human is the most weird animal

most of the people is so weird , when the thing too easy to get that mean there is not thing to appreciate d........ so funny right ?? when the thing appear on you every day or you can easily get it there is no point to appreciate !!!!! but when the thing gone or lost d....... that time only start feel miss and regret ??

human is like that !!!!!! the only different between animal just maybe we have knowledge . i am the 1 that always lost thing ........... not only object some love and care too, till now i will set a very clean line that i dont dare to start a new relationship d.......... because i dont think i qualified to love some 1 i dont want the other be the shadow of another . since now i cant even take good care of my self better i dont hurt other people d.... !_!

now what i can focus on is my study !!!!!!! is this also collapse that i am not thing d......... i wont let it be , dont care how hard or how tough i will get through this because i have too !_! currently begging 200k debt ma................ hai....... what also taking bout money , even sleep also ................ every day i will keep telling my self i must be success in the future . because in my mind the benefit to a rich 1 is always better than the poor 1 .

i come from a medium family , but since i young my family keep going up up down down till 1 day we have to rent out our own house and stay with grandma !_! i dont want this type of thing happen to me d........ ya she is rich so what ?? i want to earn every cent with my own hand not from parent . some time i feel depress why those around me can easily get what they want just get licence than a brand new imported car is waiting there . but my spiritual mother told me , please look at you left and right ?? how many of can have car ? can study pilot course ? some of them dont even have enough money for daily expend ?!!


just woke up , receive a working call make my mood like this . be a survey officer ! keep begging people do survey worst is get scold !_! scold me for what wor ? i also working only ma!_! hai..... get to go

that is what in my mind currently