since what i do is meaning lesss...................

i choose to release d, even thought feel hard and sad . but i think if i being like a trouble maker keep creating trouble i think she will feel more sad only.

and if i keep dragging her is no point also , my love and care wont follow the Tran 1....... that is not such thing that call whole sale love......... till i can feel i am so fucking cheap till almost can tolerate every thing d.......

just feel that she leaving like that , actually good for me d, because at least she try to make some stupid excuse to cover the true . any thing la ? just feel sad and mood down . i hope after my flight test i will feel much better and i think i will start take out all the picture that on my wall it just make me feel sad and uncomfortable d....... the function of the photo change d...... last time when study dont care how stress i am when thinking of my family and her and the future life i walk thought all the hard part d....... but now :( the photo do bring me some happy but less and less d...... because all the photo that take is last last time 1.......

all the latest photo all can even wash out 1....... sensitive an i dont even will post it out . but last Saturdays i do feel enjoy when together wit her . but every time is like that after feeding me the sweet sugar the hardness and bitter drug will come and when it come my whole body is effected till cant really run my normal life . now day i try to act i am fine , but i know i not !! because still bleeding inside hope the time wash out my blood and cure my wound soon . and stop hoping can hug her tightly feel the body warm any more d.....



cry wont help me this time , so choose to go speeding now......................