no matter how tired am i after reaching home, feel so happy and nice d................
many thing that i still dont know !!! why i feel so stress out ? any body there ??
i have make my choice :) to see what i having in my life and not the thing that i lost in my life. my life is still beautiful. Hate some 1 end up what i will get is hurting my self or other, why no see the thing from another point of view.
like usual no 1 will know my inside voice , and i also not plan to share so dont ask me why or how !!!
crying is a part of the trick to overcome the guilty, thank God i have a wonderful life lesson. now i can proudly tell my mother is not 100% my fault.
till now i just drink a cup of hot chocolate, i really no appetite.
just recieve a call from capt say that my air asia test is base on a 300pages book and i left 13 days and i already brought the ticket to hong kong on the 07/06/2011 i dont what to do now ...............
05/06/2011 air asia test
of course not , this is the answer normally people provide those day but not now !!! now day some people do think lonely is fine :) it is true ?. my relationship really went to a big snow ball mess not the only boy girl relationship but friendship too.
secret that will keep till the grave ........................................................................................................
i wish to know ? to carry on .................................
today julia still plan the birthday party for her boy friend that break up , for me i think she is really in love with this guy. Till the extend that what ever the guy do also can make her feel happy, because of the birthday party yesterday purposely go sunway find a nice dress.
i have no idea !!! indonesia got more job opportunity but all also have to pay for own rating and the cost is really cost a bomb. I roughly 100k , 100k wei............... not a small amount any more :(
the whole afternoon i accompany my house mate. out for lunch company her shopping at sunway, because she just break up with her boy friend. For my point of view i think the guy really suck and she do deserve better to walk into her life.
21 days is what i left for the air asia test . . . . . . . . . . . . :) hope that i can face the book every day here, because i know is hard to do this at my super comfortable sweet home.
is time to clear my emotion before any new thing from God to remind me. It too pain to receive the fact that you doest like.
my bio compass swing again .........................................................
why my faith keep up up down down like roller coaster, i feel stress bout this tear droping >.........................
night
just now my brother girlfriend came to my house,since my sister will back to hong kong this sunday.for me normal day when 2 girl meet together there will hardly find a conversation full stop between two girl.
i guess what my brother feel after he show mood down at me, he say :"regret to call her along, i also dont know what for she drop by". that moment i also cry out because. For My self understanding is he wish to have some conversation or just some interaction between his girlfriend but come out with a result that sister they all chat till 130 but he cant even get into the conversation but fall sleep.
from my point of view, i see who i am last time (T.T) after so long never meet up so every time meet up i will hope to spent every single second worth just because of the expectation is there so most of the time if the thing out of my expectation i will feel down and my mood down is really fuck face.
Is never too late for me to see and think back who i am before, i wish that will never happen again. Easily mood swing is my biggest weakness.
human will always have a same mistake, take every thing for granted and regret after losing it. I really dont how to advise him since my self facing the same mistake :(
before finish study i keep hoping is to finish faster than now finally i finish study than another thing i hope :) i want to a job desperately . i need income extra money at least can use own money to spent on friend and not parent money.
want to buy any thing also must ask and get permission, i know how stress my future life will be and i dont think become pilot sure will become play boy. i think any 1 can be play and not because of the job.
now only i known that doctor is worst, mix around with nurse can even play gang sex party. want to settle down every thing as soon as posibble
I just back from RB i can really feel rizal stress and unhappy , after get the interview but no news for a week more d........ Rizal vomit like hell and i drive back his car and settle down every thing . Rizal vomit on the car park it self and fall down hurt his face bleeding all over the face . I am scare and worry bout him , even just now i almost get high but i am sure that now i am totally a wake.
I message her every time when i am drinking have enought guts to do so....... But i still dont what actually happen thwt time ? SAd for me to keep lookinh for the truth , i am also human that feel and hurt. ???? Feel sad that been playing around or cheated . Fxxx if i will have a better life soon. Stress to get a job, the stress is not from my self but others if i doest make it i failure me parent and those that help me in. Now the path is right in frint of me nicely done just need my self to walk it though.
Down for no reason, non worry i will be fine later when i reach kuantan home with my parent. Comercial pilot life is reallh beyond my expectation.
Love you r
today it self i go endorse my CPL/IR after 3 years. than this coming june i will have chance go for air asia test by amazing help from 2 captain and God. Stress is a part of the journey , it will make me stronger and away from my comfort zone.
pilot life is really beyond what i am thinking !!!!! non thing is easy study study and study this is what captain say.
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i want to go back putra height for flight test already, flight test to ipog than is time for me to stress out again because have to go for interview at air asia :( .............
i just woke up from a nap , and i think i will just skip my meal and continue sleeping la............. after fly to alor setar today.
just 2 day lack of sleep make me tired for few day, no matter how much i sleep i still feel tired.
