phobia d.....

last night rizal bring me to a live band club near by subang area , i think i wont ever forget that night !!!! starting we just have some easy drink chivas coke . after 4 cup i feel not thing than he order chivas dry mean pure chivas no mixture !!! after that cup i feel some thing going on but because liquor is slow so he order i bucket of tiger beer . i really dont like tiger beer taste after drinking 3 bottle i order 1 guinness stout , first time drinking at first taste bitter but sunddely i hear a song that recall my memory !! that moment i just thinking to drink and drunk . i finish the stout like water than the knock down drink came d..........


guess what ?? oh my..... is long island , that time i dont really care what type of drink been serve any more as long it can bring me down !! after the second and the half cup of long island i been knock down nicely .


that moment i feel so lonely i jump to the dance floor , till now i still cant belief i just did that !!! i dance among the aunty . but seriously they are really good in dancing ! what i am doing ? i also dont know!

i cant really remember how i get into the car and how i go back d...... but along the way home i vomiting like hell !!! the SHIT part is i vomiting inside the car !! damn it how can i just did that ?? today morning i vomit again , whole body feel so uncomfortable especially the stomach make me feel like vomit again ! even now too !!

now i hope that faster finish my 165 hour and the exam as well , than during the holiday
i want to settle some thing ! i know 1 day i never settle it 1 day i also will still stuck it the same thing over and over again !!! but i know not now !!! because mostly the result i will get is not the 1 i want to hear but to solve it nicely is meaning for me to prevent awkward in the future time .

say what even thing inside my heart out and close this case forever !! moody and up set body day