go out for some fresh air !!!

those imaging keep appear .

fuxx i dont like this feeling !!!1 i hate this feeling !!! fuxxxxx i must end this asap !! next month holiday i want end all this !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry !!!

just now i was plan to post all the eating durian picture and some flying photo . but now i really no mood to do any thing d.............

sleep hope so ...............

shame !!!!!!!!!

how to delete the new post la................... how to stop viewing this !!!!!!! i dont want to knwo d..... T.T

just finish reading the longest chinese article , feel so guity and down.

no time to regret for what i do d..........

what i did la........ feel fuck up !! what i do is always opposite that what i plan to do !!

ya....... bullshit may be can bring you to the top , but it wont make you stay there forever !!!!

FOREVER this word i dont think i dare to use any more , and i also wont believe this word any more !! the definition of this word is away beyond what i think !!!

shit !!!! suddenlly no mood for every thing !!! tear like will flowm out any time d...........

cheer cheer !!! always told people this word but am i know how to do it ???

try to be friend with every 1 is not easy that i though !!!

i do feel sad bout the guy that kill him self !!! i feel shame why i can just be friend with him T.T !!!! i think if i willing to do that every thing may change !!!

so after that case i keep talking to every 1 , especially those special kids that always been forget by the people !!!! i believe that if they willing to share out the pain every thing may change !!!! i dont mind to make a couple ou=f hour chatting with you or drink some thing with y0u . i feel bad !!

why ?? end your life ??? now another guy to worry bout is yap !!! i hope he is fine !!! plan to call him later !!! i cant take it if lost another 1 that i know any more !!!


: ) if my smile tear can make a different why not !!

T.T : ) your call , but please this :) as reward

in relationship ...........

ok all the best and good luck . perfect full stop for this sad emo journey d....... i am clear d....

WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME >>>>???

i feel lost !!!!!! just finish a bottle of vodka , maybe i got no more feeling d......... so not really feel any thing yet !!!!

but i try to be friend with her !!! i add her as friend again but she never accept but accept other guy when the notifcation pop out i piss and down !!!!! really sad la........ add other also not me !!!!
dont want to hopr to be friend d........ i angry d.........


T.T sleep

drunk ??

i almost forget this feeling d, maybe afraid of getting drunk so every time i drink i wil control or may be the system will defence it self !!! i feel not thing after so many cup !!!
thinking of her , feel down !!

every thing gonna be alright !! it is true >?? maybe !! tired sun burn drinking "medicine " tiger to cheermy body !!!!! T.T .

bored

unsual drinking

just now i was drinking with rixxx , he is talking bout his family problem and he getting divorce from the wife !! i can really feel that his pain !! i also just company him drinking chatting with him because after the suicide case i dont want to miss any chance to chat be some body listener !!! i dont want to regret again .

he was teling me that , he feel like want to live alone d....... than i told him i want to pray first you carry on !!! than i reading the bible , he also never disturb me because he say he respect my religion too !!! the last line of today praying is "dont miss a chance to share the good new " .
that i finish praying i told him why i feel praying is so important !!! starting i told him bout my family problem !! mother this and that!!! but after continuously praying my mother and father relationship really inproving and now you can feel that they are datting and now husband and wife !!! till now i never miss to pray and say thank GOD for this !!!
i really feel glad i still have a complete family !!!! T.T no 1 know what happen last time !!!!

i just release the "seed " where the seed go on i cant control but my praying will not stop !!!! he ask for my praying too !!! for me i think is a good start as least he believe on me !!!!

i cant believe that i cry for dream

today i wake up my cry full of tear , what the !!!! i cant believe it really happen . so pain !! pls dont repeat this type of dream later !!!!!

really like baby like that shame on me !!! cant control the tear at all it is so real like that time !!! feel realistic and sad .

spoil my day :P la.............. lucky got ice cream save the day !!!

SUBANG FLIGHT

tomorrow fly subang again !!! hope weather clear , air craft well performance , my self enough sleep .

subang ! a place that i wanted to so many time but every time also got problem !!! weather !! aircraft !! it is so hard to fligh over there ?? i dont know !

subang ! a place that i miss but afraid to step on any more !! not going to think so much d....... focus on my flying and plan to go back kuantan next week , i miss daddy mummy and kuantan . for me kuantan still are the place that contain more happiness than sadness !!! so is worth to go back :) even it take 5-6 hour to reach the feeling at kuantan is really good .

long time never go daddy shop d........ thinking this time go back longer than go daddy shop help him take care the shop , i know he like it !! if make a simple move can make people happy i dont mind to sleep less or work more .

at johor i feel that my self are so useless and no life !! i dont know how to explain it , but at here i really feel stress and unhappy . every day hoping that graduate even dream also think that .
hope this hard time pass faster i almost cant take it any more d...........

my name never appear on the schedule

klifa schedule is really suck !!!! really make people piss and disappointed !!
every time say want to come out a monthly schedule but after 2-3 month a weekly schedule they all also cant produce !!

that why every 1 are piss and stress in johor !! by the time we apply leave go back home the school will use it as the reason say that because keep on taking leave so that why back log !!! but what the point that hold us back here ??? to end our life ???? to taking drug ?? clubbing ??

i really dont what the school wish to do ? after a week never fly i feel stress d........ after single engine i feel more stress because 1 aircraft but 30 people a head of me !!!!

i think next month i will take long leave d..... i dont care d........ i already piss to the max d T.T i dont want do silly thing here i rather go back home , every day can eat the meal prepare by mummy .

life are fragile , and no take 2 like movie !!!

are you think to end you life before ??? what is the feeling and thinking by the time you plan to end you life >>? are you thinking bout your family > those people love and care bout you ??
still cant accept that some 1 i know just end his life with rope and poison !!!!

today the environment of my hostel are so silent and the silent is just too quiet , every 1 was talking bout him . normal day he is always being alone , because every 1 feel that he is weird so not really have some 1 that really close to him . i think because of that he feel stress and keep keep it with him self and compare with the brother that working at Airasia now........ make hm feel more stress .

now i just listen some hilsong , but the feeling is really no good !!!!! and i feel glad that xxx lee willing to share out her problem with me rather than keep it !!! dont underestimate stress it may become worst if suddenly the stress level bust !!! thank God got daddy mummy brother sister that love me so much , i believe any thing happen to me they all also will support me at the back .

if i end my self like that !!! i got no more chance to meet them again d........ no more chance for me to enter heaven d........ eating chocolate or sweet sweet thing do help me reduce the stress . but the best is cr out like cow because after cry i will feel super tired than easily fall sleep d. for me a guy having short memory after a night cal easily forget what happen last night d............ but not all thing !!!! hai......................... still holding some thing dont want to release T.T make me feel tired and exhausted d........ i never really smile from the heart long time d....... 1 day never end the ending nicely i will feel bad !!!! thinking to find a day settle it face to face . after that i should feel better d........ waiting for the day to come !!! sms ending is suck !!!

rest in peace bro

all chatting smoking wait for the forensic team

6police car come , but waited for half and hour the forensic team still haven show up

tonight i receive a call say got many police at outside the reason is 1 of my schoolmate suicide at the room . not thing the police can do d.............. this is the second case happen to this school d, the first 1 been save so that news paper never mention any thing !!!!

but now this case cant hide some more sure will appear on the news paper d......

the first case the student shallow a bottle of pill lucky he been save , but not tonight !!!! poor boy he drink the poison and hang him self , he even plan not to been save d...... because he use the cupboard to block the door prevent any 1 can rescue him !!!

tomorrow after the new come out daddy sure will get shock !!! thank God never give me the dare to kill my self even i do think that . hai........... lucky every time i just cry out than tired sleep .for now i really feel scare and feel want to cry out pity him and his father just receive the call say that his son is gone the parent cry out and this word i wont forget " why why he just want to fly " ok i am tearing d........ no 1 to share out just taip all here it make me feel better .

KLIFA is really suck !!! lack of aircraft lack of instructor !! now i feel piss for another thing !!!! i just found out that few fellow that study in my school taking drug !!! i hear that my cousin maybe will join !!! if the idiot join i also dont how to tell the mother !!! before i find out the true i just treat i hear non thing !!! but if this is true the 1 that provide hm drug are dead man !!! i promise !!! come on my aunt got only 1 son stand away of him you guy !!!

i think tonight i wont able to sleep d la......... : (

DJ

now almost every afternoon i feel down or moody i will playand mix those song my self , is so freaky noise : P . i cant sleep you all also dont think bout take a nap d........ but only afternoon , not morning or mid night becuase that is really too much la........

those clubbing mix with soft old song really funny lo.......... but some time like shit !!!!!

smile smile :)

放！！！

the more i dont want to think , the most i feel sad . let it be la......... every time whem the memory when down d.... a thing will appear recall the memory !!! it is have to trow all the thing ? all !!!!! every thing !!!!

feel bored of flying !!! seriously bored !!! another thing for me to worry bout is the pilot english test !! come on la..... i also walk till this stage already mean no way to turn back d....... so just focus and run forward d.................. the better future are waiting for me .

taking medicine every day !!!!! "the time "

Ashamed ！！！

let do a research here !!! are you know the phone number of all your relative ?? i think i impossible so how bout half of them are you know they contact nunber ??
just now sister give me a phone call ask me bout 1 cousin nunber but seroiusly i have no idea also , i just typr the name on my phone book hope that a number appear .

at last the nunber appear but if you ask me how sure bout the number i can tel you i have no idea lo.... because i will only meet them once a year or even less 1111 !!!! so can you imagging ??

i have to get the recently infomation of cousin by using facebook ??? sound silly but is o true !!! i believe not my self in this world doing this !! so i think is time to repair the relationship d.....

stilll thinking how !!!! : )

hate watching drama d.........

every time see those sweet couple makeme feel want to have a new relationship !!!! but those silly image keep poping out !!! die la me......... some time really hate my self !!!

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情越双白线

ji bai drama !!!!!!!!!! 5 min sweet 30min sad !!! nia sing !!! the smile also haven finish yet the problem pop out d....... hai...... cant just have a drama that can make me smile and wont think other thing ???

potong steam gila , watch till episode 14 than no more d.... have to wait tomorrow !!! hai........ why this drama so fuxxxx sexists all the guy in the drama all also got problem or not better than the girl 1?? hai!! but is really true theory !! no money is really hard !! dont care how hard you work by the time reach home can hug hug lovely be be , what also feel worth d ... : ) but no money wife also have work hard really different from what we see in the movie always have happy end ing .


i am still my self !!! always so stubborn !!! when i say no mean no d........ this also my weakness so emotional !!


learning to become cold blood animal!! dont care you die or what i also dont care d............ that time will have no more tear flowing out d............ just kidding !!!! i know i cant !! so easy than mood down and cry d..... : P dont care la.... this is me !!! whether you like it or not that is me !!! either you take it or leave it !!!!!!!

玩出火！！！

在网上认识了一朋友， 因为无聊所以就有时会sms 我咳！！！！ “小妹妹！！！ 你不是说你有男朋友吗？ ” 为什么要去逛街不叫他反叫我哦！！！自己去玩啦！！


希望你没误会我！！我只想有个朋友陪我聊聊天没其他的！！！

man is black !!!! how good if is real !!!

how good is that if i have the erase memory stick with me now............ today keeping the room and also second time in my life i fold my own shirt !!!! what a shame right ?? first day born to this world i already having kakak d...... and a mummy that love me so much !!!

miss them very much lo...... thinking that how can i quarrel with them ??? or increase the volume ??? but my mummy really know me very well lo..... she know i am " COW " will accept only soft way , i wont entertain hard way !!! if you scold me last time i sure will shot back d.... but now may be kenal too much from those captain d.... now what i can do is silent up my self focus on the plane go back only write blog with tear !!!!

lucky now day close with almost every 1 d........ at least say hi or what !! not thing to lost !! every thing will be so easy if other willing to help or teach !! still learning to be humble and control my super hot temper , is so easy caught fire worst than petrol !!!!

thinking last time also stupid !! always manja and mood swing , i so sick because i feel happy by the time see her angry because of my thing !!!! hope her happy la... than i also feel happy d.

better than sleeping pill

most of my friend know that i dont like clubbing so they all go club also lazy want to call me d..... but i never tell them actually i can drink but i just dont like the place the so fxxx noisy and full of temptation . i dont want drink till forget every thing than woke up sleep on the living hall or beside me got extra roommate !!!! so what i will do is play my own music soft and relaxing music eat some snack and have a couple of drink with close friend .

worst come to worst i can jump to the bed and fall sleep , club is a place that out of my control . there got too much thing that i cant handle checking , drive after drinking , fighting ................ i feel i am so girlish !!! the mouth always call people lets go club in the end people really call me out than i give tons of reason to skip it !!! (T.T ) sorry lo.......

kuan kuan always say go hunting hunting !!!! crazy 1 la...... wait la... the day will come hunting this word pop out from me !!!! i also dont know why ?? i say i dont like clubbing also no 1 believe , every say see my face also know is play boy clubbing type ! i hope i am 1 of those bustard too . that time i think i will feel more freedom and happy rather than thinking silly thing .

no 4times d........... T.T

i just cancel my subang flight again cause weather ??!!! it is so hard to go subang ?? or some how may be is a gift to not going there thinking or remind some thing .

but still down because the hour clock very slow dont what to do !! stress in term of waiting cancel flight plan , air craft keep down people keep asking when you graduate ah... this type of question i will only answer once the second time i may not entertain any more !!!

down down down T.T keep eating to make my self happy !!! but scare fat so after eating do seat up like crazy till the stomach cramp than tired sleep !!!!!!

15/09/2010

15/09/2009-15/07/2010
- 15/09/2009
=0/10/00
10*30days = 300days

i don't even realise that i just lost 300day of happiness . left 65days will be 1 year anniversary d....


i realise 1 more thing , i phobia of writing T.T cant believe right !!! use to Taiping word rather than write it down d....... during world vision roadshow i discover this problem !!! during issue receipt my hand will shake lo.... because the word i write down are so horrible and because got copy at the back i afraid i wrong spelling , use to heck the spelling by clicking check spelling but on paper cant find this button so during i write 100 in english one hundred still ok but when change to 150 i jam a while what a shame !!! i cant believe that i cant just write one hundred and fifty !!!!!!! T.T . the feeling that holding a pen are so stress T.T hai ........................

later go buy many many paper and pen start practise writing again ! hai, every time fill in official form or document i also will lag for a while because keep thinking fill in wrongly , the more i fill in wrongly . i belief that if any 1 reading this sure will laugh till rolling on the floor , i do loss my confident d........... : )

pilot so what ?? by the time take out the uniform i almost lost 60% of my confident , because my brain can be say empty every thing i know is just the surface only the deeper part i dont know d....... 失败

ladies night

since not thing do with me also !! just like usual camping at the room there watching movie and eating snack ! so bored !!! but use to it d......... now day i will try any ting to cheer my self up , because " happy also have to live , unhappy also have to live " so WHY must be happy oh???? !!!!!! unhappy also can 1 right !!!! since this is 2 ways fact !!!!! :P

just cant a word to describe my feeling

in this week this is the second times aircraft down on my sortie d.... night flying only can fly 3 day per week my week end by tonight but 3 night 2 night air craft down !!!! T.T why la...... by the time i walk to the air craft i still feel happy because today can fly solo at night in the end shit happen too!!!!! during check the air craft the light is out of service why at night only happen this type of thing ???

the most hurt me is 2 nights weather was so nice and clear but aircraft down , just now during the technician came to check the air craft , this word really piss me off !!! " biasa kita ketuk ketuk the lampu ok d...." you try ketuk ketuk !!! what the hell !!! i also dont why the company will hire some 1 like that !! a while later he came back and open up the anti collision light try to exchange the bulb , but the bulb he bring along is strobe light bulb !!! i really cant stand d.... that moment my tear almost flow out d........


feel want to hit some 1 or punch some 1 but i know i cant so i go buy tons of snack try to stuck those rubbish food into my stomach and sleep T.T
feeling really down ......... now ................ for this moment i dont think any thing will cheer me up

this school make me feel bored of flying d..... just got 1 piper but 4-5 batch student on the waiting list !!! i cant imagging the moment i finish my 200hr.

tequila pop also useless

i realise that when i no mood i mean really no mood liquor since no effect on my body . normally i will feel sleepy than continue to fall sleep but this 1 like not thing happen ! good also compare vomit in the middle of the night .

bored lonely night for me again : )

after busy

i miss busy time !!!! i do !!! even is very tired but at least i do some thing useful and make my self happy !! hate to hate the pc or the wall .

i feel sick of my life style , when i can end this ?? a life style than i cant plan any thing !!! daily schedule make me no chance to plan any thing . every day hoping my name is there T.T by right tonight i should able up in the air again but the aircraft naughty the instrument not function well so my flight cancel again .

my out look may be look tougher than the steel but who even look at my inner world ? so no point showing the pitty dog face . act normal become a part of my life d......... if really job less i think i can be an actor some "ka le fei " because hardly find emotion on my face now day

孤单

以前从不知道那时什麽滋味！ 不错吗？？ 真的吗？？

nasi bujang

what the fxxx right !!! got those rice 1 !!! is a super fuxxxxxxx simple meal egg and rice !!! what the fxxxxxxxx mean that single cant effort a better meal it is !!!

just finish 1 nasi bujang add on tom yam seafood fried mee too ............ eat the nasi bujang really make me feel sick !!! single deserve better than this man............

now the only happy enjoying time is eating with friend !!! because that the only time i can chat with real people and also by the time my stomach feel full the brain wont think so much of thing easy for me to fall sleep .

finish this glass apple martini , should have a better sleep d ...... :(

not use to it

yesterday is the last day world vision having roadshow at city square , than same day a girl that i know from facebook she say she would like to have a birthday gathering there too.

the thing is this girl fb profile have no photo it mean that i dont know whois she !!!!!! last last she call me ask me where am i ? than i say i at the roadshow she told me that her phone battery flat soon meet her at the MD what the !!!!! i dont know your face also how i go to know who is who la!!!!! never mind still i walk to the md try my luck . i cant find actually can be say is i dont know i looking for !!!! i piss off d........ i walk back to the roadshow area i message her f you read this find me at the roadshow !!!!!

after 15min i saw i girl standing far away keep looking at me , that moment really make me feel uncomfortable!!! so i also walk toward her ask her name in the end she is the 1 that i looking for !!! so i just have a quick lunch with her than i back to work d........ for me i just want to be friend no other !!!! since she told me she have boyfriend why after i back to work she keep calling me out company her walk around ??? i really dont what girl thinking lo........ sorry la........ the wound still fresh no dare to touch love or relationship thing d.................

i dont think i can take it as well , the feeling been cheated or just a misunderstanding i dont want to know so much d......... hurt mean hurt d............. first time i run away from a girl !! i reject the call as well !!! confuse what she want from me ???

so damn long !!!!

天蝎座

天蝎座是一个强烈的星座。他们的爱与恨，他们的人生观点，他们的生活方式，都充满了强烈二字，他们强烈的爱憎，强烈的需求，强烈的追求＆索取，而这些强烈的成分，也使天蝎座变得倔强而坚强。　　沉默外表下的暗潮汹涌.　　天蝎座的外表往往看起来很老实，他们看起来安分守己，中规中矩，并不会第一眼就给人留下深刻印象。但是如果以为他们真的如此一般，那就是大错特错。　　天蝎们内心总是暗潮汹涌，他们对人生有着强烈的眷恋＆希冀，他们渴望权利，渴望金钱，更渴望爱情。他们常常不动声色，让人误以为他们沉默乏味。但是那其实只是他们在审时度势的不断观察。　　他们的目标其实一贯都很明确，但他们是小心谨慎的，他们从不轻易暴露自己心中的想法。　　他们有着长期观察和考验的过程。不论是他们谋求一个职位还是得到一个人。　　一旦他们感到有把握，他们就会立刻出击，动作迅速，毫不犹豫，而且往往一击致胜。　　强烈而持久的激情　　天蝎们的暗潮汹涌，令他们非常具有爆发力，而他们的爆发力之后又有着强烈持久的激情。　这或许也可以作为天蝎何以总是排在排名前五的状况。他们诞生的时间，恰是步入中年时期的开端，个人开始卯足全力，以期能在未来达到巅峰。所以，天蝎们具备了许多分裂不融合的特质，而也使他们拥有比其他星座更多的持久能力。他们富有激情，而且是长期持久的激情。这在其他星座那里是鲜见的。他们如果认定了的人或事，是很难发生喜新厌旧的状态。所以他们最善于婚外情。因为他们太强烈，需要太多，而他们又如此稳定，所以可以保持更多。　　表里不一的报复心态　　天蝎们表面看来并没有那么强烈的特质，他们往往显得文静柔弱。但是他们内心坚如磐石，他们有着强烈的自我守护及占有欲望。但是天蝎们并不是真的那么心狠手辣。他们确实会坚定不移的报复那些曾经伤害他们的人，但是更多时候，天蝎们只是在心里想想而已。他们绝对不宽容，但是他们也并不是真的有他们自己想象中的心狠手辣，即便是成功报复后，他们也往往会自己承受一段时间的痛苦煎熬，这令天蝎们反复焦灼，也更体现了天蝎座矛盾的性格。　　极端矛盾的性格组合　　虽然矛盾是人生的一大特征，但是没有比天蝎座更能体现这个词汇含义的星座了。这个星座的人天生就在强烈的矛盾感中度过。　　这源于他们出生的时间就是开始尝试交融各种互相对立的矛盾事物的阶段。　他们的表现有时候非常奇怪，让人觉得他们神秘莫测，他们对人的方式有时候非常晦涩，让人揣摩不到他们的真实意图，你以为他们所作所为是因为想要得到A，而真实答案是，他们要的可能不是A也不是B＆C，而是D！　所以要尝试了解天蝎座人，确实需要经过漫长的磨合过程，要适应他们突然狂躁突然沉默的性格特征。在天蝎们要真正接纳一个人的时候，他们的状态是反复无常的，但是经过了这段时间的斗志斗勇后，天蝎们就会将你真正接受，而且基本能做到不离不弃。　　天蝎座们许多人穷其一生都会感到焦灼＆痛苦，因为他们的欲望太强烈＆执着，而他们的性格又异常的倔强和坚强。他们需要的不仅仅是成功。其实他们常常是成功的，但是因为他们永远奋进的执着理想，和他们对美好事物的强烈占有欲望，使他们一生都在不端追寻而无法停下脚步，享受安逸的生活现状。天蝎们可以考量常常同双鱼们相处。从他们那里能学习到悲天悯人的纯真情怀，也能逐步放下紧张焦灼的状态。

how to make a auto door

1. rubber band
2. hamer
3. nail
4. chair as well

just too lazy to close the door every time i go in or out !!!
so every product invented by lazy people idea .

less than 20minute your brand new auto close door has done !!!! enjoy : )

tired but feel happy

today we kenal complaine by a girl , i am not so sure bout the detail hear the supervisor say is some thing bout she want to join as volunteen but since we are full and enough volunteen d.... so he just call her write down the personal detail worldvision will put her on the waiting list !!!

may be she feel hurt so she post comment on the facebook wall ......... luckly the issue end with happy ending !!! misunderstanding really dangerous , so dont think that you know must be sure !! because what you thinking may not really happen

Jazz Ng 剛用了 吃醋時你有什麼舉動? 進行分析。
這是你的分析結果。
選＜後面的樹林中＞的朋友你是....【冷戰狂型】吃醋時你會擺臭臉不說話讓對方生不如死：這類型的人會壓抑自己的情緒，其實他內心深處對自己還有一定程度的自信心，當他對對方不說話時很酷時，讓對方越痛苦，他的心理反而會比較平緩，而且也覺得對方還是蠻在意自己的。
我的選擇:後面的樹林中
我的結果:冷戰狂型


true , i dont like to quarrel . because quarrel time all the word pop out is so un true and deeply hurt people !!! i rather silent my self and smile !! thats me !!!!

i just need attention and care , i know i am childish : P so what ????

childish king

childish king because i think no 1 will get title except him d............... 他妈的！！！ 小气自私自大。。。。。。。。。。。 从没遇过一个像他那样的人， 三十多岁人思想还不如一个小孩。
妈的都不知道学校怎会轻这样的人！！？？？ 想到他我就“独烂”。 才跟老婆离婚，下个月又结婚了。 有时我还蛮同情他老婆的就应为爸妈得旨意盲婚！！ 孩子都2岁了但见爸爸的时间少得可怜。 每次放假都回新加坡 ，从不回去kl 看看孩子和老婆妈的他老婆就好像寡妇一样。

最火大的是， 他今天还很得意跟他同事说：“我特地选我以前的结婚日期就是要报复他爸妈和老婆！！！！！ 妈的！！！ 为什么会有这样的人的！！！！

2 因为要赶婚礼他妈的尽然抢飞机！！ 妈的，狗娘子！！！！ 就只有他的学生可毕业其他的不用！！！！

woooooo hoooooooo Taiping Chinese is really tougher than i thought.

dont why suddelly feel so down

no mood for every thing even dinner too ! almost the whole day was facing the pc inside the room . dont what to do also >>?? now flying cant really cheer me up d.......... because already feel bored and frustrated for this school situation d.............

during this 2 year beside flying skill i learn how to smoke and drink . my life style suck !!!! really feel tired d...... T.T every keep repeating the same thing over and over again !!!!! just now i bored till drive out turn 1 round than go back home . why happy time always travel so fast , but the bored and moody time since wont move like that ??

now i really dont what to do that can cheer up my self . looking forward for the better tomorrow

love really like that ??

maybe i am jealous or never expired this before so feel weird . every day see those update status or relationship keep changing sweet talk all the time publicly at the wall there !!??
just now saw 1 new relationship status till now i still cant believe it . born in 1992 but married d....... 18yrs ? now day ??? for normal people thinking sure is "crossing red light " and get fine ticket d...............

my emily jie jie more power !! change the profile picture direct to i love ducan hahaha than the guy profile become i love emily !!! hahah it see sweet . that the love that we can see by my own eye that why people always say MAKE LOVE . love really have to make and maintain 1 , lack of understanding and maintaining there is not thing !!!

hai ......... feel so bored , feel the real happiness and relax mind only during the time eating a good meal d........ because that time i just busy putting the food into the mouth only no time to think other thing as well . going to buy tons of chocolate i afraid of fat so the sweet taste on the chocolate may confuse my brain that i am full d..... so it can prevent me to become like brother last time feel sad than keep eating to over come the sadness !!!!

i may do the same thing too , but i know the result too !!! is so not worth and high paid out so after eating the exercise i conducted will be more and even harder just to maintain the shape and can eat more . sound silly but really dont what to do d..........................

365DAYS bear

not thing to do suddenly see a bear hanging there !! oh is the 365days bear showing 14 on the face there !! now every day for me is almost the same d......... even my birthday too . because i dont feel like to celebrate any more special day for now la..............


finally emily jie jie find some 1 that care for her more than she care d.......... but hope this guy last longer period la.... hehehe see emily jie so sweet i also happy for her la..... can meet some 1 that care and love not that easy lo... but for her i dont think hard la.... so cute pretty and super hots........


think back how she can become my jie jie i also feel funny lo..........
the story being is i am her joining PRS camp some school counselor camp , i know this sound silly and funny but believe it i was a counselor for the student before even my self feel ridiculous . but some how i was a counselor :P dont care whether you like it of not !! the camp was a 3days 2 night camp the first day lunch time i meet emily d..... because she and few friend force to sing the national anthem like usual we all ignore it continue chatting , but a while more all of us been scold by the teacher for not standing when national anthem is singing !!!!! what the !!!&%#*%

that how we meet !!!!! than during lunch time , malay friend they all choose to use hand to handle their food but for us chinese we use fork and spoon but that time i forget to bring than suddenlly emily jie call me join them for lunch ok lo.... since she provide me the fork spoon heheheh than sudenlly he say want to be my brother ma >>?? than i just answer why not la.... not thing to loss that having another sister that care bout me what ?!!!

just that till now i calling her jie jie , even we hardly meet up but any way we still keep in touch .


: ) where are you ah..... i miss you so much ah !!!! i think if i still cant find you i must report police to looking for you d......... i miss you hope you back soon.........................

store for hapiness

http://011189-hopejoy.blogspot.com

2 blog are totally 180' different , 1 is EMO to the max another 1 is SWEET to the max . all is depending on my mood which post belong to which blog .

for me now day i use my blog as media player i save all nice song , what i have to do is open the blog and put a side continue surfing on other webside.

going to school soon but the weather is coming in so i think today no chance la......

just drink few cup barcadi

tonight will be good good night for me la........ the eye are so heavy d...... can easily close by it own d.............

good night for my self : )

WEIRD

I JUST KNOW A GIRL ON FACEBOOK , I DONT KNOW WHO IS SHE BECAUSE ZERO PHOTO . BUT ANOTHER WEIRD THING SHE KEEP ADDING THOSE FRIEND I KNOW BUT MOST OF THEM DONT KNOW HER !!!!!!!!

SOUND LIKE A GHOST PROFILE !!! ANY WAY SINCE I AM FREE NON THING TO LOSS TO KNOW A NEW FRIEND LA........

if you are down who will you find !!???

but of course the 1 you finding , you must fully trusted and comfortable to share out every thing !!!! many people will say why dont want to share it out with parent of sibling ?? this is the good question !! but now day 20th century high technology period i belief that your relationship with a person that 1000mile away from you will be more closer compare the 1 that stay right beside you !!!! sound ridiculous right !! but this is the fact of now day city people !!

now day face to face chatting are hardly see in real life , every 1 are busy with sms or msn .

still looking a real person that can chat and share the happiness and sadness rather sms with some 1 that i dont know any thing about her .

hai............ i am damn loser stay in johor almost 2yr but 0 is 0 johor friend !!!!! only club can get new friend ???? it is true ??? if really like that i think i wont get any new friend here : (

流吧！！！

　　韩国“国民美食电影”推出续集，金正恩扮演的海归大厨要在陈年老店进行“改革”，男主角只有在“泡菜大战”中取胜，才能说服她打消这个念头。

这套戏正是太催泪了， 一心想开套能让自己开心的戏但从头到尾都是感动流泪的画面。一开始不大算流泪的但到戏未端眼泪就像水坝崩提一样的流出了。泪流出的感觉太好了， 太舒服了。把一切不开心的都发泄出来了。

父母永远都是一样的爱我们，为什么我们就不能对他们耐心一点吗？一定要到生死关口才来后悔吗？T.T 打不下去了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

这样下去不是办法！！！

苦瓜一般脸， 每天呆在房里感觉更孤单了。 吃让我心情愉快，但我很怕会变成哥哥那样为了一棵小椰树放弃我自己。 太笨了，一切就好像昨天发生的一样。

妈的， 我这死都不想面对被耍的事是 。


USE TO HAVE SOME 1 MAKING NOISY BESIDE MY EAR SUDDENLY THIS VOICE GONE D...... VERY NOT USE TO IT . HAHAHHAAHAHHHA SMILE SMILE SMILE TO OVER COME MY LONELY UNHAPPY THAT NO 1 WILL FEEL IT .