let it be

few more hour will be my birthday but may be i dont really on the mood to celebrate any thing at this moment. Many thing need to be done in this week, In my calculation if every month I paid back my parent 4k i need at least 10years to complete the debt.

seen like very heavy right !!!??? but in another way round how my parent provide me that amount in less than 3 years times. And all the money are all they saving for the past 40years.

How can i not stress on that?? but is true stress will not help any thing untill my captain told me to more relax during flying.

I will never forget this !!! passenger does't paid for death !!!!!! some time extra knowledge will definitely will help in emergency condition.

Keep going up and down in my life

I think I am the only 1 feel ok by staying at the hostel. 

For me that place is really good , meal prepared no need to wash cloth my own. I just feel bored staying at putra height a house that seen like no body staying. 

But what can I do in Kuantan ? Very soon I will go off to indonesia and start a new page of my life . 

I just feel my life is missing some thing ,  which is I don't what it is ? You know what from starting I refuse to work at indonesia till I hope I can work there ASAP it not about the place any more but about the paid. 

Now what in my mind is hope to earn  my first salary after 3 years suffer. I know The first year being a second officer will be very tough . 

I love my life and I appreciate every thing I had.  Miss my parent so much. T.T

What you want ?

2011-10-26
上帝作为
读经: 使徒行传16章9-31节


你曾有过在机场滞留24小时的经历吗？而且是在一个离家四千英里的地方，你甚至不会说当地的语言。

最近，我的一位朋友就遇到了这种事，但我们可以从他的反应中学习。大多数人都会觉得这种麻烦事简直无法忍受，我的朋友约翰却在他的耽搁中看见了上帝的带领。在被迫滞留等待时，他寻找机会跟同样情况的旅客们接触。他「偶然」发现一些从印度来的基督徒，而且从闲聊中得知他们参与的宣教事工。事实上，因为约翰的负担和这些新朋友的事工吻合，他们邀请约翰到印度参与一个短期事工。

我们有多少次经历过被迫延迟、计划改变、更改​​方向的事？通常我们都会将之视为妨碍？事实上，这也很可能是上帝在引导我们改变途径，让我们能为祂做不一样或新的事。想想在使徒行传16章里保罗去腓立比之旅。他因为上帝的异象带领而到马其顿去（9-10节），却没想到后来竟在那里遭到监禁。但此牢狱之旅也是上帝所安排的，因为祂要使用保罗为一个狱卒和他的家人带来救恩（25-34节）。

如果我们将生活中的「麻烦事」视为上帝的安排，那么上帝可以使之成为美事。 

This is What happen to me today first my class get delay than my flight get delay now flight test get delay. Surprisingly I never panic and doing some thing stupid yet !!! What I do is hungry than go eat bored listen to music than I get online I read today daily bread I also want to tear off.  

God have his own plan and time table, that no 1 can delay or stop it. 

i cant imaging i even forget my birthday

i cant believe it next week is my birthday d!!! too many thing to handle till just now i look at the calender ops 1 nov is next week man !!


but the problem is i dont even know where am i that time ?? sound nice ?

going to have a bad dream tonight

just now during flying the Simulator sincere from my heart I have no idea what I doing ! till I feel my self are so fucking dumb than like usual I been fuck by the instructor at age 21yr and that is just the beginning of the story. The profile of the instructor he is age 21yr indonesian that study at france for 7year before and the best part of the story is his father is some body in the DGCA which mean the aviation department of indonesia. Just now all the word he using to fuck me is really beyond my limit till he say "do you know that I can easily make your aviation life suffer by just calling my dad to do so" .


What can i say is i mess with a wrong guy and My EQ is still below average.

no good feeling at all !!!!!!! and this will happen in the future again when flying with some captain that like to fuck people.


The moral value of today is
1. always control your temper
2.dont mess with wrong people
3.always prepare 200% before flight , even though human performance graft is always no stable we cant be perfect like a robots


just now my tear almost flow over eye what a bad experience, I feel angry to my self as well because I feel I let my parent down as well. I deserve a fuck but not with those F*&* word and threatening word.

今晚Rizal 和他女友好吵架，城里失火淹仅池鱼。 和事佬的功作,当一对情侣喝醉酒然后重点两个都是我的好朋友在这样的情况你叫我这么办。

看他们吵架让我想起一些回亿，过了一天他告诉我为什么要吵架他说一段长旧的感情说事实和现实的话是必要的。不可以什么都迁就对方不过当他和她吵架的时候语气真的很重到一个地步我都害怕。成熟的思想是我非常须要学习的。 man ego will always be a strong barrier to a cold war quarrel , a man will never step down but it is mean that girl must give way ??? Because from what I saw , the ego of a man can go untill the extend in between the quarrel still can warning the opponent watch your language !!! By using what you say just now ? Say it again !! Believe me at that situation you won't dare to say a word. 

Wise man can become stupid when fall in a wrong and mess relationship!!!!! 

Sin city Jakarta beer cigarette drug women are cheap also can get it any part of the city !!!!! I have no idea what is going on the future 7 year life here ?!!

Fuckme      

Just having some beer than received SMS

For you information tomorrow flying at 0600am , pick up come at 0545 . Please be prepare for the sim check the sim check will conduct my Capt sandy . Don't know what feel I should feel flying at weekend with last minute information .

But I have to use to it because this will be my future life style :) don't care la as long I get a job and paid rather than not thing jobless.

The comment given by captain to me is please be more relax during flying ??? Stresss

tomorrow sim check

A long journey to become a pilot, my friend taking air asia test all strike out from the exam.For on line as a lion air pilot, take many step step 1 flying at indonesia and do a conversion here and get a ATR type rating in 2 month times. after finish every thing still got class for company policy company safety class line training.

I think the fastest i can get on line is manch i should be flying with passenger.


ALL the best for me

So fast 2 weeks past

Very soon u will finish my training at Jakarta and continue training at kl. 6500usd just like that !! This is still a peice of cake only the bigger amount have to come out, 21k euro that 1 is really feel the price. So far I already study a cost of a semi D. Future path will be more thing will come pity for those failure the air Asia test in 300 people just 35 people pass the exam simulator and second interview will kill some more people.

Study study study money house girl will come later 20 million salary is above middle range in jakarta worker d..... Few more month than than I have to stay here for 7 year d

Having an exam tomorrow !!!!

Student pilot life is full of challenge :) I know the date of tast few day ago !! And today I just done my indonesia medical thank god I pass that, that medical check also last minute deal. We been inform yesterday and today morning 4am I a wake d because pickup come at 5am. My cough never get better but getting worst thank for the nice food :) I am loving it.

Just a week I feel bored staying here d.... Not home sick just feel tension every day new thing keep inputting my brain every day got new surprise. Those that have another a Malaysia are planning a visitation trip to they lover :) good la have some 1 they miss come over :)

Sick not now please

Every time when I am stress I will feel vomiting headache all will come , normally I just ignore those sickness but not today :( the feeling make me no choice to take medicine. What I hoping now is the headache and fever please leave me alone. I dint want to sick here , feel jealous for those out going club later but I just feel bad if I go !!! I am using my parent hard earn money to study and more is going to spent.


Those rich kids will never understand what I feel , not I don't want to join them clubbing but I just feel bad so better stay in room have a good rest and be fresh for tomorrow class.

Jazz I know you can do it better that this ;) I have to use this situation because my future more or less will be same.