feel complicated to my self...........................

i know my self , but i dont her any more d........ what i hoping is just like i always say just a dream that hardly come true ....................... hai.......... hard 1 la........... distance and now start dont belief each other d..... how can the relationship to be carry on if she dont trust my any more ??

now also like that d, if i work worst thing will happen la........ fly over sea only i have to report my self where la what i doing la........... confident a bit la............. when i do some thing stupid that ?? what i did that hurt you and make you feel so uncomfortable la.....................

for me i get emotional easily , and for her i think she really think i will call her parent and tell some thing stupid , come on la........ she really think i will make the call !!!! so silly , i say that is just make her wake !! especially when she in high and drunk ........... that is i dont like to hear the voice like that , after i say i call only she will wake up and alert on the spot lo........


feel sad when facing her have to act happy .................... become clown like that always have a smilling face but the tear is always inside the mask