human always like to see thing that lost but not the thing having .

i have make my choice :) to see what i having in my life and not the thing that i lost in my life. my life is still beautiful. Hate some 1 end up what i will get is hurting my self or other, why no see the thing from another point of view.

so many people still so care and support me , how could i disappointed them ! this whole week my life is really hard no on physical but mentality. keep inputing the infomation for the pilot test really stress me up.

now the only thing that i can do is study every thing for the test at least i do what i have to do without regret. But every times hear the number of pilot that only that is really make me feel down 200 take only 20 :). you think i can be the in the 20 too ??

sorry ,please forgive me ,thank you, i love you .