stone..........

time will never turn back ..................... i think ever 1 should know this fact !!!!!

my spiritual father told me i think , i also saw it on my eye . he say wife is to " 疼“ love but not "宠" what also tolerant her !!!! i say that is got 1 brother in church , last time she always listen to the wife and almost tolerant every thing say dont go church than he dont go . that 1 day thing happen so he choose to follow GOD will , he use the smart get from GOD to pursuer his wife to attending the prayer meeting . last time the wife reason is because want to take care the baby but now the husband help her take care the baby together at church hehehe the image so sweet . now they relationship is more and more stronger d..... because the brother willing to change the priority put GOD in the first place . than GOD also bless him more than he expect example in Carree have good sale , family a lovely wife or can say is a perfect wife . why i say that ?? is because his wife is a very silent people but now she dare to sharing message in front of so many people d....


back to the topic , stone ?? what do you think ??

actually i am the stone !!! confuses ??
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why i say that , because i do become a stone that make people fall down before . still confuses or even worst ??? i mean that i am a stone in the religion that make other fall down !_! because i dont show the good to people so that people will say what so special about christian ? same as us or even worst than us !_! ............. i do cry for that because i not helping but destroying the work or GOD .

after i hear a sharing message , i feel a wake d...... he say what different between us with those non believer ? i almost cry out d..... because he say a christian life should be very attract other people because we are different ? we wont do bad thing , we always bless people ! that moment i feel so sad !_! i not even do that i always thinking bout my self only and her only other i also dont care ................... i lost many thing d.......... no point to think back so i choose to pray for every 1 i know even her for every day . human power is too tiny but GOD power no word can be describe
actually all thing is well prepare in the heaven , just you willing to ask from GOD a not ?
you father love you ?? of course right !! he know what you like and dont like too but he let you make the decision your self because he respect and love you . human father also so love and care bout us d........ can you imaging the LOVE from HOLY FATHER ???

crying d................!_! do i deserve the LOVE from HIM ?? if you are parent , but your child dont respect and love you not only that even hate you do all the thing you say dont do ........ what do you feel ???? for sure sad right >?? !_! how come i can do that to GOD ???

love to cry :P feel better


tired d la....................... thank GOD i am still a live . is time for me to think
past it happily together with HIM
or sad moody all time by my own ???