just come back from flight EMO D.................

dont why i feel moody moody ? may be view blog . hai................... bored , wish now got some 1 give me a hug i think i will feel much better .

i feel i am so failure , because i been staying at johor for mre than 1 year d.......... but i dont even have some johor friend what the fuxx right ? not make sence at all............not only me , most of my schoolmate they al facing the same problem . it is must go clubbing ? than only can meet some friend ? i dont know ? but now day i willingto try it d........

since i am so fuxxxxx free , i think i will start plan for my vacation and clubbing life la...... i think is more easy to meet some 1 they rather than stay at home ......... i feel very lonely, can call me mr lonely d......... i dont get the different that having relationship or annot any more ?!!! because curentlly i feel is just the same, i still celebrate valentine ,birthday, christmas ,new year my self .
hai why people dating till so sweet even thought is distance but still so sweet but my 1 is like totally different lo.....


some time in my mind , i will keep thinking that did she hiding from me?? i dont know , i just know she is happy with what she are now ! for me i dont border any more d........ she say parent dont want her date fair enought , but now she "still" can say having relationship with me ........ mean that she always lie to the parent ??? the other way i will think , if she can easily hide and lie to parent why not me >>>???? who am i oh? an ordinary guy that spent the lesser time than normal friend !!!!



for yesterday she call me, after half and hour we since not thing to talk d...... than she say she feel tired want to sleep d, but i am sure after end call only she will on the pc and facebook till midnight ......... i dont know it is true ? but i guess so ............


the bigger for me not the parent is her mind , i dont what the fxxxx she is thinking ? current like not thing happen but for me it feel more scary than separate , because the feeling and the way she talk to me feel like not thing to say d... bored d... just like the third S.......... WAVE will strike me any moment soon.......


i am really losssssssssssssssss confident d....................... hiding , lie , igore , misunderstand ect thoose problem make me lost confident day by day ...............