raining day.....................................

raining day again, it just make me feel moody and tired. for last night is really regret the max......... feel damn left out . even at my home , i feel damn sick to this home d....... when i come back i dont even have my own private room any more . the feeling is really bad .
told last night will be a happy and enjoying night but in the end still the same ending........ quarrel to end the conversation..................

now day even a very small thing can make me feel very uncomfortable, i have the strong feeling that the third will come d.......... i dont know when but i just feel it, because the way she treating me is totally different d........ i feel left out i feel sad always have this type of thing happen to me........

drunk !!!!!!! i really hope yesterday i can get drunk till cant even open my eye totally hang over , because that i think i will feel better at least no quarrel. i just dont what she is thinking , the mouth say this but doing is always the opposite way 1 .............. say can company till any time , but when some of them going back she also say so, dont tell bullshit la....... dont want go back will wearing shoes d.... than reach junction only say i really can company you 1 , just u dont want and now almost reach my house d......... this and that............. ya her time is more expensive 1 ma....... more higher class 1 compare to mine . i can wait her from 6 to 10 but she cant even give me a happy 2hours . in the end must screw it out..........................


i dont think today she dare to contact me any more, for her always got her own theory. every thing she did is right i do always is wrong . she say working fair enough , but just dont always fulfill the empty hope for me it will make me hate rather than love d................. crying and begging my forgiveness all time what not dont do some thing that up set me ???? after all the tear flowing , the next moment the same thing can happen again !!!


feel stress having this type of relationship , full of untruest and not confident plus tons of unhappiness just hope she can end my heart hardly till i dont even want to talk to her any more i think is better than like now killing me softly.............................


tear fulfiling heart breaking and moody