going to have a bad dream tonight

just now during flying the Simulator sincere from my heart I have no idea what I doing ! till I feel my self are so fucking dumb than like usual I been fuck by the instructor at age 21yr and that is just the beginning of the story. The profile of the instructor he is age 21yr indonesian that study at france for 7year before and the best part of the story is his father is some body in the DGCA which mean the aviation department of indonesia. Just now all the word he using to fuck me is really beyond my limit till he say "do you know that I can easily make your aviation life suffer by just calling my dad to do so" .


What can i say is i mess with a wrong guy and My EQ is still below average.

no good feeling at all !!!!!!! and this will happen in the future again when flying with some captain that like to fuck people.


The moral value of today is
1. always control your temper
2.dont mess with wrong people
3.always prepare 200% before flight , even though human performance graft is always no stable we cant be perfect like a robots


just now my tear almost flow over eye what a bad experience, I feel angry to my self as well because I feel I let my parent down as well. I deserve a fuck but not with those F*&* word and threatening word.