think there will no meet up in this period of time. Working working looking forward the brighter future will make me feel much more better.

thinking that we would like to try every new thing by our own, but it is must try every thing ???? It is really a freedom to do so ??? for example having sex here and there is bad but people may say no i would like to try it see whether is really bad ?? another way round i will think people say if you jump off from 50th floor will dead will you say i want to try it also because i dont believe ???

left or right stay or leave

dear lord i pray that i will live by faith, and my faith will increase daily no matter how hard i will choice to believe. I want my faith will never go down again, starting from today keep counting how blessing I am.

so when i feel down at least i know lord does help me last time, with His amazing way.

is time to move on

if every thing go smooth, i will definitely work at Jakarta. I feel bless too at least i am just job less for few month, but the current issue is where can i find such big amount of money.

now is not taking about 10k but is 100k, the journey to a commercial pilot is really tough than i though. It depend how much stress can you take it, if you like is a wealth family than every thing should be fine. Most of the thing can be done by money is no more a problem any more.

Do i look like a big brother ?

this day many little sister or brother will come to me and share they problem. I am the younger in the family, so I dont really know how to take care others. What I can say is always pray and request wisdom from my mighty Father in the heaven.

What is the destiny of my life ? even though i cant view the whole great picture, but i pray that i can view it bit by bit just like a puzzle. The time is running out, I try to act fast before is too late.

Durian ss2

seriously no joke i just ate more that 7 durians. Feel like vomiting, meet some new friend at kl church. Time travel really rapidly few more month i may start training at indonesia if every thing go smooth.

For me not thing much i miss in KL beside memories, because memories is the only thing that no 1 can take it away from me.

:P

安全感

we always look for secure feeling, when you invest on some thing most of your energy on spent on that investment. For an example relationship is 1 on the investment but it will be a high risk investment if you do it a wrong way Human way and not God principle.

some people may found they secure in term of money or wealth, and for those people will the sadness because beside money they have no thing 穷得只剩钱.

A bad investment no only bring bad return to yourself but your next generation. Do you believe your parent will provide you every best thing they could provide to you. If you believe it mean that you also will agree with the another statement God will provide every best thing to us because we are God precious child.

where is belong to me ?

will indonesia be the place that accepting me ? really no other ? actually i dont mind to work at any way any more since i am a free man now why not ? 7 year make no different

who care where you work as long at the end of the day your career is successful than no body care where you working at.

1 step forward

Greetings from Asia Pacific Flight Training

Dear Mr. Ng Kuang Yau,

This is to inform that you have been SUCCESSFUL in your interview with Wings Air held at MayTower Hotel, KL in July 2011. We will release to you theLetter of Confirmation of Employment after you have made payment as per invoice attached.

You are required to do the Psychomotor/Psychometric Test as soon as possible at APFT, KL if you have not sit for the test.

at least 1 step forward to my dream , just like how you eat an elephant 1 bite at a time. First interview pass than psychomotor test and flight test. Ground school test indonesia flight test covert license test. TEST TEST TEST EXAM EXAM EXAM is a part of my life :) i have to love it no matter how.

work

i willing to paid for a job and earn only 2k per or less i also dont mind , as long i get a pilot job flying high again . that time only i will call my self a pilot, so if you ask me what i am doing i will only answer still applying for a job that all.

no time to tell any body i am pilot , because no 1 will believe it any way and yes pilot can wear spectacle below 500 degree if more than t&c apply.

salt and wound

我不知道这样的决定使否正确？ 不管那么多了，朋友不用像天上的星星一样多真心的一个就够了。

我想我的确定应该可以减少摩擦和尴尬的事件发生， 印尼到底会是什么样的生活我自己也不晓得满脑子想的就是债务，金钱，工作，虽然爸妈口里说没事但我的心一点都不放心。 彼经爸妈都老了该是时候到我们孩子报答。

找一份工真的这么难吗？ 眼看我 在家好想没有用式的！！ 真的吗？才不事呢 :P 有的我感恩没的我也感恩尽可能每天都说正面的话， 人身短短几十年真的有必要浪费时光在不开心的事吗？

我的缺点伤害了很多人，决定一一把它给删掉。

is salt or sugar it is depend on your decision i hope this time is sugar.

cooking is the best stress medicine

every time i feel stress or got thing to think that i will start cooking but i cooking does't mean that i am hungry i just want to cook and over come the time. When see people enjoy your food you will also enjoy it.

after so many year i do grow up in physical and my mind set. I am who i am :)

future working time

i afraid i will be a womanise in the future career :( , i am just a normal guy i do feel desperate for sex and this will really danger for my future. I dont want to be a play boy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want a blessing weeding and not trying this girl or that girl , is up to you to believe or not 2 year in johor i never visit a single club. Because i know my self very well i will easily want to have sex with those willing so i choose to ran away from that . Thank God i safe for this 3 flying year at least i not fucking any other outsider.

what if i really working at indonesia ? i want to earn my money asap i want to be a man and not a boy any more. T.T taking pocket money time is enough for me i want to earn my cash and pay the debt asap.

a good gartering with " brother and sister "

is not easy to have to some 1 that can share out what inside your heart so much , looking forward or can say force my self to do so. So time i do feel my self are fuck-up , last time how can i do thing that is so ridiculous ????

but i know is a part of my journey, that way i dont want to start a new relationship any more. I know i am suck and i dont want the thing happen again in my future relationship again, Ego really kill me T.T learning to be humble down my self because this is mine the biggest problem. 自卑and 自大 is just a word different last time i because i am 自卑so i become more 自大 but now i know is not working when 自大 so better just be who you are.

我不想再伤害她了. i am really suck to be a boyfriend even 2 hand cant count my mistake but i choose to let go. Let every thing go naturally i dont think i will get some 1 soon since i already single for 2 years.

many7 friend call me to start a new relationship but i dont want to start a new relationship is because i feel i screw up the last relationship so much and i dont wan to screw the next any more.

after so many year only i know what is my problem

(大男人主意 and lack of 安全感)。Of course i know is never too late. human always learn from they mistake. I hope i wont do the mistake at another relationship.

love you :)

are you believe time are the best medicine ?

here i am to prove this fact is wrong , it is meaningless to have plenty of time without a sincere forgiveness. That is what i really learn from mistake, not forgive a people another round is not forgive your self.

obey and forgiveness is my what i have to over come it , how long more for me to learn this lesson ??? 3 years enough is enough !!!! pray that i will over come this asap there is no time to loss. I want to be a blessing to others before i can do that i must make sure my self are clean as spring water.

i really hope to bring the 3 kids to go church before i leaving malaysia for 7 years , i know by the time when i start working there will be a very very limited time for me. Now day i still have chance hang out with them and they mother :) many people may accuse why i am drinking with those elders for me i dont mind to drink or even drunk but i do need some extra non ordinary strength from God. Thank God and ask forgiveness from Him too few time i do drunk and 1 time i even sleep inside the car with key and door open.

The relationship between me and the children are special , since i am the younger i never have a younger brother or sister before. So i do treat them as my little brother and sister even though we are not bonded in blood.

i want a change in my life enjoy the single life time , enjoy the free time , enjoy what i have , i know many people love and care about me that why i still alive with smile :)

cant wait to work

am i really desperately need a job ? even i not sure bout that, i am confuse but another way of thinking i am bored of taking pocket money any money. Even though my pocket money is enough for what i need.

Every time thinking of pay back the debt to parent and by calculation there is a never end paying :) not only money to paid back but the love and care from them. even my self forget when i become so desperate for money ? But now day teenager is worst than my time , they can sold off the kidney for ipad 2 ? or provide the virginity just for iphone4 ??

i am sick of this, in the model world every thing become easy and there is no more moral value to speak off.

haiz................... sienz.......................................... thinking silly thing again !!

time management from Dr wong

lack of time or lack of money ? i think every body should familiar with both of the word.

The truth is are we really lack of time or money ? it really depend on how you mange your time !!

for an example :

-\------------------------- important .......................... Unimportant

Urgent ---------------rush for assignment etc ---------- reply sms,email etc

Not Urgent ---------------reading book etc ---------------- watching tv, playing etc

in a daily life how many tasks is be at the right side corner, than you should know actually you got pretty of time :) so stop saying i got no time.

after wing air interview feel

i feel confident with my performance just feel hard to accept the term and condition !!
can you imaging i have to stay at jakarta for 7 years. Not that long but that time i will reach age of 29year old.

it is bout the paid ? basic salary 950usd and 10 usd per hour is low in the aviation industry for pilot that have to work at out port.

i want to finish every thing and settle down as soon as possible :)

Do I have a choice ?

Money money money I want Money ! ! ! There is never end problem a stupid cycle that most of the people undergoing .
My pilot journey is really tough and challenging before graduate I force to change to obtaining my full pilot license and what now need another 100k to get a job !

There is always a price to pay

The more hurt , the more should forget

Most of the time we like to hold the thing we want always hope that it will be on track but did we even think about our future plan in God hand ?
What Is the purpose of living ? For me i feel bored doing thing over and over again . The leson of life will never end we have to keep learning and updating. If you ask me what is my purpose of life I think I can't answer you too ! Many thing to handle and it since never end for me !

Am I being too rational ? or just too naive ? You name it ;(

My biggest problem of my life is what ? Normally people will no tell the true , because we don't really like to hear it too ! Just like me if you are good I may listen but if in my mindset you are suck sorry not a single will build in my mind. That's me no mater you like it of not :p

bersih in malaysia !!!!!!!

is time to show the government who is the boss ? who paid they salary ? is the tax payer . So we want to claim back all the losses and the freedom of speech .

do pray hard for malaysia you know what ! by end of this year all the nation will at least hear christ once , where will be the doom day no 1 cal really tell but be ready for thing changing rapidly.

this year is a special year , and we can is the year of alignment dont believe let try it together

(you age in 2011) + ( the date you birth) = what ??? i can tell you here the answer will be 111

example : my age 22 + 89*(the 89 is fine forget bout the 19 in front ) = 111 let it :)

now i know what fan jie feel

been corrected from a guy than it no perfect make me feel really uncomfortable !!!!!! what the hell i am not 3 year old kids i know what i doing ok !!!!!!!!! hello every thing is under control . i will be just fine without your rude advise ! may be for you fell ok but for me is rude :(

you cant even be a good role model than you come and advise me ! in my heart i will feel =.= wth ?? for me i just dont like get fuck from some 1 than is suck too make me feel i am ever suck .

what i learn is have to really fucking humble down myself , for me i almost like water can suit to any condition just a bling of eye .Till some time i also lost who am I ??

and a word that is rarely out from my month SORRY !!!! except is really needed .

they say why i so desperate for a girlfriend

seriously i have no idea why i do !! may be feel bored lonely ?? who know ?

my plan really screw up the max , it mean that i just a normal human i cant really workout every single plan .

can you believe i use to plan married at age of 25yr !! you think i must be kidding right ? young pilot always want single life right !! believe it or not last time i do think that when i finish my course 3year for me to earn and buy own house . But i think now can really forget bout this plan any more :P

job also dont have can really forget about girl d...........................

priority game no C no girl is cruel but i love it :)

Cash

Car

Condominium

Card

Country club membership

time is really travel so fast

so fast i been graduate for a month mean that i been jobless for a month how long i will be jobless , seriously even my self have no idea bout that. But thank you daddy mummy support no body giving me any pressure beside my self.

you know what the longer you never fly the more you will forget, and the most scar part is i dont know how much memory i lost . Yesterday is the first time i do such thing go back kuantan and k.l within 8 hour in the mid time still got meet up with family and supper with brother . From gambang toll to karak toll i use only 56minute maintaining floor throttle .

we start our journey at 7pm reach kuantan at 930 and make another move back to kl at 12am reach kl at 230, the car we using is myvi can you imaging is i driving a BMW or other high performance car the result will be much more greater :) . drinking livita , chicken essence , herb tea just to make my self a wake thank God we reach safely.

am i a happy person to you

i always hear this !! a place that having you will be more joy and laugh :)

thank God giving me this talent :) , but i do long time did really smile though the heart any more .

till last night i have a wonderful gartering for me i know every thing God is under control.

let's once again invite God into our plans

what job i should go for in this particular time

my future life is just cover with a thick fog, so that i cant really see what is in front of the me. Life is full of challenging you will never know what will happen next and thing will happen when it have to happen there is no chance for you to say no i dont want this thing happen to me !!

sorry you got no right on this !!! but of course you do have a choose to make some of the decision due to different decision you make so is will come out with different out come too.

my hand is just full of desire that i holding is so hard and afraid will losing it most of the time we never realise that if we keep holding the same thing in hand how we gonna to get some new thing right ?

release is a tough lesson for me i learn is for more that 3 years but still learning , many thing that cant really discover from my out looking although i look ok but inner side of my heart it is the same ! no not all the time is same !!

when you feel not thing

not thing mean that you wont feel sad or happy bout that any more . that only can say as no feel !!

interview Assistant Flying Instructor

just because i am no body son and been study a poor school than i deserve this ?

let's me be honest with you my school also got alot jobless cadet how bout you keep trying airline first if few month later you still jobless than you can come to interview again.

hai.......... now day every school keep protecting their own child but who care people like use step child !! feeling stress is normal , but so far it is no other thing that i can do ? want to find a job desperately now.

drink but not drunk

awkward feeling and some feeling that word cant describe it .......................................... the 1 that so close to you before but no contact any more not even a word.

feel weird complicated feeling !!!!!!!!!!!!! stress with my future job first !!!!!!!!

after 3year study so now what ??

a mountain follow by another mountain is waiting for me !!! first is study in a suck school that delay my plan than after change school and graduate the whole aviation world had change. airline company will not longer paid for aircraft type rating ?

what is this ? every thing is money and money !! my stress graft always slightly below the maximum. breathing also feel stress than you should know how stress am i ? been entitle with the pilot title but cant earn a single dollar is really hurting me. keep spending parent money i really dont what can i do now !!!

but no worry dead will never appear in my wonderful mind :P

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no money no job

that is what happen now !!! now day company already become mint since got so many jobless pilot out there i will only offer job for those that have rating or willing to paid the rating . the problem is the cost for a aircraft rating is not like having a car rating few hundred to thousand business. Aircraft rating is away beyond that amount it all count from USD 20,000 above !!!! sad to hear that right !!!

that moment only i feel that how good if i havemoney ??

a door just close

no more air asia so what now ?

what now ? stress again i hate this type of feeling

bye bye air asia

just like what i predict i failure my test :( is sad during reading the email but life is have to go on . many people keep telling me take it easy no worry sure will get job very soon , but outside still have 1000 jobless pilot waiting for a job.

keep praying that i will get a job that suit me the most .

back from hong kong

i feel that is hard living in hong kong the tension and the stress is beyond what you can imaging . Every 1 are walking so fast eating so fast rush here at there , no idea how hk people survive at that environment.

hope that i can be 1 of the star that shine there

sad place.........................

finish the DEFO test feel that what wrong with them, but i can understand the situation as well outside there have 1000 jobless pilot waiting for a job. That the reason they can set those tough question or can say is just general knowledge !!!!

hope the best for me, alternate way is desperately needed

Thank God i live in malaysia

if you dont know what i talking about , mean you never look at the news .

suddenly i got so many idea pop in my brain i think tonight i will sleep slightly late again :P

can you believe it ??

i can drink 1 box of beer without a puke but i just puke because of a cup of neslo !!!!

some thing wrong with my body !!! how good if got any instrument can test how stress i am ?

keep feel like vomitting , please not now !!! sick on this time is really a bad idea for me.....

fast meat

human always like that by the time you have it you wont appreciate it... but when it gone only start looking and searching. Normal day i can eat meat but i does not feel any thing for that also but by the time you cant take it you will feel like eat it so much.

first time study till feel like vomiting not mentally but physically too. Hope every thing normal

eye getting smaller

i think is time for me to use bed, if i tell you i am not stress mean i am lying to you so stop asking me how !!!!!

stress mean stress !!!! i want this thing finish it asap ........................................ but my future life will be the same :) stressful career

4dy only

i dont think any 1 know what i feel now !!! scare stress .............. i stress till bite my self because i feel tired and fall s asleep !

my future will become how ? no 1 will know but i got no way turn , not time mean next time i have to work harder and harder d....................

kuantan home still the best

no matter how tired am i after reaching home, feel so happy and nice d................

no more stress up that the reason why i dont want to come back last week, i know if at here sure i cant focus on study 1............. better i do some thing that crying.

monday will go back kl d..................... that time is a time that really have to compress every thing inside the brain d................... good luck for me :)

love you

tired but dont dare to sleep

many thing that i still dont know !!! why i feel so stress out ? any body there ??

focus focus !!!

human always like to see thing that lost but not the thing having .

i have make my choice :) to see what i having in my life and not the thing that i lost in my life. my life is still beautiful. Hate some 1 end up what i will get is hurting my self or other, why no see the thing from another point of view.

so many people still so care and support me , how could i disappointed them ! this whole week my life is really hard no on physical but mentality. keep inputing the infomation for the pilot test really stress me up.

now the only thing that i can do is study every thing for the test at least i do what i have to do without regret. But every times hear the number of pilot that only that is really make me feel down 200 take only 20 :). you think i can be the in the 20 too ??

sorry ,please forgive me ,thank you, i love you .

i am who i am

like usual no 1 will know my inside voice , and i also not plan to share so dont ask me why or how !!!

finally i know what the hell is happening

crying is a part of the trick to overcome the guilty, thank God i have a wonderful life lesson. now i can proudly tell my mother is not 100% my fault.

but is good to know the truth, before i try to repair . lucky i am not ! naive idiot i am !! i sweat i hate people cheap. nia sing ah......... say put relationship status will kenal tiu from parent la.... this la that la.... all the grandmother story bullshit.

but how come i belief all without thinking ! think back also feel how can i be such stupid !!! lazy ah revenge revenge is out of my business. Now what i need a job ...

thing continue i think i will lost lot of weight

till now i just drink a cup of hot chocolate, i really no appetite.

stress till want to cry out d

just recieve a call from capt say that my air asia test is base on a 300pages book and i left 13 days and i already brought the ticket to hong kong on the 07/06/2011 i dont what to do now ...............

because he say maybe the test will be 3 days 1st days test 2th days interview 3rd day sim check

i really feel like shouting out loud right now !!!!!! T.T GBM

big day

05/06/2011 air asia test

07/05/2011 flight to HK

left 13days to go but my fxxxxxxx mind is stuck again .......................................................................

stresssssssssssss thinking out for a drink but when think of so many thing not yet cover no mood d............................

really 寂寞寂寞就好 ?

of course not , this is the answer normally people provide those day but not now !!! now day some people do think lonely is fine :) it is true ?. my relationship really went to a big snow ball mess not the only boy girl relationship but friendship too.

since every thing mess together like italy spaghetti, but my mind still stuck in GUY standard operating procedure. believe me most of the guy will do the same, fix thing one at a time due to the mindset is base on boxes concept. we like to read the manual than start solving problem, how good is that having a manual for solving girl problem to guy.

got time have a look on this book "man from mars women from venus"

end up i know not thing

secret that will keep till the grave ........................................................................................................

如果真的有一天。某个回不来的人消失了。某个离不开的人离开了。也没关系。时间会带你去最正确的人身边。请你先好好爱着自己。然后那个还不知道在哪里的人。会来接你。

after almost 2yr

i wish to know ? to carry on .................................

final tear drop for the yr

the power of love

today julia still plan the birthday party for her boy friend that break up , for me i think she is really in love with this guy. Till the extend that what ever the guy do also can make her feel happy, because of the birthday party yesterday purposely go sunway find a nice dress.

I really dont know what she thinking ?? that why people always say love is blind , hope to find some one that love me so much and willing walk through every happy and sadness .

without a partner got problem , after get a partner another problem !!!!! that is life :)

i am sorry , please forgive me , thank you , i love you

just like that ?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TvVXCaD0Lfs&feature=player_embedded#at=47

indonesia it is the place that i have to go !!!

i have no idea !!! indonesia got more job opportunity but all also have to pay for own rating and the cost is really cost a bomb. I roughly 100k , 100k wei............... not a small amount any more :(

i do think to leave malaysia but .....................................

cadet life :)

flight plan , keep planning where to fly plan A but always must got with plan B

fast but taste like shit !!!!

i think this girl is perfect for all guy

http://love-elisa.blogspot.com/search?updated-min=2010-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-08%3A00&updated-max=2011-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-08%3A00&max-results=5

because she really having problem with her brain :) but mostly is write by guy or a fake account i think . But so time the result may surprise you :)

hope she will be alright soon

the whole afternoon i accompany my house mate. out for lunch company her shopping at sunway, because she just break up with her boy friend. For my point of view i think the guy really suck and she do deserve better to walk into her life.

no 1 can stand a party animal like her do........... she can rush after working go to her boyfriend house just to see him but the guy can reach house car park than sit other friend car go to party till midnight and left her alone at house ??? till he get into the accident than he will remind that he got a girl friend can call for help. What he thinking ?? she is a Hotline ? crazy guy...............

hope a smile on her face soon :)

good to hear during sad ??

good to hear during sad, it doest cheer but bring more emotion.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ol69eEb8qDI&feature=related

putra height again

21 days is what i left for the air asia test . . . . . . . . . . . . :) hope that i can face the book every day here, because i know is hard to do this at my super comfortable sweet home.

jia yu for my self !!

happy family dinner !! (finally )

if you ever come to my house kitchen i think you will get shock because this

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tonight my family member dinner only :) celebrating mummy birthday.

daddy are so sweet brought mummy flower and dinner :) . All this i know is from God , and he will always hear our prayer and provide the best i repeat is the best for us. Dont lost faith is what i have to learn .................................................................................... because no 1 dare to think this before i mean my parent can be that close again after so many conflict.

I LOVE WHO I AM

Shit i getting lost again

is time to clear my emotion before any new thing from God to remind me. It too pain to receive the fact that you doest like.

my bio compass swing again .........................................................

why my faith keep up up down down like roller coaster, i feel stress bout this tear droping >.........................

night

i know what he feel (no comment on this please)

just now my brother girlfriend came to my house,since my sister will back to hong kong this sunday.for me normal day when 2 girl meet together there will hardly find a conversation full stop between two girl.

i guess what my brother feel after he show mood down at me, he say :"regret to call her along, i also dont know what for she drop by". that moment i also cry out because. For My self understanding is he wish to have some conversation or just some interaction between his girlfriend but come out with a result that sister they all chat till 130 but he cant even get into the conversation but fall sleep.

from my point of view, i see who i am last time (T.T) after so long never meet up so every time meet up i will hope to spent every single second worth just because of the expectation is there so most of the time if the thing out of my expectation i will feel down and my mood down is really fuck face.

Is never too late for me to see and think back who i am before, i wish that will never happen again. Easily mood swing is my biggest weakness.


human will always have a same mistake, take every thing for granted and regret after losing it. I really dont how to advise him since my self facing the same mistake :(

sunday have to o back lo............

before finish study i keep hoping is to finish faster than now finally i finish study than another thing i hope :) i want to a job desperately . i need income extra money at least can use own money to spent on friend and not parent money.

want to buy any thing also must ask and get permission, i know how stress my future life will be and i dont think become pilot sure will become play boy. i think any 1 can be play and not because of the job.


now only i known that doctor is worst, mix around with nurse can even play gang sex party. want to settle down every thing as soon as posibble

Some thing just happen

I just back from RB i can really feel rizal stress and unhappy , after get the interview but no news for a week more d........ Rizal vomit like hell and i drive back his car and settle down every thing . Rizal vomit on the car park it self and fall down hurt his face bleeding all over the face . I am scare and worry bout him , even just now i almost get high but i am sure that now i am totally a wake.

I message her every time when i am drinking have enought guts to do so....... But i still dont what actually happen thwt time ? SAd for me to keep lookinh for the truth , i am also human that feel and hurt. ???? Feel sad that been playing around or cheated . Fxxx if i will have a better life soon. Stress to get a job, the stress is not from my self but others if i doest make it i failure me parent and those that help me in. Now the path is right in frint of me nicely done just need my self to walk it though.

Down for no reason, non worry i will be fine later when i reach kuantan home with my parent. Comercial pilot life is reallh beyond my expectation.

Love you r

finally i finish my flying

today it self i go endorse my CPL/IR after 3 years. than this coming june i will have chance go for air asia test by amazing help from 2 captain and God. Stress is a part of the journey , it will make me stronger and away from my comfort zone.

after this few day my time table will be study study and study !!!!!!

stress journey

pilot life is really beyond what i am thinking !!!!! non thing is easy study study and study this is what captain say.

Tonight finally i get my CPL/IR rating but i does't really feel excited after think bout the job vacancy but i have to increasing my confident on my self and also God too.

study even though is stress so why not treat is as a energy to improve my self :)

after watching this except sad not thing i fee T.T

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=143838322354031&oid=121766611168619&comments

i have no idea what happen to now day 90++ kids !!!! really not thing to play till bully other people as a happiness ????

i cant imaging if the video girl is some 1 i know !!! heart is really pain and scare after watching this !!

monday will be my final test

i want to go back putra height for flight test already, flight test to ipog than is time for me to stress out again because have to go for interview at air asia :( .............

pilot every where jobless jobless jobless........................

i need a job desperately .......................... finding my ms right2 :)

sweet dream no so sweet any more

wrong time wrong place this dream happen , too late d

continuously fly for 3 day

i just woke up from a nap , and i think i will just skip my meal and continue sleeping la............. after fly to alor setar today.

i am getting older and weaker

just 2 day lack of sleep make me tired for few day, no matter how much i sleep i still feel tired.

just now fly to penang and ipoh is so tired almost fall to sleep but is good that i able to finish the nav . left 6:30 to clock to obtaining my CPL/IR . happy but not excited as last time after so many year dragging and so many jobless pilot.

But i believe i will get the best :) what i have to do is do my best and daddy will do the rest for me.

aviation is really tough

now i know why the pilot paid are high !! their really deserve every single dollar they earn.

study aviation in malaysia is really a wrong move, but since i at the final stage so is no way for me to make a alternate. Malaysia airline are limited due to political issue mean that the job opportunity is low can you imagging my air asia june test up to today 187pilots are confirm the seat but they only take 7 pilot amount 187 pilots.

mean the best of the best only will be selected. After hearing this news sincerely i feel down and up set. I am just no confident with my self T.T keep inputing knowledge for the test stressssssssss

that never ever had before is flow in my body.

i am so "happy "

you what make me feel so happy !!!! today my flight been cancel :) ops.............. not today only is the whole week plan flying been cancel. since i cant make any more changer about that why not i focus on other thing. But just now after i report at 11:00am and waited till 3some thing pm and received such good new that moment i can read my face without looking at the mirror. A smilling face of course not !!! my eye just full of fire and anger but after a while i think back no matter how angry i am is meaning less.

29/04/2011 i will join the church life game as a volunteer i must correct my mind before enter this camp. i dont want my mood and spoil the meaning of the game.

may be God want me have a good rest before enter the camp :), but just now during driving i like usual speeding all the way when i am down than at traffic light there i saw a police standing by the time i make a turn a bunch of police is there oh no is a road block !!! but some how i never get a ticket. but the tear almost flash out of my eye and the stress level is once again making a new record.

what do you think ?

Thank God i reach kuantan safely

sorry i still reach kuantan with 2:15, this time i travel with shu yi lucky travel with her keep chatting with me so that i wont feel sleepy. Not like last time i have to use smoke to concentrate.

now day every small thing also can make me feel happy just like an air cord room, for me i can easily fall sleep with that low temperature room. so happy finally reach kuantan even though i dont have own room but never mind la...........

hope to finish every thing by may :) thank God for every thing :)

The world are simply awesome

shalom :)

Thursday morning i wake up at 6:30 and get ready bout 7 some thing. During on the way i call daddy mummy that inform them that i am flying to penang as a passenger and them flying to taiwan. Than daddy ask me i hear that today is your flight test what !! that moment i does stunt for a while because this information i told daddy last last week but after so long he still remember even my self can forget. BUT ladies and gentlemen this is the best part of the story :) during the call my flying batchmate call me inform me that is your flight test is today.

shock !! the power of the daddy mouth, just to share some thing here about our month or can say the power of tongue. If you keep attack people by using those hurt word you are killing the people slowly because if the person been scold he/ she trying avoid the conversation but keep all the word inside the heart that is worst. example every time when those word pop out from other people he / she will feel that pain no matter how because he / she keep all the hate inside the heart just like a wound healing and break over and over again!!!

most of the time we got choice to forgive other and of course our own !!! is really uncomfortable and tired to hate some body .You know what forgive people is really not an option but choice that we have to make to free our own.

want to hear some funny story ?? say yes please if you want than continue read down!!!

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the story begin with a gun ship captain you that sailing on the ocean, after a while he saw a light infront of him, than he transmit to the opposite ship say that : opposite ship please sail 10' board (mean to the left) than the

opposite reply : no way you sail starboard(right) 20'

captain reply : you know who you who you talking to i am the captain of the destroyer gun ship i order you change your course.

opposite reply : i am just junior sailor only , but please change your course.

captain reply : i say again i am the destroyer gun ship, i will not change my course.

opposite reply : Dear captain, i am LIGHT HOUSE change course or not is your choice( not option) !!!!

SAW the different between choice and option :)

hope you like the story and please forgive me if i make you angry this is for your own good too.

GBU

how good if i cant drink much

tilll now also cant sleep !!!! if i cant drink much just go down get a can bottom up it for sure a good dream for me !!!!

i bottel whisky maybe la..........

feel better d...............

it punishing my self to angry some body !!!!!!! cause me not thing but dead million of cell !!!

untill i cant fall sleep nicely !!!!! keep thinking ?? why why why !!! without me also good la.... stay at kl study prepare for test.

hope that june hong kong trip will be fun and really looking forward next year CNY family trip.

think also make my self feel happy d............... we are so easy to be happy but most of the time we choose not to be happy. Keep looking at the problem or the sad thing !!!

changing view

PISSSSSSSSSSS again

!@#$%^%$@#@~#!$@%#^%&^%$#@@$%^&*&%#$@#!@$%#^$&%^^%#$#@#!$

i dont know whether they still remember as a friend anot ~!!!!!!!???? Fuck wei.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! before pyin birthday i already call them count me in if any plan or present to share out!!!!! end up every thing without me !!!!! nia sing ah............................. Pisssssssssssssssssssssssssssss tak nak kawan d la......................... T.T !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

every day prayer

keep reading the "your best life now " book really build up my faith and also overcome my problem. The book say that is you also not confident the thing will be done or not sure will done a not you think God will take over ? But the other way round if we keep following God lead for sure he will provide you the best solution in the world.

very good example our life just like a super high tech computer but if you key in the wrong formula on the computer of course it will give you the wrong answer right ? mean that if we keep think how bad how unlucky or how poor we are than the processor (our brain) will send the negative pulse to our body and make our mood swing.

:) every night i will keep pray for daddy mummy brother sister june family aunt family anuty fan family malaysia and my career and my spiritual life. I scare to start a relationship at this moment even thought how much i hope get it started after the lesson i learn a lot pain still if think back. I am the 1 should bear all the responsible. my priority was wrong the formula wrong of course the answer will wrong lo............. how come i put every time , hope on human but not God.

It is pain to learn a lesson of life but "this time it fail to kill me , it will only make me stronger. :)

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new born life

i am a new born life in christ :) feel happy and so excited bout that but when thinking of test coming soon flying haven finish june having airasia exam. Haven reach end of month i already short of cash d....

having fun at the klang apple opening meet some new friend too. I feel that KL girl are super sporting wei...... can easily pick up and start a date wei........ i hope i got the time and money to do so !!!!

single life is fun and also stress because no 1 to share :)

talk to the wall dont worry i not crazy but try spent time with God to buid up a relationship.

is this true ???

love is possible after friendship but friendship is not possible after love..simple..medicines work before death,later if its too late nothing could be cured

share your experience here :)

cooking dessert

the taste was so nice !!! just kidding it can be more nice !!!!! got time that post the picture la :)

i just left 13.30 to complete my course

i dont know when i will be finish it but i will just pray for it. For me i feel that i am not thing so special compare with other but i just know i am special because of my Holy father.

day by day keep my self think positive.

smile smile :) that me fire for jesus

Thank God

i am still a life !! :) you should feel glad too because if you can read this mean you still breathing right !!! can you imaging people that live in libya or japan ?? most of them just like us, always thank God that what we have.

now i am reading a book name" your best life now " you know what !!! some time we are just too chicken to dream, when you do the best God will do the rest !!!!.

but we can easily do the best but we always forget or never invite God to do the rest. We human always think we are so smart every thing must have a reason and science proven. We just believe thing that can see but not the 1 that can't see.

even i do, starting we may follow but half way through we will start using our own way to solve thing problem out, dont denied it you are just the same.

pray till thing happen , lets do it together ....................................................

what a day !!!

a month never fly, than today first flight. The aircraft give me problem d.................. starting with the alternator than follow by low bus voltage and end up the worst no air speed indicator!!!!!

today was the first time i aboard take off !!!!!!! aboard aboard aboard !!!!!! no more training but real case. now another problem no fuel, negative contact with the refueling truck

!!

why so hard to clock hour in malaysia !!!!! you want to know why ??? first weather second aircraft third instructor four tower clearance.

please dont study pilot in malaysia !!!! you will fuxxxxxxxxx regret after that !!

2 week just pass

i just waste 2 week of time, at this moment i really really stress and down !!! why my path to pilot are so tough. every day keep reading and try to refresh all the knowledge that learn in ground school.

I am so bored of taking pocket money d............... every day see mummy travel trough and flow chini and the skin become dry and darker the feeling is really hard to describe. EAt sleep Play REading life style, when only i can get away from this ???

STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS but glad that i still a live

no chance to find out the true

last week i hope a meet up at least 15minute meet up to clean and settle every question mark than hide inside my heart for so long, but i dont have the chance to do so.

i dont think i will meet any more, forget about it d..........................

oh no !!!!

last night at church hear that american LA will have a huge earthquake bigger than japan, and the sigh of it is before the earthquake japan will have a huge earthquake.

This news came from a american prophet in 2008, not God dont bless american but is they please God to stay away from them. First is school no more bible study no more church fellowship, than is the politic and so on............... of course we dont know when the earthquake will happed may be now may be next year or next 5 years ?? no body know the date but just know it will happen.

the time is short http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Edg5vPq2JIo

http://edition.cnn.com/2011/WORLD/asiapcf/03/15/disaster.preps/index.html

what will happen next i think you better have so idea of it !!!

i am sad of my own !!!!!!!!!!!!

thinking my future

hai............... thinking bout future ?? but i think is time to think bout where we go after we dead lo.

i dont know whether you play life game before anot, the game is base on real life is so real till you will get crazy in the game.

crying for that because will never never meet you lovely friend any more.

today, aunt rachel tole me why not think bout fly with those NGO !!! you must be kidding me right !! no idea finally can relax my mind at home. My home sweet home :) miss mummy cooking but still have to wait mummy come back from taiwan T.T

say wrong thing

i know that will happen la.............. but i dont mind to give a shoot !!

without tying throw a net into the sea, that is no chance to get a fish.

my mood swing become worst day by day

i already doing not thing at kl continuously for a weeks d.............. i hate being this way, my mood keep up down up down but i realise that eating and cooking do cheer me up especially eating chocolate.

i dont know what i am thinking, what i want >>?? afraid that hope getting some thing!!! because the lost hope feeling really pain. Last night when to WIP with julia sis and her friend, do know more new friend but does not feel good every 1 working i am the only 1 study. that is a gad between, i want to go back kuantan desperately T.T..........................

tôi nhớ cô ấy xấu đến mức i tôi cảm thấy hạnh phúc khi nhận tin nhắn. fuck tự của tôi

nightmare

that is so scary and real, i dream that i been chase by a huge fairly bear !!!! i try my best to run away from it but end up i am stuck in the dead end. That time i have no choice but fight with bear, keep struggle for survive than suddenly i have an idea since the bear is male so why not i kick it ball.

ladies and gentlemen this best best part of the story i kick the bear ball inside the dream but in real i accidentally kick the conner of my laptop, right after the kick i am awake but because if scare but pain T.T . !@#$@!

Now my leg is blue black and damn pain !!!! luck my laptop is working fine Asus ............

feel good to have a sister & brother

just now out dinner with siew ling to celebrate her sister birthday. With all the sibling brother and sister, not so close with them but the feeling is fine. Just different from how i mess with my brother and sister.

even though my brother and sister are elder me by 5-6 years but there is no wall between us. Thank God i am the younger, always been taken care :). I do worry and care for my sister especially she staying alone at hong kong which is more than 100miles aways from home.

For my sister she do change alot, after working with cathay the EQ so high that you cant imaging. I feel that every time she FALL in love yes FALL in love really FALL DEEP inside willing to do any thing for the partner but i dont know why the partner always bull her.

i believe my sister deserve a better love, fuxx man if i see the guy i maybe will punch straight to face with no mercy. He is really cheap cake till a level that even guy will feel angry !!!! !@#$%$# maybe i not play enough so i still cant accept that.

till now never really meet some 1 i will FALL in love with hahahahahahahaah, but i hope i just in love not FALL because the FALL does hurt.

suddenly so many people ask me out for beer :)

yesterday have dinner with andrew taking guinness stout , today afternoon lunch with rizal taking heineken , now go drinking with capt soo :) dont know what to drink yet !!!! SEX ON THE BEACH ?? may be :P

feel better than stay inside the room facing those books or laptop. sunway pyramid is a place that i most scare to go afraid that will see some thing that i dont wish to see but in the heart is the opposite thinking. confuse even i do !!

human will never stop giving excuse

my school inform us only can fly on April which is half month later !!! can you imagging ?? is really not easy to entitle pilot in malaysia. especially all your friend almost graduate from uni or college with a minimum of degree !!! and what i have is few flying license and SPM poor result :( .

can any 1 tell me what can i do ??? hopeless is danger for my current situation, i cant lost hope because now i going on the 1 way path no U turn for me. what i can do is look forward and run faster.

income is 1 of the thing that border me, actually i dont know how those people can survive with that little money?? but i am stress seriously stress !! not like i not planning to have some 1 accompany but with current situation i am fuxxxx tight. keep looking out for alternate !! but i am bad because just sitting doing not thing but complaining !!

desperately for every thing !!!! may be i am too lonely and free so keep find thing to fill in the blank.

do the right thing !!!!

what you want to do ??? may be you will say you dont have this you dont have that but did even a second that you think about the japan citizen that suffering earthquake or tsunami

what happen to the world ??

since the first nuclear reactor blast that day follow by second and third reactor. every people are praying that japan or any party in the world can save and end this tragedy. every people are taking about will the world end coming soon ???

for those Christian are they well prepare for this ??? are they finish the task ?? can we meet some body we know in the heaven ?? how sure you are ?? sad to take bout this , because i know i will hardly see those i love in the heaven.

tired !!!!!!!!

penang

i am coming :) long long way for me, long time never meet sister d.....

feel like going KTV

long long long time never been to KTV, even thought when in i also will just sit down and listen other people sing. T.T dont how to sing kelian kelian !!!!!!

scary !!! 女人的心 千变万化 如果说女人才十二种不同 爱情不会让男人那么的头痛

天蝎座 　　
天蝎座男人一旦生气，无论你怎样用尽办法，都无济于事，最好的方法就是你要诚恳地一再认错，而且保证不再犯。当然这只是在事态不很严重的情况下，否则 认错也白搭。因为天蝎座男人只接受道歉，绝不会为你流的泪心软。实实在在承认过失，不做任何掩饰及辩解，会比跪在他面前三天三夜来得有效。

NO.5天蝎座

　　对于天蝎女而言一般她要答应和你约会基本让你就成功了一半了，但是如果她对你没有好感她的反应也是坚定的，如果她不喜欢你，她宁可抱着爆米花在家看肥皂剧也不会和你一起去看电影，更别说花时间敷衍你了，所以对于她不喜欢的追求者，她是非常敢于下狠手的，因为对于她来说不论你多么心诚，只要是在她不乐意的情况下缠着她，那么你就是她的痛苦困扰，她会想办法让你止步，免得浪费大家的时间，所以难免会有刁难的嫌疑。

天蝎女
有神秘魅力的天蝎座女子，常被其它女性视为爱情的威胁者,她不一定很美，但通常她就是会让男人小鹿乱撞。戏弄天蝎座女子感情的男人是肯定会受到教训的！绝不是说所有的天蝎座女子都是那麽狠心、残酷，只是让你明白几乎每一个天蝎座女子都有着宁为玉碎的坚决态度，或许你不太相信，因为有很多天蝎座女子都是一付迷迷煳煳傻大姐的样子，跟朋友在一起的时候也经常让人占点便宜，但如果你真当她是个傻瓜，恐怕笨的人就是你自己囉！她多半不会跟好朋友计较，你可别自讨没趣呀！在感情上,她慷慨的很，一点都不占人便宜，要是有人对不起你，她肯定跟你同仇敌忾呢！假如她真的爱上你，即使全世界反对，都不会让她动摇！无论你们的前途有多坎坷，她会陪你一起闯,绝不喊苦！当一个天蝎座女子对你承诺“至死不渝”的时候，她是认真的，而且她真的可以做到！我欣赏天蝎座女子她们爱的方式，那麽好强,那麽有担当…天蝎座女子是最能接受冷战的，即使心裡百般不愿意,她也绝对沉得住气！总之,如果你激怒了她,她势必会找到惩罚你的方法,才会善罢干休…这一切的矛盾，多疑，以及强烈的占有欲，可全都是因为爱你才会的唷！　

RED box alternate cafe

last night andrew was so moody and desperate for beer, is time giving support. so we meet up at the IOI mall puchong sense cafe, like usual we have beer flowing in our body just because i am short of cash we just take a bucket so not much feeling for me. i think is a good relief for him after hear he talk about the stress from the Job.

brother no worry i will always watch your back :) i am Scorpio real scorpio i mean so that my friend are limited due to scorpio filtration. But when you on the friend list you will always be my friend just friend not brother or sister. To be the brother or sister of scorpio is even harder :)

but time will prove every thing. loyal :P watch out the sting from scorpion !!

last week dinner with andrew

he is crazy man !!!! i give him the authority to order food but i never never expect this !!!! can you imaging i do eat some thing before that and the time that we take dinner was 930pm. End up he order 5 meal just for 2 of us !!!! i tell you after the meal i feel like vomiting but getting better after 5min slow walk to find a place to hang up.

at last we crash at the lounge that near by his house just have few pint and chat this and that he telling that he will only love his EX Girl friend no other else. hahaha good for me if i not drunk enough i will never never share out relationship feeling that deep inside my heart.