POH = pilot operating handbook
call me holding a book the whole day ! so bored so thinking of this read what i memorise into the blog can read it any where i like
T.T today flight test i cant even go in the aircraft !!! feel super no mood and sad , first time dropping tear in font of instructor !! but am i deserve this ? dont compare to the weak student than is my fault d !!! but after compare with those that pass the test i feel more sad . people can pass by without doing flight plan , but i do the flight plan but other people fly my flight !!!
what capt say is correct we are no taxi driver other bus driver , not only the gold bar on the shoulder but people life !!!! i feel suck after feel that !! after a while of the briefing my eye just become more and more red than tear flow out during sign the fail test document !!!
i dont want to blame any body any more !!! i promise i wont let my tear flow out for this any more !!!!! thinking future to be the airline pilot also afraid d.................. in emergency pilot are the 1 safe you or destroy your life .
so many thing happen today !!! first is i suppose to fly another aircraft after finish all the paper work than last minute change to another air craft !! every thing have to re do again . the reason cant fly the aircraft is company never paid . than is weather building up boss mood also building up hai......... T.T what happen to me ?
is time to read back all the text book d...................... because there is meaning less that how good i can fly the aircraft but i cant even start the aircraft !!! ........................... currently just feel shame of my self !!
tomorrow is my flight test , slightly changer to the original plan !!
the 1 i hate and he also hate me will sit beside me as a examiner !!!! ha............ today ground test i did't not did well !! many thing i also cant answer !! but some of the question i also dont know should laugh out or cry out !!!! how many section of the flight manual ?? what type of question ?? the 1 i study he purposelly dont want to ask keep asking those random question !!! but my theory also not that good , because most of the question i also not sure not sure even though the answer is correct !!!
tonight no plan to go out for dinner any more , no time to waste and alsono mood :(
curently feel like cry out loud T.T ...................... stress to having the title of pilot !!! all of this is just a piece of cake for future carrer . good time for me to prepare > i still want to walk out safely after every single flight.
so fast risson and i come to age 21 d........... and this week he has plan a big 21th birthday party . i was thinking if even thing was fine i will go back celebrate with this brother but so gam !! another brother birthday on 2 oct !!!!! tan sie hai birthday !!!!
hai ya.......... i hope my test smooth smooth than i still able to walk back homw celebrate both birthday !!!
in my mind suddenlly think that what if my birthday ? who will come ?? :P
today weather was so bad , till i almost cant drive safely home . i cant imaging if today i today i ignore the weather go fly , i think i will end up is mess !!!
afte hear the whole true story of the air crash that happened last week , feel so uncomfortable because both pilot are not longer in this world d!!!! life are so short !!
keep finding some thing that can make my self happy !! HOW BOUT YOU ?? first time wake up by bad dream . is so so so scary till i almost fall down the bed , starting was sweet but the ending like shit !! so scary T.T i dream my eye "pop" out the bleed keep flowing no 1 help me . than the blood keep flown and flown than i fall down in dream but wake up in real life . first thing open my eye i check my eye still there ? luck just a dream !
tomorrow fly than do flight test again !! than can go for holiday d...... alone dont know when to go also . some time is not how beautiful and nice about the place , but who you go with ??
:) i am still who i am !!! small gas and childish !!!
i know i cant fly d....... but still have to go back johor . this feeling really suck !!!! what to do ? good thing not cheap , cheap thing not good !!! cheap school cheap service . fxx klifa 1!!!!!! !@#$%^&^%$ piss to the max and sad moody to the max !!!!
back to johor no 1 there !! the feeling really suck ! the only thing that can go is visit club :( sien......
tomorrow have to go back johor d............ fun less place !!! i hate johor to the max d......... cant really find a word to describe my feeling any more !!!
i need some body to love o......... oh................ bored d............. wish can finish my flight test asap !!
bored night with alcohol flowing in the blood stream !!
today i would like to talk about responsibility !! my brother always say me 没收尾！！ but did he be a good role model ?? for my opinion i dont think so , why i say that ? not because i feel sad or angry after get scold from him . this is what i see my own eye !! for working i dont think he work hard enough or smart enough !!!! because i dont think a managing sale officer every day will have a rest time from 1pm to 4 pm resting time lo......... i dont understand how it work or run but what i see is not right and always hear negative comment from mother and the boss .
every time he ask me honda civic very nice oh!!! i feel like buy 1 for my self than i ask him are you need it and affordable ? after buy this car you still have money for weeding ?? the answer he give me really piss me up !!! may be no so fast married lo.......... what the !!! last time keep telling wanted to settle down next year end due to "sister inlaw " age . but now he give me this shit answer !!!
every time he bring any thing in the room for sure him self wont bring it down 1 !!!!! i think without maid all the thing will still be there forever 1!!!! example , the detol bath gel refilling packer after refill the bottle he can put the packer there fo 2 to 3 days wait it self to disappear or going to the Dustin by it self !!!!
i lazy or feel shame to say people when me self did the same fuxxxxxx thing , but for him is special case !!! he has a very powerful talent tongue that never lose !!!! any thing he also can fight back 1 !!! lazy to quarrel la.........
dont what to say to him d............ he can read comic till midnight than skip tomorrow working but can well prepare at 7am because need fetch "sister to bus stop " !!! :) the power of love , is the power i need it right now !!! desperate
just received news that the guy that crash with the trainee pilot at johor just past away . age 38 only mean 17 year more for me ?? when is the end of the day of my self no 1 know except God . this whole year i feel unhappy still live in the dark . so emo always feel down , every thing was out of the planning .
last time i am so naive , thinking that i may form a family at age 25 because in my plan i suppose finish training and start looking for job and start earning the real money d........... but !!!!!!!!! like i say life is short and always out of the plan !!
yesterday a car accident happend at penang bridge !! age 19 and 17 another sad thing is this husband and wife have a baby d.......... they just married 1 year but........................... game over !!! age 19 & 17 .
sudddenly feel so gray in my life . fu..... !!!! really tired d.......... once again feeling wanted to find some 1 to share all my happiness ansd sadness d............ bored to be no body d..............
peace :) thank God i still a live
today afternoon i send the moon cake to "man man " grandma but i scare and lazy to answer those question . when you graduate ah ?? got gf d ma?? bored lo........
lucky there got cute litter girl company me :) , to over come the time ! super cure and smart girl age 3 but so talented .
fuxxx during eat baskin .Robbin the flavour i take remind me some thing , hai....... no mood to think that yet. fucxxxxxxxxx hate my school T.T when can i graduate i have no idea at all , CPL flight test haven get into the aircraft got sad thing happen d........ 1 aircraft crash . flight cancel than go back till now than the CEO say may go USA soon . what the hell ?? come on la ! not now man !!! stress !!!
no 1 to share out the feeling !!! 好蓝烦. keep drinking and eating over come the stresses but fuxxxx my body fat d........ fuxxxxxxx .................... tonight some more BBQ and beer . long time never drunk d...... the day i finish CPL i will drink till vomit and drink again !!!!!
too many photo and thing happen d...................... hope that tomorrow can post some of it .
too many thing inside my heart , those unhappy thing !! hai............. wanted to throw out all here !!! share out all the bad feeling :( .
so fast i have to go back johor d.......... bored . when can i graduate ? haha fxx u la........ hate this question !!
ah.............. ah.................... ah...........................
i almost crazy d................. the more you force not to think the more will repel . hope for better night tonight !!
good night :) love you
i think i dont want to think d .......... tired d.......... want to settle but no chance or may be is the better way la........ leave it la......... no time
http://011189-hopejoy.blogspot.com/ Will be my new start :)
hope that less and less time i will spent on this blog any more !!! because mostly info in this blog are unhealthy and emo .
mean that during i emo or sad i will taip in.......... that is me i dont like talk to any 1 bout my problem . i dont like to see the eye of pity !!! i not need your pettiness ,i am fine !!!
:today sound so pack for me !!!!!
7am company hong kong family member go beach
8am- 930ing breakfast with "spiritual mother and daddy "
11am-1230ng breakfast with brother friend
1pmking lunch with my KLcounsin
2pm -430 bring them to tmn gelora and tc beach !!!!
7pm church member got home warming !!!! postpone
730pm company daddy mummy for dinner
9:00pmhouse warming
11pm recieve a call for a friend ask out for a drink
1am back to home :)
long time never be like that d.......
the story happened at 3 year 9 month 24days ago....................... it started with a lie , if not mistaken that night is raining night .that night a gang of dwarf has plan a surprise party for white , to achieve the surprise level prince has decided a plan by telling a lie to white that he cant make it for the party . but the true is he having some dwarf inside the party as a look out or informer so that he can come out at the right time and give white a tear drop surprise .
before every thing was plan prince are preparing him self with some instrument but that time prince doest any instrument yet......... so before the party date was set . he go for a short instrument training , still remember that the teacher ask him why you want to learn ?? he answer what even thing as long he can sing it out with a birthday song that is good enough . just i a mention before prince are such a tone deafness never really playing any instrument before . so even just a easy movement for him also feel so hard .for him every tone sound almost the same so teacher can another way to teach him . by playing the basic melody first , after able to handle the basic melody is time for the real work d.
after 1 week training finally can play out so melody d........ but by playing the whole sound still not that smooth keep on jam here and there . what he can do is keep playing and practising because practise make prefect . after few day , finally the melody part been solve out .
another thing pop out at the TO DO LIST , how to make a surprise ? because prince really not good in lie !!! even by telling the lie by using sms he message the informer inside the party to write the reason for him and he just forward out the message . i still remember that the reason given was due to competition so cant make it to the party .
the big day finally came , but that night weather no so good heavy rain . because of the surprise so that prince will go the party place by other people car . after 15min driving , we reach the party place but prince be warn not to get out from the car until further notice . fine !!! but that time the Clock show only 8+ . that day because rushing and preparing he dont take his dinner , imaging hungry and cool inside the car but party just 2 step a head of it . hai.......... after more than a hour waiting he contact the informer how was every thing is that ok ?? how was white face emotion after receive the sms? the informer told that she look down after reading the sms . that moment he almost want to get out the car d..... but informer say wait !! is not the right time yet !!!
another hour just pass , finally he receive a call that the game is going on d..... mean that prince can enter there any minute . the game is just a excuse to cover white eye to give time for prince to enter the place and get ready !!! Tang Tang Tang DAnnnnnnnn !!!!!!!!! is time to open white eye !! prince wearing straight white from top to bottom are white , and the guitar was black in colour . Wah !!! any way a birthday song is playing on live right in front of white. prince dont know whether white like this type of surprise anot ? but see a tear flowing out every hard work was deserve .
notice ............................. this bed time story is NOT base on reality just imagination .... that why call bed time story
what is happen to me ?? i was thinking am i too arrogant or too inferiority T.T i really lose !!! why i still be like that !!! such a loser !!! really such a bustard !!!
today my close friend friend or can say my brother chong yu give me a call say that he want to meet with me asap , that time i at church i say ok later we meet up ok !! than he say no i want to talk to you now !! wah !!! so urgent ah ?? any thing must see me now la...??? i just break with girlfriend i want to find some 1 to talk . me : ok !!! wait for me !!
than after half and hour , i was thinking that whether he will do some thing stupid anot since i cant meet he on the spot !! i dot want it happen like my schoolmate than kill him self !! what i hear is he want to find some 1 to share out the feeling but no 1 is there T.T . right after that image pop out i straight away call him make sure he is ok , than after 5 to 6 times i call no 1 pick up that moment i really feel scare it is any thing happen d???? SHIT !!! in the end the 7 call he pick up d....... straight away get me scold !!! almost make me shit in th pants..... good to hear that you are a life !!!
faster come pick me we go for drink , share what even you want to say !!! some time i also feel weird why many people want to share they feeling out to me le........ but i dont mind be the lisener la........ but i cant do any thing also , just give some support and lent out my ear 24hour !!! call me any thing : ) that what i promise !!! i dont want lose any single friend i cant effort to lose any 1 in my life anymore T.T . close friend are so limited to me !!!!
meet him again tommorow to make sure he really ok anot !!!
by the time stop i was thinking !! when ting happen to me who should i call ??? but i know i mostly wont call or tell any 1 !!! that is me . i dont feel like want get some pity me !!! but i not pityful i am fine !!!
my cousin couple with a malay girl at my school !!!!! oh no !!!!! a love bite on the neck !!!!!!!
crazy bustard !!!!!!!!
Aircraft crashes in Gunung Pulai; one confirmed killed
BY NELSON BENJAMIN
JOHOR BARU: A two-seater aircraft has crashed in Gunung Pulai during a test flight at about 9.45am.
Two persons, including a Civil Aviation Department official, were onboard.
one person is confirmed to be killed.
this new come out at 9.45 am!!!! that time i still at the school but dont even know what is happen ing ??? but the press already post the new to the web d............. i cant believe what just happen!! air craft on fire and 1 of the pilot dead and the another 1 80% burning !!!!
what got mood for raya d??
T.T dont know i feel like crying out !!!! just now 10am 1 of our school air craft crashed !! the student just age 19 flying with examiner !!! what i hear was she girl dead cause of burning !!!
what if this happen to me ?? what my parent will feel ? any 1 will cry for me like what i doing it now T.T ..............
another RIP case is my school !!!!!!! i really thank god i still alive !!!
but what i am the next ?? am i ready for it ??
just finish study for the test , feel so stress today i suppose got 1 flight with capt chit the flight is the last flight for me to prepare for the flight test but today weather bad so i cant manage to do the flight . is you ask me confident anot for sure i say confident but do I??
commercial pilot licence !!! very important test for me , because of that not thing gonna stop me for the test !!! except weather and air craft down !!!! the foot sprain cant stop me for this test !! the pain i still handle and over come it .
after tomorrow i will have a long long holiday d........... prepare English test and twin type exam as well !!! after that i Will be so free !!!! a good time for me to settle some thing that i wanted to settle it 1 year ago :( .
wish me all the best :)
sound pretty nice !! i feel want to finish it soon , but today flying solo i get back the joy of flying :)
because almost finish the feeling is really nice :) . so fast come to the ending of CPL d............. but by the time thinking of flying the twin engine the 35 hour . i feel scare dont want when only can finish the 35 hour !!!!!!!! 2 month i can clock almost 60++ hour but for twin engine . the only 1 twin air craft in my school but tons of student on the waiting list .
after twin engine , job less :) no cable :) no job :)
even in school we can see this !!!!! a cadet that having captain father than always get priority till not enough hour also can go for flight test . just because the CFI want get closer with him for some connection to enter the airline easy !!!! hai......... this world is really true and ugly !! but i love to play this game and i believe i can play it very well !!!
hot hot hot hot hot water !!!!!!!
hai........ thinking how to increase the foot lever over the chest to reduce the swollen !!!! now you know why people foot sprain or fracture the doctor always tie their leg in high lever position :)
after wearing socking no 1 know i am injure lo..... but cant walk la..... look weird during walking cause of the pain :(
thank st john at least at the time no 1 free to help me , i still can handle the bandage my self
apply some zheng gu shui to stop the swollen and pain !!the foot sprain make border me the whole night !!!!
shit !! tonight gonna fly !!!! T.T flight test next week ............. why !! at this time man!!!! keep on apply cream but the pain still i think later have to take pain killer !!!
super no mood !!!
shit !!!! just now go play badminton accidentally my foot was sprained !!!!! pain till the tear almost flow out. applying ice feel better but now pain again T.T . always like that 1..... when i not flying i am so healthy than when i want to fly here injure the injure or sure got thing happend in the period of time !
tonight will be worst la....... imsonia plus sprain foot !!!!! tomorrow night flying !!! solo some more !!!!! shit !!!!! than next week flight test !!! T.T WHY sprain at this time !!!! T.T
dont what happen recently ? every night i also will fall sleep around 3++ even though i am very tired d......... cover the eye with eyeshade does not help much !!! just hugging the pillow harder and harder till no strenght than fall sleep .the most.........
.....................................to be continue
