fat ass

i become fat ass d....................... i still cant believe that my waist become 31 d........ cham lo , i dont want become fat chai le.......... hai no more beer for me !!! no more rice for me !!!

i want be slim back

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fighting !!!!!

declare war with klifa !!!!!!

i want back it back my time my money my love all i lost because study in the school!!!!!

watch out klifa this case will never end !!!!!!!!!!

eat eat eat

first day reach taiping we already start searching for food d........... but the food in taiping not really suitable for our , my family member use to heavy and strong taste food but 1 thing taiping food price are very cheap too cheap to be believe . 4 chan kuew tiao only cost rm10 and the supper for three table it only cost us around 25-30 .

days 2 at ipoh ..... current position ipoh city hotel , an above average hotel the best thing with free wifi hahahahahaah ............................ before reach this hotel we go to meet my God father , last time he is a monk but now not any more but still strong in religion .

all the best food photo will upload when time permitted

i never never think off ending my beautiful

i am stress and many thing happen this day , but seriously i dont have the guts to end my life .

i dont how people can do such thing ? that moment what they all feel ? have to leave every 1 you love , go to hell !!!

even my parent do that before !!! i think i am still the blessing child i never have a day that need to worry for my meal worry for this or that . but my life are 180 ' change when i age 13 , thank you sister bring me to church . i not saying church have magic power can turn bad guy to better person but in real life God does do that !!!

because i cant imaging what i will do right now if i never have a chance to know God , for my personality not afraid to any thing 1 !!!! i think if that time never hardworking study back , i may end up like those guy that selling drunk or pirated CD . but i know my self very well i wont sanctify on that only for sure i will do bigger and bigger business . worst come to worst end some body life i think that time no 1 can stop this evil any more .

my evil side of my heart , if really back to live i cant imaging what i will do !!! i am the kid that kick out from the school age 8 . no school willing to accept me !! but i feel glad God help me i change to other school better life there . at least no more big case happen , till now i still dont know why the malay student will say i cut his hair and another cased worst say i beat him till bleeding !!! till now the bloody shirt still in my mind will never forget or erase in my mind any more d...............

after that incident i hate people dont believe me , shout at me !!!!!!

moody ...................

age does not mean any thing

even though i already age 21 , but in my daddy mind i always a kids . hai............... first i plan to drive to kl than finish the thing drive back kuantan driving is always better than bus at least my self handle the timing !!!!

some more tomorrow big celebration at home ,after the thing have to rush back kuantan . so fast 10 days more than i have to go kl establish every thing d......... keep on travel KL kuantan make me crazy .

love you

jogging with daddy

walau yer !!!! daddy really can run 1 lo........... i follow at the back also feel pressure at !!!! age 60 still can run that speed and distance really dont play play oh !!!!!!

happy to jogging with daddy , even though i not really like to jogging but since he invite me join only la.............. because i think every second count !!!!!! even till now i still cant rally believe that my daddy believe in jesus name d.......... but from he buid up the christmas tree together and more time we together i start believe that all is blessing !!!!!!!!! i dont want this blessing taken away from my family any more !

i am a very realistic and Independence person , many people may say how good can be like me but to become me you must go though a tough process a freedom process !!! no 1 will care bout your meal study or any thing as long you are a life that is enough d !!!!

but now my family has 180 change just left my mother and I because i also start go downward d........... is time to slap my self and go on . not thing is impassible for those believe in God and i am the 1 that experience it truest !!!!!!

love you

war war war

i am so tired of fighting with my school !!!! tomorrow have to go to KL meet some political person hope he can help me !!!

seriously !!! i hate to do those thing !!! because i not use to fight !!!

subang airport

next month if not thing wrong , i may start my training at subang airport . at place that full of challenge and fun . for all of this i hope it pass soon because i am tired to go thought all of this d..... age 19 already start working at airline but i age 21 still stuck is the flying school !!!!

many thing need to solve out and handle , accommodation new place new road to travel .

facebook

base on research facebook was the most user social networking, it also make allot of couple separate some even husband and wife , the percentage as high as 26% mean that 1 of 4 . also due to easy access and is a new life style , now day people rarely ask for email address but faceboook account .

inside there you are free to speak free to access others account , because of that some criminal minded person always misuse it . i think Malaysian shout feel proud because average they spent more that 8hour per day on facebook once again malaysia boleh !!!! you know what !!! you and i together make up the number !!!

the created of facebook just age 26yr and already become billionaire is Billionaire !!!!!! top 200 in the world and also the younger top 200 riches in the world !!! we are come to a new era that no strength competition but brain !!!! not how tough you are but how smart you are !! or not how hardworking you are , but how smart you can be !!!!

some when we have some free time , why not take a break and think some thing useful !!! not only follow blindly what people do !!!

take care

Christmas is just around the conner

to be continue.........................

finally i change school d..... BUT !!!

the war just begin !!!! the war with my school is just begin !!! because the fxxx school waste my valuable time and keep holding me back . until i cant stand change school and the school want me to pay them back roughly 6k !!! what the hell ??? they owe me 51K i also never say any thing now i want to leave the school they want me to paid 6K .

i think the school crazy d.......... start compare us with another school , say that the another school also facing the problem . in the contract my school KLIFAs say i can graduate in 16 months but now i already more than 24 month i just get my CPL only still got 35hr to go !!!!! then the school replied in malaysia no school can graduate student in 16 months even the20 plus year school MFA or HM too !!!!

fine all is our fault the school have non thing to do with that !!! the most wrong move we did is choice this school !!! SHIT !!!!!!!! happen !!!!! in the particular period i am piss and down please leave me alone !!!

take care

crying for good cause

just finish prayer meeting at petra , till now i also dont know why i will cry ?? but is a very good release for me . how this happened , is start with lets pray together with your own family member a instruction given by my spiritual mother . than like usual brother and me go beside daddy and start praying , during praying time i can hear daddy pray for mummy and all of us .

my emotion totally collapse when daddy lead the prayer , he pray for mother sprit our health and etc ........... i so emotion also may be yesterday i go drink with aunty fan and her children .for infomation she is the second wife in the family , she say after 10year happiness the dream had to wake up due to her husband having affair with another women . the most scary part of the story is by early of this year she having a fight with the women , in the end the women knock her head by using high heel and cause her forehead bleeding the blood flow over the shirt !!! imaging you are there watching your mother hit by another women that destroy your family ?? how you will feel ? and this is what happened to them the children . the father of the children not only never stop the women but chase aunty fan them away .

after compare with them i really thanks God healing my family , if not i think my family will be almost the same as them !!! God really listen our prayer , because in my whole life i dont even dare to think my father will belief in Jesus .

by hugging and cry on daddy shoulder , that moment i feel warm and release because i know if any think happen to me and there will always have a shoulder be there for me !! it too easy for to start a relationship but to maintain it nicely and follow the true and holy way is not easy !! but the result are so worth wait for it !!!

take care and never lost hope :)

drinking but also thinking

after hearing aunty fan case ! i totally can feel the kids feeling , no much to say ! pray for my self first , since my self are no good !!! i dont want waste this opportunity to share the gospel :)

may God be with the family

worst drinking experience !!!

11/12/2010 i will never forget that night !!!!

that night i attend my aunt singing competition , just like usual beer will never miss in a Chinese dinner !!!! starting i dont plan to drink much because 10/12/2010 i also drink allot of beer with them .

after the whole night drinking , i do get drunk and also hang over !!!! here i have to apologize for what i did last night !!! first is driving in drunk condition ,it may cause danger to my self or others . second is drink too fast and too much d........... i dont why !!! after the few cup my engine started than no 1 can stop me from drinking .

dinner haven started we already start drinking , 2 -3 bottles keep rolling rolling till the end got 1 uncle joking to the promoter i want 1 box of beer . but the promoter taking the box of beer straight without thinking !! hahaha stupid fellows but the box of beer never last long , just last about half and hour than finish we finish the last drop of beer .

that night aunt never won the first place but her friend did and for her just won the best stage performance and get 6th among 60 people . due to the champion wining so we went for second round , that time i still steady the alcohol level haven reach my level yet so i still able keep drinking around . but the uncle that open a box of beef , such a prurience guy !!! every time keep acting drunk than trying to eat other people "taufu " bustard !!!!! the worst is he hug a women from the back and the hand on the women breast .lucky the women husband came on the right timing , after every seat down that he come . i cant imaging if he saw that scene a guy hold his wife breast !! sure fight and beat the guy hard 1.

aunty fan daughter and younger son also joining us , due to the age limit i try to protect them from other . especially that Guy , so every time he go near them or go near aunt i also will go beside him trying to stop do funny thing .

the best part of the night , i able to sent every 1 home than i park my car in front of my house by the time i off my car , the hang over appear i vomited and pass out in car . lucky i am fine not thing happen to me , the worst thing can happen is i will lost every thing from car to wallet every thing .

dont ever try this !!!!

my friend friend want to get fock today

i just receive a call from a johor internet friend !! she ask for my help that her friend may in the hot soup !!!! age 16 and and the guy 19 yr ~~~~~~~ making out at this time !>?> making out tonight ? sorry u cant help any thing ~! because i dont what is happening and what problem ? may i help la !!!

i just hope that the guy just have a good night with her and never do funny thing la...................

at age 16 the guy will face a serious problem~! cane 10++ for the guy !!!!!!!!! fxxxxxxxx some more !!! any thing happend that for get about the girl and find another !!!!! fccccker

take care and love your self pls

money are not easily get !!!!

today i woke up at 630 than get ready at 730 than my day begin with a long journey ,travel to bukit besi !! i believe it tell you every thing d... a place that can name " iron mountain " .

thank God for good weather not so hot and not so cool

multi-billion machine

having 10% i can own not Lamborghini or Ferrari but a yard or plane d.......

my lunch at 5pm , sore throat because hungry i finish the packet within 5min

last 3 lorry than i can go back kuantan d.......

even in such weather i still get sunburn !! imaging normal hot weather day !!!! till now my body still hot and slight pain due to sunburn .

take care :)

05/12/1952 my daddy born

so fast my daddy already 58yr !!!! but his investment haven mature got no pay back !!!! and the investment is me T.T . i believe he has spent more than 70% of all his money on me , i feel stress because by the time i graduate and get job very fast daddy also 60 d!!!!!!

i feel so sorry , if he never spent most of the money on me i think he should able to retire and enjoy life . for me i am the kids that born in a better than normal family not rich but comfortable life style .

last week still thinking bout relationship thing , bored to be single want to do some thing d......... but i dont think i will do any more thing d..... the 1 that really care me only deserve my time . last time when i still study in secondary school so happy so freedom so many people to play love ...................

take care

first time know the feeling girl peeing

not kidding lo........... i keep diarrhea watering sound disgusting !! but i already "peeing " more than 7 times less than a hour . tired and ill want to rest more d.............

love you :)

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

today my mum friend been robe total lost i think more than 20k !!!!! A huge LV bag , LV note book , LV wallet , jade , cash more than 10k , 2 iphone . the thief break in at mid night and take the bag that beside her bed so daring . at that moment all the "power jade lion","calligraphic from the temple " does not well function . now day no place are really safe any more

do not take it easy for door locking , never mind la.... a while only ma... not need to lock the door la.... dont regret after thing happen try our best to prevent it .

love you : )

no way for me to be police : )

due to my characteristic for sure will kill by those mafia very soon , hahahha the word she use are brilliant for me " money taken , but people still caught " .

why suddenly will take bout this topic is because i just company mummy go KL 1 day trip go here and there . first is bukit bintang , mid valley and sri petaling . worst thing happen we make a move back to kuantan around 6pm the traffic is terrible at this moment still have to sent my cousin go lrt station in middle of no way . traffic jam and get lost in kl mix together really can kill people .

thank God for the safe journey .

love you :)

suddenly so many thing come out my mind

a new solution has come out , change school to APFT or waiting at the same school till july only got chance to fly .

45K , hai....................... when can i find such big money ?? to change school need another 45k for the school fees only the accommodation and extra money have to spent out on food and petrol .

i dont think parent still got extra 45k for me , every day thinking of finding money and no 1 to speak out really make me crazy d.....

why my education road so many obstruction and tear . am i really choose the wrong career ? i just know i got no returning way d......... even dead also must come out with the license and get job pay back the debt .

how was college life ?? sound nice and wild for me , so freedom .

please pray for me T.T because i am going to get mad soon

hehe

today i successfully make 1 chicken herb soup , special kerabu taufu ,egg with long bean : )

but during cooking always thing happen : ( just now i cut the chili starting not thing happen but after a while later i feel my hand is burning and i still so smart use the hand to clean my face and mouth . i tell you the burning feeling almost kill me just now T.T i apply ice hot water milk every thing that daddy and brother say can reduce the pain but no 1 is useful . ice only reduce the pain but not cure it and hot water worst during apply it my tear almost fall down d!!! dont even mess with small chili any more .

today i learn my lesson very well .

love you : )

feel like cooking some thing

long time never cook till i dont have any idea what to cook d !!!

yesterday during take care of dad shop i sketch down what i want to cook a chicken soup , kerabu taufu , sweet and sour fish and mix vegetable .

successful produce a good presentable meal , make my mood be better .

birthday VS mother give birth

do you even think about this question before ??? the day that you busy celebrating your birthday do you even imaging dont know how many year backward your mummy that stuck in the operation room , risking her life to born you ??

feel surprise ?? even me i forget that !! now day human are so forgetful and ungrateful . we will easily take thing for granted like every thing come so naturally .

be good to parent : ) keep reminding my self

love you