why :(

i feel worry scare and uncomfortable, last night i cant sleep the whole night . i try to call her , i just would like to ask for a favour can she make some changer for me ? where is the love ? where is the love ? where is the love ? that last time she giving me ! why she take all those care and love , she always say she never change and always say she still in love with me . but why she use hurt to love me ?


it is tell the parent d , sure will have a big quarrel happen ? can she just do some thing to make me happy ? example can at least can post some my photo , call me chat chat , the most i hoping is she dare to ask the mother . but that is what i always say hoping for me is just hoping , it wont come to real .


i think this year my tear credit is almost finish d, always use middle of the night it is worth it ?
i always think that i leave her wont make any different , because i always no beside her , there got a Chinese idiom " close water balcony , will get the moon first " i mean those guy want date her at kl . i losing confident is may be she really silly , she cant feel the guy want date her that why she go out alone with him .


sometime i really feel want to ask the permission from the mother , because what she tell me i not very confident on it . of the mother say cant continue ok lo.......... since is like that i quit lo....... she git so MANY people DATE why still stick with me the 1 that always bring tons and tons of unhappiness to her ?


i just feel sad , when see those picture that last time we take , because the first day i come here i d stick all the sweet photo on the wall i hope those picture will give me so support to continue my study and over come the stress but now day those photo will make me feel more sad . because all is last last year photo !!!! why this year so BLANK ? but for her still very happening clubbing photo , beach photo , ext.