just watch till episod 10 d....... so fast left 6 episod more only !!!! start feel dont want to watching this drama any more ........... all the sad part starting d........ hai...... i want a drama to make my self happy and relay but now just make me feel more lonely ............... busted !!!!
when the decision been make by some 1 is really hard to turn back d, pitty the artis keep begging the boy friend back . but what go around come around lo......... last time she do that do the guy now is time to receive back d............
so tired !! feel so sleepy d.......
today at first i feel like normal only , but when my aunt children they all knee down just two of them giving pray and respect . that moment my tear droping d...... cant hold any more . than after the prayer , the worker going to nail the coffin every 1 is crying that moment i feel that why ?? why must be like that !!! why funeral must be sad !!! that time i know that because they dont know where they will go after dead ??
my uncle he choose cremation , when body is pushing in the burner every 1 emotion collapge d..... life is just too short !!!! tomorrow uncle will go there collect the ash and put into the temple d.....
really not thing can help or do ??
hate to hear this word !!!!! come back ma come back la.............. like that also must ask !!! so 无奈 T.T . fine got holiday also dont want to go back d la......... rather staying johor i also not need so tired and rush .
i am super super super tired d.............. hai....... my stomach feel up set d........ my body almost collapse d........ later for sure i will fall sleep like pig without any excuse d.......
so bored , no life no life watch pps the whole night !!!!! laughing and keep laughing alone dont care la............... hahahaaahahahahhha long time never been laugh till so happy d......
hungry hungry tired tired. ella is just so cute oh.................. where got girl like that 1 !!!! so silly but have a friend like that i think sure happy and enjoying .
but artist always acting only so i dont think i can accept my gf too famous lo......... no more privacy have to always play hide hide cant see sun light like that . hai..........
the only place that i can hang is , my house kitchen lo........ because my bed my uncle sleep d...... mummy is sleep with his daughter till house living hall sofa also occupied by my cousin and his new girl friend .
first time go back home , no place to sleep till no place to hang . lucky i bring my laptop back at least i can watch pps "down with love " to over come the time . feel so sweet oh...... the power of drama really power lo......... at least that moment i not need to be so realistic .
but in singpore , really full of love bird . couple here and there all the couple is living in their own world totally ignore all other people . hai....... suddenly feel so lonely , but think back ok also ma....... so free hai...... those word i think is for those single guy to bluf people 1 la.........
hai............... drama always so sweet but in real world , where got girl wil be like that 1......... so fake may be i never meet before a girl like that la......... hai...... famous girl artis begging her boy friend oh hehehehee . be a liang chai is too good d............
now day i like girl , no life hide in the room watching pps watching
就想赖着你/就想爱着你.
just watch until 2 episode only , i feel my life slightly the f4 guy . having famous partner not a good news also always play hide and caught very very difficult 1.......
hai............... damn hungry now
today got severe weather at johor air field oh, than during i fly from melaka to johor i already reach a place that 10 min from the air field d..... but the weather just too strong till air asia request delay the departure time !!! hai..... after the air asia request the towel straight away call us fly back to melaka !!!! what the hai..... have to fly back to melaka oh....... another 1 hour flying ........ that moment i really feel so scare and so so so so tired d.......... up in the air manually no auto pilot and keep visual on th weather and ground continually for 3 hour is really no joke business.................. because 1 hour flying = 2-3 hour driving !!!!!
hai......... in the end we land at melaka again , to wait fr the weather clear . actually i dont scare bout long time flying but afraid bout no fuel !!!! because by the time i land at melaka the fuel left 2:30 only. normally track from melaka to johor need at least 1:15 hr . mean that if i take off again i cant land on johor i will have a big problem thank for melaka fuel company holiday . monday only back to service .
if i working i dont mind night stop other that destination but come on la..... no we night stop we have to pay our own hotel cloth taxi fees air port fees ............... so many thing to pay , that at night some i got meeting with my friend so i dont care how also i want to fly back !!! after discuss with instructor we decide to fly back by no delay . thank for the law , my rating cant flying at night so that mean i must reach johor again before sunset . just like usual what i did speeding all the way but this time secial case my instructor told me to do that .
after landing , my instroctor blem me say when flying without checking the weather come on la...... i check all and copy down the weather coming time and show it to you and you say ok 1 ma, than ma fly la........ but he do teach me alot of thing today .
first time so scare of flying .
the time is always run forward , just like we every day we pass actually is another step forward to the graveyard.
now day i trying to care those who love and care me . before it is too late for me to do that d.......... because no 1 know what will happen the next second . thinking that is i just pass like that will any 1 drop a tear for me ???
but i wish i can bring happiness rather than tear ...............
my aunty pass away d........ i feel that life is just too short !!! can do the thing you want is so blessing , can meet with some 1 love you is the biggest blessing .
keep trying no to moody any more but just cant . quit smoke lu.............. bored d.......
cant post it today , because mother say dont tell sis yet . dont want her to be worry , hai..... true also la.... if she know d what can her do also ??
sad T.T
many thing want to share out ........ happy sad weird excited tired lonely
you name it!! photo up load soon
still try and error with the photoshop , hai... sad la..... my face !!!
just watching the Taiwan drama series .
got 1 sentence i feel confuse and is totally bullshit for me .
" the different of girl and guy telling lie is ; guy telling lie is make him self feel better , but girl tell lie is want other party feel better . " girl will scare hurt other party 1 mem??
this movie trick not really use on me
that day i with brother discussing bouth the car than number plate !!!! we plan to have our own family number plate like my mother side all the uncle car using 6229 .
than my brother ask me what number we shout use than dont why i just say 111 la..... than he say expensive la..... than i say 1118 lo......... than he say dont want la... he want to put his and sister inlaw birthday . ok lo.......... as long you happy lo...
but i think i wont put that number la..... see also dont feel like driving d.......
hai..... another way of thinking i feel my self always also so naif and extreme emotional plus silly to the max that dont want to hear or aceept the true .
i never been to my aunty place till so late !!!!
some more i with my friend sing those love song those really touch our heart , than suddenly he ask for GRO hai..... that time i just sit a side a watch and learn lo....
a while later i get out from the room , to chatting with my aunty , then she told me hai ya afor sure you wont like those thing 1 la.... since you got girl friend hai... than i tell her break long time d.... than she just reply me that for sure you love her more any her do 1 . i just silent , may be than she say haiya future you will be the dragon ma....... fly her and there dont worry . for me maybe just use to it the d...... than hardly change the feeling lo.......
thing to be done or learn !!!!!!
hai...... i just like a curse to my friend .
for hariz i already spoil his toy gun , fishing rod , thumb drive
latest fariz i cycle his bicycle then when into accident !!! hai..... the bicycle cost 4k plus ........ shit .... even though not thing serious for me just blue black only but for his bic rim 1 bend d....... both Tyre alignment no correct d..... hai ........ just waiting for he bill to come .
i think is time to keep keep fit d..... eating bread will make me more healthy
zzZZZzzzz soon
i cant belief that over 200 sms 169 come from same ppl.
till now only delete may be too late , but is never too late d...............
i think also delete late d.... if other second day all done d......... but now just left those sisa sisa photo .................. wish to plug in a cable straight in to the memory centre delete all those relative image and info . because because thinking it i dont like this product dont that product any more .
got choice i will choose not to buy the same thing ....... thinking to change phone too . every holding it keep thinking other thing . so torture for my self .
just like normal la...... the gray part of me just appear .
dont why this few day i feel my mood swing is worst than the heart wave ............ keeping up down up down . keep looking for some thing to over come the time , keep my self busy as well .
hope Monday can meet mummy , i want a nice hug from mummy . even though i wont tell her any thing but see her happy i also feel happy d........
may of 20 also can be a celebration day !!! what the !! feel like just simply find a day to celebrate or have a hang over night only.
hai .......... like usual today go to school stand by for non thing!!! today still feel ok a bit la at least manage enter the AC for joy ride . just become safety pilot for my senior , because i having ppl licence man.......... i actually can fly with any body i want to any where in this world but of course having more knowledge first la....... fully depend on the instrument , any thing happen than only flip though the SOP i think is too late la..... ever though commercial pilot do some ..........
bored tilllllllllllllllllll dont what to do !! forget bout what stupid 520 day
cabana !! i always hear this name since when i enter this school !! but i never been and i always keep my self no going there !!! but not this weekend !! no point to keep my self for some 1 that hurt me some deeply . back to the market !! short term of happiness , is better that not thing !
hoping that this weekend will be a awesome weekend ! is time to know some new friend d...........
not being naif living in the wonderland any more !! back to realistic , since girl like humor and bad guy i willing to be that person .
curently feel like the drama series ! a devil fighting with angel right on top of my head !ZZ!Z!ZZzzzzz!@#%#$@
power check
waiting at the holding point B
a funny air asia 
finally get in the air
climbing to get better view
cool
re select the power
45' bank is what we have to learn 
hai....... dont know is so gam or what !!! the book say we must love our enemy ? can any 1 really do it ? i am not sure !! but if every can do it like the book say so i think the world will be so peach that does not required any more police or army .
trying to love some 1 you hate !!!! some 1 that hurt you before !!! is the only solution rather than revenge because it will lead to a war that never end .
i hope so , but the pain still there been hurt and fool d....... want to be friend also sound hard d.... LOVE your enemy , till you can give up your life for her ? how Jesus do that ah??? love and forgive those people that set him up and nail him on the cross !!!!
once again i think LOVE this word !!! it is so hard and heavy are you able to take it ?
i think the most thing i learn here is acting la........ acting happy ok tough in front of every 1 .......
tired men......... after get my licence i wish to have a crazy night with tons of friend .
suddenly feel down dont it is bout that again !! so many thing thinking .
happy back d........ but the tear still fall down !!! because noe mummy and father they all at home celebrate mummy birthday oh...... i feel so lonely here T.T . but just now mummy call me my mood just like auto gear become happy and cheer i dont want they all still have to keep worry bout me D...... mummy love you oh ...... after the call my tear flowing down d.........
when only i can graduate !!!?????? i almost cant stand here d........... always stand by stand by than flying time weather !!! always hope people sortie cancel than me can take over !! hai......
feel my self like a beggar beg for flying .
become " lan ham pau " d..........
say truly i dont really enjoy to be a cadet pilot any more !!! because all in the movie does happen but supporting by allot of money !!$$$$$
for me i promise my self since young , i will never never get poor i dont care i rob of what i dont want to be poor .
hai.......... now day for me the money is just too small to spent !!! buy a bit of thing only than more than rm50 d..... add some more than rm100++ d...... hai.......... bored !!! i think i desperate need a nice hug now T.T my emotion almost collapse d.....
just now by looking at his phone image tons of girl that having "business" with him some more video too....... ok you win d. man..........
another way round what is the girl thinking by taking those photo ?? hehe play boy is always so nice to be ! it is must be that ?? what he tell me is after the business you can even forget bout her if good than can find her another time .
no worth to change my self for liar ! but now day to find some 1 to share out the feeling i also will choose nicely d............
tired of bleeding heart d.........
finding solution to stop follow the blog , i dont want to know any more info d.........
delete throwing bit by bit , delete picture also think twice . but now feel better d..... at least got some 1 there to replace me d......
shit !! smoking does not help at all............ hai..... curent like a lonely and hunrgy shark !! keep seaching for pray !!!!!
now in my mind , i rather be the predator than the pray d......... just bite and walk away !!! is always better than be bite and get hurt !!
why la......... hai........ so frustrated hardly get a name on the board than weather !!! stress stress !!! when only can finish !!!! no mood d...........
all the fligth prepare wasted and the worst is tomorrow no flying but my name again on the standby list what the FXXX 7am . now every morning fog like hell the sortie also push back to 9am d......... still have to report at 7am........ than reach there no 1 open the door . hai........
maximun safe speed !!! i 130-140kt 
first time flying 3000ft so nice
pulau besar , not that big !!the retainer that now i wearing is so painful till , every time when i put it on or not i also must 10min first ! than only take a deep breath and put it on...... than the pain will just stink there for few minute during waiting the pain gone that moment really kill me !!!!! even just few minute but i feel that is the longest few min for the whole d.................
new life , heheh now suddenly thinking " french kiss " !!!!! for sure feel different d...... with out the annoying bling bling breach . haven try it yet !!! but thinking also feel happy ah....... no more bleeding d........
still looking up........................... and forward
today i purposely go to school just to show up my face , and begging for flight ! ok la...... at least the name is there d....... now another problem weather plus indonesia keep open burning the forest i think few more day the health ministration will give warning d.......
that time every 1 have to wear mask !!! hai....... desperate gila.........................................
keep looking but " got heart . no energy " .
when i having too much free time , my brain willl think this and that !!! some time almost dropping tear .
but when thinking future time , got stable job and income d..... every thing will slove 1 by 1 !
lucky i am still young enough !!!!!! dont why before doing some thing bad i will worry this and that !!!!! for me IF i not a christian i think i cant imagging how messy my life will be !!!! because even now my life start getting messy d......... but not till over sea level !!!!
ONS = one night stand !!!! why call one night stand >>??? it is have to stand the whole night !! hhehee , never try before ! for me i use to eat "Carl JUNior " so that why i will never want to eat ramly any more !!!
every time when i back from holiday sure i am not flying !!! than during holiday or when i on the applying leave than my name will be on the board =.= !!!!
what is this la!!!???? hate and piss no thing i can do about it d............
most hate is when long time no flying the idiot school instructor expect the same standard before holiday !! come on la..... if i flying the same type of air craft all the way till 95hour , i do wrong you can fxx me la.... but 3 piper name only the same , arrangement of the gauge is different . even is slightly different but still different ok......... idiot !!!!!!!!!!!!!! every instructor have their own style !!! come la........ why i must follow your style ! but not other instructor style !!!??
few cadet been hit in the air during flying by my current instructor !! even i haven kenal yet... T.T but i already told daddy be ready to receive a call from school say i fight with instructor !!! come on la..... hit me in the air so so dangerous la..... and i pay my fee to be pilot not army !!!!!!
wish to graduate fast leave till hell zone asap
no flying , but sleeping. some time really feel frustrated , when i holiday than they put my name flying when i am here d...... than no more flying but standby standby at early morning.
strezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz maybe , too free so thinking silliy thing afraid this and that
first time study till have till issue lawyer letter !!! what is this ! i
since i boen i never been hurt and fool till this level ma......... some more i am the manja type .
i hardly hate some 1 !!! but if is on the list i will hardly forgive d.........
at least i am clean lo............. what type of people it is !!!
the " best thing " i most dont like also happen good good i hate people lie on me , i hate people fool me .
no more chance will be given d................ no time d............. i wont even care any thing happen d....... my heart is dead d...........
back to the market soon , open for all . no more reserve and worry or guity d.......... bye liar
lucky never fall all the way down .
i also dont what i am stress ??? i really dont !!! when can i graduate ??? when this question some out my stress will some back !!!! i hate people asking me this because i have to act steady i dont want daddy mummy wory bout me d.......... i know they very siak me !!
but every time talk bout this i feel , i a so useless T.T .
just now got 1 auntie come to my house take dinner , her kids just 19 help her manage a million company d....... i not jealous but i dont like parent take me to compare with other !!!!!! yes he do very smart so ?? he is he me is me !!!
another way i do wish to learn the good moral value from him !! because i belief that his mother teach very well . so far he give me a very positive image !!! first time i will say that , but compare me with me i really feel malu ........... 21yr but still open hand big big take money from parent !!!!!! some more my daddy use almost all his money for my pilot course !!! hai..... people may think i am very rich an study pilot course ! but they all never see my study place those 18 -19 yr the car still stick P lesen but drive sport car , club here and there dont even border when graduate T.T but me i want all the thing earn by my own hand ! asap !!!!
every time i help daddy work at his shop , the heat really kill me . every time i saw him carry the heavy load i really feel my daddy getting old d............ T.T and me what also cant do just always know how to cry after graduate i will start worry job less tis and that !!!!
tearing i think will give me a good night tonight !!!
just now just drink a bit beer , dont why i taste is sweet !!! at least a good night for tonight .
taiping here express out the feeling is better than me keep all inside the heart , it will really make me sick .
i am so tired d.......... no 1 to share !! or can say i dont wanted to share !!! today brother ask me it is any thing happen d...??? because i take lunch just eat a bit of rice only ......... i wanted to tell him but i know he wont understand me because know he is fall in love so i lazy to tell that d.......
like usual mummy cook my favourite "black sauce pork " . my mood is unstable but i never show it on my face because i see her cook the whole afternoon d.........
some more my teeth very very pain , so they all also never suspect got any thing happen good too. at least they all wont feel worry to me ma.....
but my teeth is very very pain till all my mood also gone d.......... now the thing that i wish to eat is chocolate or ice cream only ............ some thing that will melt and sweet taste is enough d........
going to uncle house soon , a good chance to drink i think i need some alcohol in my blood stream d.......... i need a good rest tonight !!!!! i been tired for this type of thing d.........
i wish i never know her before , but i know this is not movie i cant do that !!!!
if really can do that , i hope i dont even know her lo...... force my self to delete and forget some thing already buid in the brain to remove it do feel a bit pain but i think short period of pain is better that lon term pain d..........
love you forever , that moment do we really know what the meaning of forever ?? i dont think so ....
feel much better d.......... i afraid i will see some photo i does not want to see . i cant take it so better still i remove it all............. no more up date no more detail i think will make me feel better !!!!!!
what rizal say is true , dont be silly d...... KL is just messy . sure some 1 involve d..... any thing la.... thank you her i learn a good lesson dont so easily trust any body . for me i feel no more guilty d..... actually i am wait this day to come , just may be it come like weather present so fast...........
some time , i am thinking they all should know some thing but they all just can hide it up nicely . still belief that " what go around , come around " at least i can wake u nicely .
big slap from God , is enough d T.T i dont want to know care what is happening d..... i dont want to know why d..... i am lost , totally dont who is she d........ people changing can be so scary 1 now i know , good training for the future i belief future i should have many opportunity for this.....
lie really so nice to play . i feel tht like playing fire u will get hurt any moment only.
every is sleeping !!!!! hai......................... use to it d.................. not the first time eating ice cream alone d.......
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just finish yam cha , than i get back home online finally saw a thing that last time i wish to see but not now any more !!!!!!
but is good too !! at least i can delete every thing , and throw every thing d..................................
after today i think no more tear T.T will flow up d.............
feel so release d............. last time still keep thinking why !?? tons of reason just to over come my bad feeling !!! keep giving reason to fool my self ha ha ha .
really blind d............ love is blind , i think not only blink is die ....................... "die heart" and "die hard " .
tired d......... i dont want take in any responssible d........
single and available think is more suitable for me d............ fresh air !!! i need it right now !!! kuantan sea i coming .T.T
i know is not !!!!! all this is God mighty hand work !!
why i say that ! my daddy iron the cloth wor!!!!! last time the plate after eating also i wash .
now wash plate , iron cloth oh...... be mummy driver so more !!! so sweet !!!
the prayer should not stop !!!! hai..... i been "pea" for 2 day d........ but not today d........ what i had now i really really scare will lost again T.T . the feeling of losing some thing d..............
i been phobia lost thing d............... the feeling make me sick till now...........
