the different between and friend and girl friend

for now even my self dont what is the status because thing happen too fast break and together back ! but i know there still got problem between us , distance and the most is the feeling changing from her. i know i am just different from other couple i have to act stupid because lie to the parent ! but i dont think they dont me as well always want hidiing here and there , just want to go a short trip i also dont how to plan , but if i not her boy friend may be i can go trip with her just kile normal working trip but i it cant hai i dont what i want and actually i am just a normal guy lo, not that special can stand few month only see her 1 time lo, but now even chat on the phone she like not thing to chat with me lo, i think she can life without me 1 lo...... not like me already make her become a part of my life hard to over come the stress and loneliness . for a normal friend she since more care bout me it is when change the relationship d than the feeling also will follow it change ?
some time i think my self ! it is we can walk thought all this ? i really no confident day by day d, because i know the field she study and working is messy and complicated but my 1 also not that normal always travel here and there stay here ans there hai.................... did her actually just feel use to it the realtionship so dont want have any changer of still in love with me ?
those day i get angry very fast and the emotional graft also move up and down rapidly i really dont want this type of life d , i want a normal life lo/.................. lie lie lie is become a part of the program to the parent d..........

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