after busy

i miss busy time !!!! i do !!! even is very tired but at least i do some thing useful and make my self happy !! hate to hate the pc or the wall .

i feel sick of my life style , when i can end this ?? a life style than i cant plan any thing !!! daily schedule make me no chance to plan any thing . every day hoping my name is there T.T by right tonight i should able up in the air again but the aircraft naughty the instrument not function well so my flight cancel again .

my out look may be look tougher than the steel but who even look at my inner world ? so no point showing the pitty dog face . act normal become a part of my life d......... if really job less i think i can be an actor some "ka le fei " because hardly find emotion on my face now day