let's back to the begining ! part 1

i think i have to learn how to smile again !
because now day the thing happen to me make me cant breath and forget the basic happy emotion
thank for my stupid school KLIFA is a flying school ,
at first i should be graduate soon but because of this school i dont when can i graduate d.

this year really is the hardest year for me ,
study , relationship, life , financial problem,
all this really push me to the limit d,
now i am stuck in the relationship and study problem.

maybe last time i was over confident to my self ,
i think after my study i will get a job than manage to form a family ,
but now day all just can be my dream and hope,
last time dont even think she ask for separate with me,
that moment i am just like an angel that falling from the sky ,
all the hope and plan was gone ,
the life also lack of colour d.

after two month i still moody ,
is because i am still thinking why that time she will ask for break?
is because of what she do that ?
now physically we back to relationship,
but 1 day the problem still there 1 day i also wont feel happy,
it feel like putting a time bomb beside me,
since will explore any second .